Ok.. d 3rd renshu juz passed today... :) it was more tiring than b4 n sumhow 'miraculously' my right ankle was aching on d way 2 d ima.. howeva, i braced myself *lol* n stil continued d lesson... my right ankle is feelin a lil bit worse nw bt well.. i hope its gonna b fine wif some ointments n things like tat.. tis always happen i tink.. it happened several times ^^
so what happened 2day.. more feet movement.. another thing.. LOL my alertness level is pretty bad i guess.... or mayb its cz i focus on other things n kinda 4get bout certain other things.. like my feet positions, my komai n things like that... d bokun position as well.. gotta buck up on tat side.... n i will try my best 2 pay more attention 2 evry single details in kendo as much as i cn.. n i will try my best 2 improve during evry single lesson *ill gv it my best shot ^^* thought improvement mite not come within split second, i hope at least it would do me some gud at least at d end of tis quarter ^^
more peepz r comin into kendo 2day... n most probably 2day is gonna b d last day of new intakes... tatz wat Marsten-sensei said.. mayb :) well... had a looonnnggg practice day 2day.. it felt longer 2day 4 certain reasons.. hmm... n b4 goin bck.. talkd a bit 2 Damon-senpai.. din go 4 iaido.. followed a new group of fwenz bck home ^^ it is RELI nice of them to walk me bck home.. reli reli nice ^^
n tis fri after practice, there will b a bubble tea nite... ^^ did i mention my mum was dead worried bout me x gettin bck though it was l8..after xplainin she was fine wif it ^^ tis fri gonna b l8 as well, i guess ^^ thank goodness 2mr class dun start at 830.. so i cn sleep again after sahur n subuh... get a lil bit more rest than usual i guess... n yeah.. relax my right feet which is x workin tat well.. my left is as expected..aching n blistering.. *x shocking* bt well.. d prob is nw my righty.. we'll c hw things goes... praying it will b fine :)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
D Shoreline Trip
LOL. yeah..i went 2 shoreline 2day... 2 d central market, 2 b more specific.. *lolz.. thinkin back.. i shud hv gone 2 uwajimaya first cz its nearer...* bt well.. that is where i went 2day.. n it was a LOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG but meaningful trip.. 4 various reason...
i woke up super late 2day cz sumhow after subuh i felt pretty exhausted stil... *bt my legs r no more hurting YAY!* n i took d 216 bus on 31 to aurora ave *i tink* n sumhow i missed my transit bus which is bus 5... not long b4 i arrive at d bus station, d bus passed by me *LOLZ* so, i gotta wait 4 d next bus.... sumhow.. d next 5 was not headin 2 shoreline.. bt its goin 2 northgate transit.. so there i was tinkin.. mayb i shud jz go bck cz its alredi 3 plus... wel... bt i thought tat would b a waste of time n since i rmmbrd at metro website that i cn go 2 shoreline frm northgate transit, so yeah.. i made up my mind 2 continue my journey despite not knowing which bus 2 go on.. *4 real*
arrived at d transit n well.. searched 4 a map n chckd which one heads 2 shoreline... there i met a Halmoni.. who helped me throughout d journey.. d bus driver almost got me goin d wrong direction when d halmoni told her 2 call me again 2 head d other side 2 go on 358... during d whole journey on 345 d halmoni told me of her story.. her 5 siblings din want her nemore.. all of them r in south korea... n its due 2 d fact that none of them have been in touch wif each other.. hence, lost contact... well, one of her son is here in seattle... while d other has passed away 7 years ago at the young age of 20.. yeah, i hv problems understanding what she is saying at times.. but well, d message did come across.. as she was talkin bout her deceased son, i tink there were tears in her eyes... n she admitted she stil misses him... that is what we call as mother's love.. never ending :) n neways, she is 66.. she now stays in an old folks home sumwhere at aurora...
after gettin on 358 im stil at a lost on where d market is.. so i askd d kind driver 2 tell me when 2 stop.. all smiles he said he would inform me when i shud get down... n its as if it was fated that i met another lady who helped me 2 get 2 d market... as d driver waved at me 2 get off d bus d lady offered me to go wif her 2 d market... she is joan, btw.. :) a nice lady.. reli nice.. like d halmoni :) if i were alone.. i am pretty sure ill b walkin around aimlessly searchin 4 d market.. LOLZ cz its not exactly opposite d bus stop.. bt well.. since we went 2gether.. i managed 2 get 2 it... n she told me bout another asian market by d name of H&T i tink.. bt i did write it down in my book.. n i took joan's email.. *gud 4 me* n she told me that it was brave of me 2 b travellin far on my own *LOL.. its kinda fun i tink* bt she did tell me that if i wanna noe hw 2 go newhere, i can just buzz her.. *she is soo kind!* n then, we set of our own ways in d market...
