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juz during my Calculus 162 class... it was chosen by my mates...

i noe sum r cursing me... wth is wrong wif this idiotic gurl...

guess its true in sum ways!! :D

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i was doin maths when sdnly i remembered.. d week i was told 2 leave ky i jz told my mum i am not goin bck home over d weekends since d holz is jz 1 week away.. n it was a day b4 i got d call i tink... i thought it was of no significance bt then nw i tink its jz a way 2 show tat things dun always go d way i want it 2 be... instead of not goin bck 4 d weekends, i ended up goin bck 4eva.. ironic, eh? =)

hw i get 2 remember tis.. i tink d stress wif calculus 4 bus 2 did it.. on thurs i tink i was talkin n laughin all d time despite notin was particularly hilarious.. my mates were shocked n mayb kinda scared of me at tat time bt nw im kinda stable though it brought back certain stuf which nvr crossed my mind b4... hehehe

n ystrdy i managed 2 shock a couple of guys 4 playin dota.. seriously, im not gud at it.. jz 2 release d tense frm 162 n tatz bout it.. bt they were shocked i cn tell ya tat 4 sure :D

seriously.. im doin my maths at d mo... graphs again.. i hv been stuck wif tis 4 d whole week.. lab report is not done yet... gonna get it done latest 2nite!!

back 2 work! ;)

now...

somehow these past few days i feel a lil bit disturbed. instead of looking forward 2 classes in taylors, ive been tinkin a lot bout kyuem.. hehehe though things r under control, i hv a feelin tat im bein slightly sensitive these past few days...ive been tinkin n tinkin.. tat at times if im not careful im certain i would b drowned in thoughts, again.. tinkin of 'if' again.. =) not a gud thing 2 do, i assure u

wonder hw things gonna turn out tis sem.. i realized at times wat i say n tink r 2 diff things... there is definitely a mask im wearing; concealin d part of me.. im inside a glass box.. protecting my heart from those i dislike.. bt i guess d glass is about 2 break.. 2 many things hv happened.. 2 many events which caused it 2 crack n alas its either i soar or ill sink... things happen 4 a reason n i havent forgiven myself and d other party.. n i spose tatz wat put me in tis tight position... an unforgiving loneliness at times.. barely 4get d meaning of it since last aug bt i spose life is unperfect... d imperfectness makes me tink... n tink.. n at times get tired of tinking...

nevertheless, i shall find a reason 2 move on.. though my heart is still behind bt i guess i gotta go.. n leave a part of me behind.. i still am tinkin wat if.. even rite nw... still tinkin n it wont stop till sumtin larger happen n mite take me by surprise... as much as d july n aug surprise... as long as i havent forgiven myself 4 d decision... i guess ill b stuck like tis 4eva...

so, lets start d 2nd part of my journey.. like wat sum1 said b4, i hv d most interestin edu journey in my fam n slowly it mite kill me frm knowin my self.. it mite make me a good actress though.. mayb i shud take up theater class soon... =P

l.e.t.s.w.o.r.k.h.a.r.d.t.o.a.c.h.i.e.v.e.o.u.r.d.r.e.a.m.z.t.h.o.u.g.h.i.t.w.o.u.l.d.m.e.a.n.i.n .f.l.i.c.t.i.n.g.p.a.i.n.o.n.s.e.l.f.

Six

Walking down the path,
Where birds fly free, breeze singing,
Sakura floating.

Moon, remain hidden,
And darkness embraces me,
Immutable curse.

wat im up 2...

wat am i up 2 these few days.. nutin much.. bt soon aftr im bck frm kenyir i was tinkin of writin a myth bout koi fish.. dun ask me y.. sdnly koi seem 2 b appealing 2 my eyes.. they remind me of those olden chinese stories where they hv this long beard n moustache as well.. hehehe juz crossed my mind.. bt well.. workin on it at d mo.. though d settin will b in japan (as if ive been there..) research is definitely needed bt i hv no idea whether i will b able 2 end tis work of mine or not.. lately all ive been writing ends up hanging half way through.. i wasnt able 2 conc on them properly.. sumtin is buggin me i spose...

nw im not well (again) flu n all.. not forgettin body ache... evrytin seems 2 b wrong at times... miraculously i woke up at 6am 2day though i told myself 2 go 2 bed again coz i wasnt feelin gud... college is startin again n im dreading 2 start classes... d holz hv spoilt me that i dun feel like studyin yet.. huhu help me!!! im sooooooooooo lazy.... esp since i havent got my timetable when others hv obtained theirs...

k, better get bck 2 work..sat is comin up!! -wish me luck!- =)