-silence-

so~ im supposed 2 write my essay but i end up doing this *i hv the outline ready though~ so its not like i havent worked on anything at all XD*

raindrops
or is it tears?
and my sight blurred
but i could clearly see a figure walking
into the unending dark
and i stood there alone, in the cold
i wanted to call your name
but my voice disappeared, engulfed by the dark night
i wanted to run to you
but my feet were tied, attached to the clinging shadows
eyes shut tight
and a silent prayer
just for another moment, for the last time
hold me tight.

a child's journey

a forsaken child
standing alone on a long dark road
staring blankly at the ground
thoughts creeping through her mind
"is a lost soul bound to return?"

the cold nights and the dark sky was solitude
engulfing the innocence of a child
forgetting the meaning of hope
missing the meaning of joy
the hollowness of her soul was clear
reflected in the empty eyes tainted with fear
staring up the blank sky
searching for the hidden answer to an unknown question.

a lost child
silently standing in the dark
waiting for the unknown
searching for the unknown
the ache of an empty soul darkened by solitude
silently searching for the ray of hope
silently praying for a touch of warmth
a sudden voice from within
"im searching for the moon; the light within the dark."

moment of silence

I noe im dyin at d mo.. bt im stil awake >.< i jz feel like puttin tis 2gether.. its been buggin me n i cant sleep.. bt perhaps tis kinda buggin is quite gud in a way..^^

if space is none
and us is one
silence would b foe
and words would befriend
for words r all i could share
and a piece of my broken heart
shatterin soul, unmended by time.

for yesterday, death awaits
fallin; blinded by pain
for waitin, a painful task
yet there was i, waitin for d unknown
for the furthest is wat i yearned
a lust: a painful want
and yet.. d smile in front
silent and patient
unknown to these blinded eyes.

to be there is what u r
for d thoughtless babble, a soft smile
for d meaningless whine, a warm laugh
and there, like a fool, staring at u
cowering within d comfort i found
and unknown 2 u n me
an imprint on my heart
calm and warm
unknown to self; embracing with ease.

now ur smile is wat i yearn
yet fear creepin within
for time is potion
n time is poison
a lingering presence im tryin 2 grasp
yet fearful of holdin on
words r failin, silence spreadin
wishin eyes could speak
as mine meet urs
and a smile breaks.

1.. 2.. 3?

aftr bein awake 4 more than 24hrs ovr d weekends n constant pndrg.. tis is wat i came up wif

wat if i say

for each second ur on my mind

it hurts every bit of my soul

for each moment you turned away

it breaks me to pieces

tryin to stop thinkin

bt never able too

a wound; deep and unhealed...

d unspoken pain

and my soul withers

memories of u, walkin away... again, repeatedly

hurting and hoping

a silent prayer: you, plz.. stop. turn and look at me.

Death Note

yes, i know.. the title is too creepy for the content.. but that was the first thing which came to mind... *i hate picking titles.. LOL*

If tomorrow be my last
I would soar into the sky
To reach for one; the never mine
The only one: You.

If tomorrow be my last
I would dive into the deep sea
To search for one; the hidden treasure
The only one: Your smile.

If tomorrow be my last
I would be silence
To seek for one; the calming hymn
The only one: Your voice.

If the end is here
And my second is done
I would give you my soul
For I am the peasant
Wanting the one which is never mine
Giving nothing more than I to you
You; every pulse of mine
You; every breath of mine
You; who never is mine.

Untitled 2

Life is a mysterious journey; path unknown and ending unexpected.
The ending of one episode of our life indicated the beginning of another.
Though the beginning might be sober, the path might be just the opposite.
As us, humans, dream of big things: Successful career, luxurious life, high salary
We forget the true meaning of life.
We forget what a smile would do to us.
How it could move the cloudy days away, with only a sincere smile from our loved ones.
As we try to catch the stars, we leave imprints on the soil.
For every step we take, we leave a memory behind.
Each step, a new journey.
Each step, a new environment.
Each step, a new realization.
Which in turn, brings in experience and humility.
And at the end, makes us a person seen by others as who we are today: for better or worse.
An imprint and a memory, not only to the soil, or solely to our self souls but also to those around us.
Be it hated or loved, liked or dislike, we made an impression.
An impression which could last a life time.
Even as the years would have clouded our old memory of childhood, if we were to have a true memory, a true companion in life, the best thing which we would remember,
The things which we would miss most...
Is no other than their smile, which brought kindness and warmth to the frozen and wounded soul of ours.

innocent thought I

The blue sky
Looking with blinded eyes
Silently thinking
“Would I see it change colour?”
And my heart slowly ached.

I saw the flower
Budding in May
And yet
I thought
“Would I ever be able to see it bloom next spring?”
And my soul slowly breaks.

The slow breeze
Singing the song of life
While I, watching
The wilting of self
To a person unknown to others
Unknown to world.

The Melancholy (of i today)

Today,
I hear but I did not listen
I see but I did not look
And of the laughter
I only felt pain
when the trembling of my soul
could be detained no longer
and hatred have given birth
from self to fate; of i to I.

Of laughter and smiles; a fake
of pleasure in both
have long been lost
in the mist of grief
as dreams have brought wrath
crucifixion of joy
to lament, eternally.

of Ignorance, I am ashamed,
of Sorrow, I am pained,
but you, seeing from afar
thought silently
"she is just as fine."

My Little Wish

If I were,
To close my eyes,
Could I turn back time,
And return,
To where I belong?

If I were,
To pray hard and deep,
Could I hear your voice,
And again,
Take in your smile?

I wish,
I am still there,
With you, together
Fly towards the open sky,
Reaching for the same bright star.