d market is RELI big!!! d biggest i have enterd yet ere :) n i bought some fishes, prawn, squid, seafood n vege dumplings, wonton mee n yakisoba :) gosh, i dunno wat im gonna do wif all those bt well.. it would serve me well for d whole month i guess... i hope it would last tat long... n i noe it would if i stop myself frm eating loadz of food over d weekends n yeah! i bought my 1st snack!! baby fishies biscuit!! i ate them b4 in msia.. n i found them again!! i was SOO xcited when i saw tat on d shelves.. LOL... i was smiling all d way... n i tink i bough spinach pizza as well.. i hope it tastes as good as hw it was back in swiss :)
on d way back.. took 358, 345 *ouch, nw im x sure whether it was 345 or 354* n then 66 bck home... n as soon as i got bck.. whipped up some dinner n well.. here i am! on9!! :) more work 2 do 2nite... better get movin! :)
i woke up super late 2day cz sumhow after subuh i felt pretty exhausted stil... *bt my legs r no more hurting YAY!* n i took d 216 bus on 31 to aurora ave *i tink* n sumhow i missed my transit bus which is bus 5... not long b4 i arrive at d bus station, d bus passed by me *LOLZ* so, i gotta wait 4 d next bus.... sumhow.. d next 5 was not headin 2 shoreline.. bt its goin 2 northgate transit.. so there i was tinkin.. mayb i shud jz go bck cz its alredi 3 plus... wel... bt i thought tat would b a waste of time n since i rmmbrd at metro website that i cn go 2 shoreline frm northgate transit, so yeah.. i made up my mind 2 continue my journey despite not knowing which bus 2 go on.. *4 real*
arrived at d transit n well.. searched 4 a map n chckd which one heads 2 shoreline... there i met a Halmoni.. who helped me throughout d journey.. d bus driver almost got me goin d wrong direction when d halmoni told her 2 call me again 2 head d other side 2 go on 358... during d whole journey on 345 d halmoni told me of her story.. her 5 siblings din want her nemore.. all of them r in south korea... n its due 2 d fact that none of them have been in touch wif each other.. hence, lost contact... well, one of her son is here in seattle... while d other has passed away 7 years ago at the young age of 20.. yeah, i hv problems understanding what she is saying at times.. but well, d message did come across.. as she was talkin bout her deceased son, i tink there were tears in her eyes... n she admitted she stil misses him... that is what we call as mother's love.. never ending :) n neways, she is 66.. she now stays in an old folks home sumwhere at aurora...
after gettin on 358 im stil at a lost on where d market is.. so i askd d kind driver 2 tell me when 2 stop.. all smiles he said he would inform me when i shud get down... n its as if it was fated that i met another lady who helped me 2 get 2 d market... as d driver waved at me 2 get off d bus d lady offered me to go wif her 2 d market... she is joan, btw.. :) a nice lady.. reli nice.. like d halmoni :) if i were alone.. i am pretty sure ill b walkin around aimlessly searchin 4 d market.. LOLZ cz its not exactly opposite d bus stop.. bt well.. since we went 2gether.. i managed 2 get 2 it... n she told me bout another asian market by d name of H&T i tink.. bt i did write it down in my book.. n i took joan's email.. *gud 4 me* n she told me that it was brave of me 2 b travellin far on my own *LOL.. its kinda fun i tink* bt she did tell me that if i wanna noe hw 2 go newhere, i can just buzz her.. *she is soo kind!* n then, we set of our own ways in d market...
d market is RELI big!!! d biggest i have enterd yet ere :) n i bought some fishes, prawn, squid, seafood n vege dumplings, wonton mee n yakisoba :) gosh, i dunno wat im gonna do wif all those bt well.. it would serve me well for d whole month i guess... i hope it would last tat long... n i noe it would if i stop myself frm eating loadz of food over d weekends n yeah! i bought my 1st snack!! baby fishies biscuit!! i ate them b4 in msia.. n i found them again!! i was SOO xcited when i saw tat on d shelves.. LOL... i was smiling all d way... n i tink i bough spinach pizza as well.. i hope it tastes as good as hw it was back in swiss :)
on d way back.. took 358, 345 *ouch, nw im x sure whether it was 345 or 354* n then 66 bck home... n as soon as i got bck.. whipped up some dinner n well.. here i am! on9!! :) more work 2 do 2nite... better get movin! :)
Friday, October 2, 2009
2nd Practice
Today (Fri) is the 2nd practice or shall I say, lesson, with Elizabeth Sensei and Damon Senpai... it is realy tiring cz well... d ache frm wed havent healed yet n here i am puttin more pressure on my muscles.. bt since we were allowed 2 do it at our own pace... it doenst hurt tat much ^^ reli nice of them 2 allow us 2 do so ^^
D other day we learnt Komai *i tink thatz hw its spelled* and d basic feet movement of d feet for kendo... and also a lil bit of sword swinging and incorporate it with basic feet movement.. as 4 today.. it was d attack feet movement and at d end of d day *b4 we go down n c senpai-tachi having their renshu Damon-senpai thought us 2 incorporate the swinging wif d attack feet movement. pretty tough while thinkin bout ur feet moving faster and gettin d swing stable n all.. well, i guess i did it pretty slowly.. LOL i reli reli reli hope things will get better as d weeks pass by :)
What Damon-senpai said 2day was pretty cool... kendo is x bout using ur energy but about controlling ur sword... i guess its kinda true cz if u put 2 much force in it..u mite end up hurting urself rather than ur opponent n there is a high chance that he/she mite take advantage of tat situation... well, bottom line is, always b in control of everytin u do :) n well, another fact which Damon-senpai told me was.. usually around 75% drops Kendo... LOL i hope i would be one of d 25% though in msia 2 practice kendo would b kinda hard cz its not popular as others like taekwondo or karate.. hence, kendo dojo is almost never in sight.. *sighs* but nvm.. ill try 2 search one i guess n get myself work out there even after graduating ^^
D other day we learnt Komai *i tink thatz hw its spelled* and d basic feet movement of d feet for kendo... and also a lil bit of sword swinging and incorporate it with basic feet movement.. as 4 today.. it was d attack feet movement and at d end of d day *b4 we go down n c senpai-tachi having their renshu Damon-senpai thought us 2 incorporate the swinging wif d attack feet movement. pretty tough while thinkin bout ur feet moving faster and gettin d swing stable n all.. well, i guess i did it pretty slowly.. LOL i reli reli reli hope things will get better as d weeks pass by :)
What Damon-senpai said 2day was pretty cool... kendo is x bout using ur energy but about controlling ur sword... i guess its kinda true cz if u put 2 much force in it..u mite end up hurting urself rather than ur opponent n there is a high chance that he/she mite take advantage of tat situation... well, bottom line is, always b in control of everytin u do :) n well, another fact which Damon-senpai told me was.. usually around 75% drops Kendo... LOL i hope i would be one of d 25% though in msia 2 practice kendo would b kinda hard cz its not popular as others like taekwondo or karate.. hence, kendo dojo is almost never in sight.. *sighs* but nvm.. ill try 2 search one i guess n get myself work out there even after graduating ^^
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
1st Practice
As soon as I entered, i was almost like.. am i reli gonna do tis? LOL and yeah.. i survived d 1st nite.. d 1st class... my body is hurting but i guess its all part n parcel of d practice... im very certain as soon as im used 2 it.. d pain would go away :D *though i might suffer walking around campus 2mr wif an aching left leg... LOL* but i tink its gonna b worth it :D
im d oni malaysian there *im pretty certain tatz d case* but well, i din feel a bit left out :) i guess all of us are treated equally n i am pretty eager n look 4ward 2 d next class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat we did today was something 2 do wif d footing n movement.. *crap.. i 4got wat its called..* bt i rmmbr komai :D its a gud thing at least i rmmbr one name... but at least i do rmmbr d steps which was taught despite not rmmbrng d names.. LOL nevertheless! ill try my best i guess and if my best is x enuf than ill try harder till my limits *not 2 d point of getting myself injured badly or netin bt 2 put in more effort than ive ever put into anythin* ^^
YAY for new activities and experiences :D
im d oni malaysian there *im pretty certain tatz d case* but well, i din feel a bit left out :) i guess all of us are treated equally n i am pretty eager n look 4ward 2 d next class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat we did today was something 2 do wif d footing n movement.. *crap.. i 4got wat its called..* bt i rmmbr komai :D its a gud thing at least i rmmbr one name... but at least i do rmmbr d steps which was taught despite not rmmbrng d names.. LOL nevertheless! ill try my best i guess and if my best is x enuf than ill try harder till my limits *not 2 d point of getting myself injured badly or netin bt 2 put in more effort than ive ever put into anythin* ^^
YAY for new activities and experiences :D
Saturday, August 29, 2009
my autobiography???
Once you've been tagged, Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS and re-post as, "My Autobiography" ... And use your own answers, not anyone else 's.
1. Where did you take your profile pic?
~ d one in d blog is in mcd d one in fb is at skyn/s hse! :D
2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
~ t-shirt n track
3. What is your current problem?
~ ate 2 much???
4. What makes you happy most?
~ fwen n fam time, watch anime!! :D
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
~ Love in d ice, dbsk
6. Any celeb you would marry?
~ LOL... none crossed my mind..
7. Name someone/persons with the same birthday as you:
~ dunno wor.. bt i noe one jr have d same as mine..but 4got who.. huhu
8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
~ oh yeah..... when i was 7.. :P
9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
~ nah... im too unique *in a gud way* 2 b like any of them.. :P too cute 2 b a celeb :D
10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
~ YEAH!!!
11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
~ Malay (obvi), korean n jap *ere n there*
12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away? Yes
~ yes
13. Do you ever watch MTV?
~ yeah.. sometimes...
14. What's something that really annoys you?
~ procrastination, ignorance *though i do tat at times 2..*
Chapter 1
1. Middle name: NA
2. Nickname(s): Fafa??
3. Current location: study room..
4. Eye color: Brown
Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s): YUP!! :)
2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?: Married la weyh.. :)
Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream: go vanilla!! its my fav!! oh yeah.. d sours ones too :D
2. Season: winter n spring :) autumn too.. :) bt my fav is winter..
3. Shampoo/conditioner: currently usin loreal
4. Favorite Thing: lappy, mp3, ipod
Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Dance in the shower? : nah....
2. Do you write on your hand? hehehe..its a habit :D
3. Call people back? : if necessary...
4. Believe in God? yes! :)
5. Any bad habits? lol..temper... *almost evry noes rite??*
6. Any mental health issues? cn b reli gila at times :D
Chapter 5: Have You..
1. Sprained stuff? ankle :D
2. Had physical therapy? nope...
3. Gotten stitches? hmm..yeah... eh.. no it wasnt stitched.. almost got it though
4. Taken painkillers? oh yeaaahhhh
5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling? nope...
6. Thrown up at the dentist? nope...
7. Sworn in front of your parents? oh no.... eh.. mayb yeah.. d minor ones.. in a jk manner, btw
8. Had detention? NEVA! :D
Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1. Three people who texted? sonsengnim
2. Person you called? lol.. cant rmmbr... i tink d money changer.. LOL
3. Person you hugged? ngimmi
4. Person you tackled? none..
5. Person you talked to on MSN? khairil...
6. Thing you touched? keyboard
7. Thing you ate? oxtail soup :D
8. Thing you drank? tea
9. Thing you said? detective conan!! YEA!!!!!
10. Friend you saw ytd (12am-12am)? aiyoo.. i was at home d whole time...
NOW TAG 20 PEOPLE! AND GET THEM TO DO THE SAME! :) =lol..lazy=
1. Where did you take your profile pic?
~ d one in d blog is in mcd d one in fb is at skyn/s hse! :D
2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
~ t-shirt n track
3. What is your current problem?
~ ate 2 much???
4. What makes you happy most?
~ fwen n fam time, watch anime!! :D
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
~ Love in d ice, dbsk
6. Any celeb you would marry?
~ LOL... none crossed my mind..
7. Name someone/persons with the same birthday as you:
~ dunno wor.. bt i noe one jr have d same as mine..but 4got who.. huhu
8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
~ oh yeah..... when i was 7.. :P
9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
~ nah... im too unique *in a gud way* 2 b like any of them.. :P too cute 2 b a celeb :D
10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
~ YEAH!!!
11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
~ Malay (obvi), korean n jap *ere n there*
12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away? Yes
~ yes
13. Do you ever watch MTV?
~ yeah.. sometimes...
14. What's something that really annoys you?
~ procrastination, ignorance *though i do tat at times 2..*
Chapter 1
1. Middle name: NA
2. Nickname(s): Fafa??
3. Current location: study room..
4. Eye color: Brown
Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s): YUP!! :)
2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?: Married la weyh.. :)
Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream: go vanilla!! its my fav!! oh yeah.. d sours ones too :D
2. Season: winter n spring :) autumn too.. :) bt my fav is winter..
3. Shampoo/conditioner: currently usin loreal
4. Favorite Thing: lappy, mp3, ipod
Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Dance in the shower? : nah....
2. Do you write on your hand? hehehe..its a habit :D
3. Call people back? : if necessary...
4. Believe in God? yes! :)
5. Any bad habits? lol..temper... *almost evry noes rite??*
6. Any mental health issues? cn b reli gila at times :D
Chapter 5: Have You..
1. Sprained stuff? ankle :D
2. Had physical therapy? nope...
3. Gotten stitches? hmm..yeah... eh.. no it wasnt stitched.. almost got it though
4. Taken painkillers? oh yeaaahhhh
5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling? nope...
6. Thrown up at the dentist? nope...
7. Sworn in front of your parents? oh no.... eh.. mayb yeah.. d minor ones.. in a jk manner, btw
8. Had detention? NEVA! :D
Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1. Three people who texted? sonsengnim
2. Person you called? lol.. cant rmmbr... i tink d money changer.. LOL
3. Person you hugged? ngimmi
4. Person you tackled? none..
5. Person you talked to on MSN? khairil...
6. Thing you touched? keyboard
7. Thing you ate? oxtail soup :D
8. Thing you drank? tea
9. Thing you said? detective conan!! YEA!!!!!
10. Friend you saw ytd (12am-12am)? aiyoo.. i was at home d whole time...
NOW TAG 20 PEOPLE! AND GET THEM TO DO THE SAME! :) =lol..lazy=
Saturday, July 25, 2009
4 d 1 week of not bein at home... LOL
heeee so d whole of last week i was at kampung in mamabau at n9.. its my mum's side btw.. i stayed at my aunt n uncle's hse which are practicaly steps away frm my grams hse... :) *nevertheless, there r days i din visit grams.. ~evil cucu~*
ok so d main stuff which i did was torture my cuzins *study laaaa...* n then cook n wed onwards bcome a part time babysitter LOL not forgettin my 2nd round of fushigi yuugi which i watched frm d dvd which i bough last month *i tink* LOL i noe i luv dat anime.. n intending 2 buy d other ovas'.. d 2nd n 3rd i tink :) xcited 2 get them if i hv d time.. if x d 1 i hv now is gud enuf i tink... n due 2 tat anime.. im listening 2 loadz of luv songs.. lol... i jz realized hw i fancy luv songs... both slow n fast... :) *well, d fast isnt exactly metal like* :) its jz soothing.. i tink :)
durin d course of bein a mini babysitter.. i got d xperience of bein a housewife lol... reli, no joke.. its damn tiring.. u c.. u gotta hurry 2 get d meal done 4 my cuzins who jz got bck frm school n my uncle frm work, while at d same time make sure tat young kid doesnt stray away frm home. make sure he is clean, got enuf rest, got his milk, feed him, put him 2 bed.. attend 2 him when he starts cryin 4 reasons which i seriously hv no idea wat izit about... n then nk dukung lg.. nk pangku lg.. nk pet spi tido lg... lol.. d putin him 2 bed part is such a torture... evrytime i try 2 put him 2 bed in d evening i ended up fallin asleep as well... *c, its tiring u noe takin care of small kids n doin d housework.. ini pun x full blast lg*
i oso did my medical check up at columbia asia hospital.. well, d nurses r reli kind bt i wouldnt say d mo r kinda, well.. not reli warm.. lets jz say i wasnt reli at ease wif d doctor... i guess it is tiring 2 b smiling all d time.. bt well, a smile, jz a simple one would brighten up d envi despite d sumwat melacholic envi of d hospital.. :) no joke, reli :)bt well, it wasnt a bad xperience... overall it was fine :)
nw july is sayin gudbye n august peekin in.. it means my time ere is gettin shorter.. gosh, i pray 4 myself 2 b prepared physically, emotionally n mentally.. :) hope things goes fine n tat all of us would have a taste of success in our future :D
ok so d main stuff which i did was torture my cuzins *study laaaa...* n then cook n wed onwards bcome a part time babysitter LOL not forgettin my 2nd round of fushigi yuugi which i watched frm d dvd which i bough last month *i tink* LOL i noe i luv dat anime.. n intending 2 buy d other ovas'.. d 2nd n 3rd i tink :) xcited 2 get them if i hv d time.. if x d 1 i hv now is gud enuf i tink... n due 2 tat anime.. im listening 2 loadz of luv songs.. lol... i jz realized hw i fancy luv songs... both slow n fast... :) *well, d fast isnt exactly metal like* :) its jz soothing.. i tink :)
durin d course of bein a mini babysitter.. i got d xperience of bein a housewife lol... reli, no joke.. its damn tiring.. u c.. u gotta hurry 2 get d meal done 4 my cuzins who jz got bck frm school n my uncle frm work, while at d same time make sure tat young kid doesnt stray away frm home. make sure he is clean, got enuf rest, got his milk, feed him, put him 2 bed.. attend 2 him when he starts cryin 4 reasons which i seriously hv no idea wat izit about... n then nk dukung lg.. nk pangku lg.. nk pet spi tido lg... lol.. d putin him 2 bed part is such a torture... evrytime i try 2 put him 2 bed in d evening i ended up fallin asleep as well... *c, its tiring u noe takin care of small kids n doin d housework.. ini pun x full blast lg*
i oso did my medical check up at columbia asia hospital.. well, d nurses r reli kind bt i wouldnt say d mo r kinda, well.. not reli warm.. lets jz say i wasnt reli at ease wif d doctor... i guess it is tiring 2 b smiling all d time.. bt well, a smile, jz a simple one would brighten up d envi despite d sumwat melacholic envi of d hospital.. :) no joke, reli :)bt well, it wasnt a bad xperience... overall it was fine :)
nw july is sayin gudbye n august peekin in.. it means my time ere is gettin shorter.. gosh, i pray 4 myself 2 b prepared physically, emotionally n mentally.. :) hope things goes fine n tat all of us would have a taste of success in our future :D
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Untitled 2
Life is a mysterious journey; path unknown and ending unexpected.
The ending of one episode of our life indicated the beginning of another.
Though the beginning might be sober, the path might be just the opposite.
As us, humans, dream of big things: Successful career, luxurious life, high salary
We forget the true meaning of life.
We forget what a smile would do to us.
How it could move the cloudy days away, with only a sincere smile from our loved ones.
As we try to catch the stars, we leave imprints on the soil.
For every step we take, we leave a memory behind.
Each step, a new journey.
Each step, a new environment.
Each step, a new realization.
Which in turn, brings in experience and humility.
And at the end, makes us a person seen by others as who we are today: for better or worse.
An imprint and a memory, not only to the soil, or solely to our self souls but also to those around us.
Be it hated or loved, liked or dislike, we made an impression.
An impression which could last a life time.
Even as the years would have clouded our old memory of childhood, if we were to have a true memory, a true companion in life, the best thing which we would remember,
The things which we would miss most...
Is no other than their smile, which brought kindness and warmth to the frozen and wounded soul of ours.
The ending of one episode of our life indicated the beginning of another.
Though the beginning might be sober, the path might be just the opposite.
As us, humans, dream of big things: Successful career, luxurious life, high salary
We forget the true meaning of life.
We forget what a smile would do to us.
How it could move the cloudy days away, with only a sincere smile from our loved ones.
As we try to catch the stars, we leave imprints on the soil.
For every step we take, we leave a memory behind.
Each step, a new journey.
Each step, a new environment.
Each step, a new realization.
Which in turn, brings in experience and humility.
And at the end, makes us a person seen by others as who we are today: for better or worse.
An imprint and a memory, not only to the soil, or solely to our self souls but also to those around us.
Be it hated or loved, liked or dislike, we made an impression.
An impression which could last a life time.
Even as the years would have clouded our old memory of childhood, if we were to have a true memory, a true companion in life, the best thing which we would remember,
The things which we would miss most...
Is no other than their smile, which brought kindness and warmth to the frozen and wounded soul of ours.
Friday, May 15, 2009
btn 11-15 mei telah berakhir...
ok so today is 15th which marks d last day of btn and currently all of us hv gone bck n preparing ourselves for d xtra sleep due to d lack of sleep n rest frm btn... *hw long did we sleep? around 5 hours? lackin 3 hours of sleep.. XD* sakit2 badan btl la.. bknnye psl btn rasenye.. mmg sblm btn pun dh sakit2.. hehehe pas2.. wak2 kat btn rupenye sy sudah mendapat rashes yg menyebabkan kegatalan kulit.. aiyo.. kot esk msh byk lg mende ni kene amik injection la plak b4 it spreads... tp cm ala2 dh spread je.. XD
hmm.. wak2 kat btn.. mmg x bw hp ke mane2. ade terperuk dlm blik dlm beg sandang yg dipasang padlock.. hahaha 2 yg mls nk bw.. cz kene unlock n all.. cm leceh.. so, bw hp kuar btl2 wak2 nk tido je cz pasang alarm *2 pun x gune gakz cz ari khamis ngan jumaat mmg x tepat wak2 bangun.. ade kot bgn 30min lmbt dr time yg diset.. hahaha* kesimpulannya x byk gambar n mgkn nk dptkan gambar2 dr sape2 yg ade gambar.. hehehe pencuri gambar yg sah.. XD
1st impression bile berkumpul kat dewan wak2 first2 spi.. x de la garang sgt fasci2 nih.. n mmg terbukti pun.. doran tegas tp baik ati.. :) x de pun bebel2 sgt kat kitorang spnjg dok 5 hari.. ceramah mmg la ngantok spt biase... tp tahan jeee.. nnt kat uni ntah camne la plak nk tahan berjam2 dlm kuliah.. hahaha perjuangan di medan kuliah... agak2 ramai gak ah yg syahid kot.. x tgk lg wak2 tazkirah. esp tazkirah subuh.. :) ramai yg kecundang.. hehehe
wak2 kat btn mmg evryday la mencuci.. 2 kali sehari.. 2 yg penuh je ampaian kat depan D2... sebahagiannye tlh dipenuhi olh kain2 budak yg mencuci dua kali sehari.. dh ah byk yg dicuci.. cik nu pun x mencuci sebanyakku.. HAHAHAHa *bangga* terserlah hobi mencuci kain spt kat kyuem dl.. XD kemas katil x sampai 1 min.. cz x gne blanky so betulkan posisi bantal cz tido sonsang.. hehehe btw, msk dlm group 3.. yg mempunyai 13 members: me, icha, paan, shainol, hilman, yote, azirah, zul, tai, foo, adzrin, am, yung. fasci2 adlh en izzuddin n en asyraf.. heeee best ah group 3.. dpt performance task kene nyanyi lg malaysia baru.. kot prnh dgr x pe gakz.. nsb zul tau pe lg 2.. kot x, habis ah kitorang sume huhuhu :) *tnx zul!*
LDK mmg best.. esp since icha is always active.. my rate of activeness depends on wat is happening.. bile rase cm nk senyap.. senyap je la.. bile rase stimulated utk ckp.. ckp laa.. hahaha btl2 depends on d environment n mood.. hahaha *burok tol perangai* n thn activity phy.. evryday de kawad in d morn n eve.. bt its kinda basic.. *bt byk gyle dh lupe dr ppim dl.. x layak nk train budak dh.. hahaha* pas 2 lutut skt gyle.. nk kawat btl2 pun x mampu cz kaki nk angkat around 45* mmg sakit gak ah.. bley je nk angkat tinggi2 bt kene tahan sakit ckit la...
n then ade kembara.. fusy.. cun gyle kembara.. msk hutan n asyik kene calar ngan paku pakis yg mencucuk je... luka gak ah jari bt ok je.. :) ckit je luke dia so x heran pun.. pas 2 nk pnjt2 akar pokok bakau... kot senang nk panjat x pe gakz... dh la licin.. tinggi lak 2.. nsb x terjelepok... XD pas 2 dh la initially jln laju sgt so terpisah dr d others... nsb ade zul, julianan ngan shainol... half way through.. jpa kaber ngan shamel plak.. *tnx gak kat dorang cz suro we all watchout about lubang kat depan tpt paya kecik 2* ko x confirm ah.. ade je yg tersangkut kat lubang.. n then jalan la blik ke kem... talkin bout kem.. d kem is clean n looks new... npk bersih n kemas.. tatz wat matters most.. so mmg puas ati la :)
n thn ade abseiling.. this is d most feared i guess initially.. hehehe mcm2 style ade yg bley ditonton wak2 org abseiling.. they started wif d guys so tgk gaye guys dl la.... n then bile gurls turn guys pttnye g main football tp ade je yg hang out kat c2 lg.. hihihihi so wat i thought was.. bile lg nk wt.. so wat je la.. since rahmah n i naik agak d same time so dpt la tgk drama rahmah nk wat abseiling... hahaha sungguh comel :)when it was my turn.. d fear was within me... n then cm turun secara separa sedar.. i dunno hw i control d rope or anytin like it.. wat i noe was i told myself things will b fine n tat i admitted fear 2 myself *hehehe* n then turun je la.. dlm otak mmg dh ingat pun ape mende kene wat utk turun ngan laju n slamat.. tp x sangka la bley wat btl2 XD mmg bersyukur sgt2 dpt wat btl2... kan rahmah! :)
n thn suddenly its time 2 go bck *despite b4 tat mmg la trase gak nk tido* mkn together 4 d last time.. jd tukang pegang pintu 4 d last time... hmmm its hard 2 part frm those ive known in btn but its harder to accept d fact tat i mite not meet d other adpians after tis *i will b goin 2 taylors though* bt its d fact tat v r no longer housemates, roommates *cik sya*, mangsa buli *cik tiup ah ni ngan cik nu*, etc pape pun.. tnx guys 4 evrytin..
despite d first impression of btn which is not totally positive, bt i tink ive gained a gud inside of wat btn is all about... i guess after i go 2 bed, rest n reorganize my thoughts.. id be able 2 put them in words better :)
hmm.. wak2 kat btn.. mmg x bw hp ke mane2. ade terperuk dlm blik dlm beg sandang yg dipasang padlock.. hahaha 2 yg mls nk bw.. cz kene unlock n all.. cm leceh.. so, bw hp kuar btl2 wak2 nk tido je cz pasang alarm *2 pun x gune gakz cz ari khamis ngan jumaat mmg x tepat wak2 bangun.. ade kot bgn 30min lmbt dr time yg diset.. hahaha* kesimpulannya x byk gambar n mgkn nk dptkan gambar2 dr sape2 yg ade gambar.. hehehe pencuri gambar yg sah.. XD
1st impression bile berkumpul kat dewan wak2 first2 spi.. x de la garang sgt fasci2 nih.. n mmg terbukti pun.. doran tegas tp baik ati.. :) x de pun bebel2 sgt kat kitorang spnjg dok 5 hari.. ceramah mmg la ngantok spt biase... tp tahan jeee.. nnt kat uni ntah camne la plak nk tahan berjam2 dlm kuliah.. hahaha perjuangan di medan kuliah... agak2 ramai gak ah yg syahid kot.. x tgk lg wak2 tazkirah. esp tazkirah subuh.. :) ramai yg kecundang.. hehehe
wak2 kat btn mmg evryday la mencuci.. 2 kali sehari.. 2 yg penuh je ampaian kat depan D2... sebahagiannye tlh dipenuhi olh kain2 budak yg mencuci dua kali sehari.. dh ah byk yg dicuci.. cik nu pun x mencuci sebanyakku.. HAHAHAHa *bangga* terserlah hobi mencuci kain spt kat kyuem dl.. XD kemas katil x sampai 1 min.. cz x gne blanky so betulkan posisi bantal cz tido sonsang.. hehehe btw, msk dlm group 3.. yg mempunyai 13 members: me, icha, paan, shainol, hilman, yote, azirah, zul, tai, foo, adzrin, am, yung. fasci2 adlh en izzuddin n en asyraf.. heeee best ah group 3.. dpt performance task kene nyanyi lg malaysia baru.. kot prnh dgr x pe gakz.. nsb zul tau pe lg 2.. kot x, habis ah kitorang sume huhuhu :) *tnx zul!*
LDK mmg best.. esp since icha is always active.. my rate of activeness depends on wat is happening.. bile rase cm nk senyap.. senyap je la.. bile rase stimulated utk ckp.. ckp laa.. hahaha btl2 depends on d environment n mood.. hahaha *burok tol perangai* n thn activity phy.. evryday de kawad in d morn n eve.. bt its kinda basic.. *bt byk gyle dh lupe dr ppim dl.. x layak nk train budak dh.. hahaha* pas 2 lutut skt gyle.. nk kawat btl2 pun x mampu cz kaki nk angkat around 45* mmg sakit gak ah.. bley je nk angkat tinggi2 bt kene tahan sakit ckit la...
n then ade kembara.. fusy.. cun gyle kembara.. msk hutan n asyik kene calar ngan paku pakis yg mencucuk je... luka gak ah jari bt ok je.. :) ckit je luke dia so x heran pun.. pas 2 nk pnjt2 akar pokok bakau... kot senang nk panjat x pe gakz... dh la licin.. tinggi lak 2.. nsb x terjelepok... XD pas 2 dh la initially jln laju sgt so terpisah dr d others... nsb ade zul, julianan ngan shainol... half way through.. jpa kaber ngan shamel plak.. *tnx gak kat dorang cz suro we all watchout about lubang kat depan tpt paya kecik 2* ko x confirm ah.. ade je yg tersangkut kat lubang.. n then jalan la blik ke kem... talkin bout kem.. d kem is clean n looks new... npk bersih n kemas.. tatz wat matters most.. so mmg puas ati la :)
n thn ade abseiling.. this is d most feared i guess initially.. hehehe mcm2 style ade yg bley ditonton wak2 org abseiling.. they started wif d guys so tgk gaye guys dl la.... n then bile gurls turn guys pttnye g main football tp ade je yg hang out kat c2 lg.. hihihihi so wat i thought was.. bile lg nk wt.. so wat je la.. since rahmah n i naik agak d same time so dpt la tgk drama rahmah nk wat abseiling... hahaha sungguh comel :)when it was my turn.. d fear was within me... n then cm turun secara separa sedar.. i dunno hw i control d rope or anytin like it.. wat i noe was i told myself things will b fine n tat i admitted fear 2 myself *hehehe* n then turun je la.. dlm otak mmg dh ingat pun ape mende kene wat utk turun ngan laju n slamat.. tp x sangka la bley wat btl2 XD mmg bersyukur sgt2 dpt wat btl2... kan rahmah! :)
n thn suddenly its time 2 go bck *despite b4 tat mmg la trase gak nk tido* mkn together 4 d last time.. jd tukang pegang pintu 4 d last time... hmmm its hard 2 part frm those ive known in btn but its harder to accept d fact tat i mite not meet d other adpians after tis *i will b goin 2 taylors though* bt its d fact tat v r no longer housemates, roommates *cik sya*, mangsa buli *cik tiup ah ni ngan cik nu*, etc pape pun.. tnx guys 4 evrytin..
despite d first impression of btn which is not totally positive, bt i tink ive gained a gud inside of wat btn is all about... i guess after i go 2 bed, rest n reorganize my thoughts.. id be able 2 put them in words better :)
Monday, May 4, 2009
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i juz finished watching sumtin...
hmm..........
it made me think.........
think of things which hv long been at d bck of my mind...........
n im serious bout it.. *despite me being awfully cheerful, esp at d wrong time* XD
wat would life b without an aim n love?
wat would life b wihout family, companions n friendships?
would hatred n anger sustain till d end of our life?
izit tat hard 2 forgive? or izit harder 2 rmmbr d bad things in life?
even wif an aim.. r we gonna b able 2 fulfill it?
d life we r leading nw.. it could end in juz a blink of an eye...
n yet.. we neglect it.. n yet... we r not thankful 4 each second we go thru...
we ignore d small details in life.. bt iznt d small ones which make up d big things?
even sayin so, i noe im stil ignorant..
i 4get things around me.. hw precious it is.... til it gets out of sight..
like wat my dear kee hee once askd me..
y do we appreciate wat we hv only when it is gone..
n i guess i hv no perfect xplanation 4 tis..
even as i ponder bout tis matter... day by day...
i jz cant find an ans 2 d q..
whre do i stand at d mo?
i guess im stil searchin 4 d rite path...
wat im feeling nw...
d same as b4... mayb im empty inside...
mayb i.. am jz tinkin 2 much at d mo..
i cn b analytical when i wan 2
mayb im jz numb towards wat i truly feel..
i guess... after goin thru certain things...
u mite jz not b able 2 recognize ur true emotions nemore...
wat r my true wants n needs?
*thinking* -hehehe- i do noe some though..
n i shall keep it inside of me :) *ne1 wanna guess???*
u wont noe who i truly am
cz u noe oni who i wan u 2 noe... oni d part which i wan u 2 c...
any objections?
not 2 say i hv been dishonest all this time...
bt well... sumtimes i would question myself on wat i truly feel n tink..
am i leading d right path or am i jz convincing myself im at d right way...
bt no matter wat... i will go thru all n come bck in one piece.. :)
a better person than yesterday is wat i aim 4...
mayb i shud get 2 noe who i truly am b4 i cn ans this tiny q: who am i.. (mrs singh's fav q..) XD
n mayb when i am able 2 ans it precisely w'out hesitation..
tat is when i am wholly myself..
bt 1 thing i wan evry1 2 noe..
no matter wat were 2 happen... ill always b here 4 u guys... n girls XD
despite i cn b scary at times.. *esp in school.. isy3*
despite my seriousness yesterday cz i wanna b 1...
despite my playfulness 2day cz i wanna b 1...
if u need a shoulder 2 lean on... mine is always here *hehehe*
mayb i cn oni complete d quest after givin a piece of me 2 evry1..
who noes u mite c a clearer me...
n then i could complete d pic of me.. :)
hmm..........
it made me think.........
think of things which hv long been at d bck of my mind...........
n im serious bout it.. *despite me being awfully cheerful, esp at d wrong time* XD
wat would life b without an aim n love?
wat would life b wihout family, companions n friendships?
would hatred n anger sustain till d end of our life?
izit tat hard 2 forgive? or izit harder 2 rmmbr d bad things in life?
even wif an aim.. r we gonna b able 2 fulfill it?
d life we r leading nw.. it could end in juz a blink of an eye...
n yet.. we neglect it.. n yet... we r not thankful 4 each second we go thru...
we ignore d small details in life.. bt iznt d small ones which make up d big things?
even sayin so, i noe im stil ignorant..
i 4get things around me.. hw precious it is.... til it gets out of sight..
like wat my dear kee hee once askd me..
y do we appreciate wat we hv only when it is gone..
n i guess i hv no perfect xplanation 4 tis..
even as i ponder bout tis matter... day by day...
i jz cant find an ans 2 d q..
whre do i stand at d mo?
i guess im stil searchin 4 d rite path...
wat im feeling nw...
d same as b4... mayb im empty inside...
mayb i.. am jz tinkin 2 much at d mo..
i cn b analytical when i wan 2
mayb im jz numb towards wat i truly feel..
i guess... after goin thru certain things...
u mite jz not b able 2 recognize ur true emotions nemore...
wat r my true wants n needs?
*thinking* -hehehe- i do noe some though..
n i shall keep it inside of me :) *ne1 wanna guess???*
u wont noe who i truly am
cz u noe oni who i wan u 2 noe... oni d part which i wan u 2 c...
any objections?
not 2 say i hv been dishonest all this time...
bt well... sumtimes i would question myself on wat i truly feel n tink..
am i leading d right path or am i jz convincing myself im at d right way...
bt no matter wat... i will go thru all n come bck in one piece.. :)
a better person than yesterday is wat i aim 4...
mayb i shud get 2 noe who i truly am b4 i cn ans this tiny q: who am i.. (mrs singh's fav q..) XD
n mayb when i am able 2 ans it precisely w'out hesitation..
tat is when i am wholly myself..
bt 1 thing i wan evry1 2 noe..
no matter wat were 2 happen... ill always b here 4 u guys... n girls XD
despite i cn b scary at times.. *esp in school.. isy3*
despite my seriousness yesterday cz i wanna b 1...
despite my playfulness 2day cz i wanna b 1...
if u need a shoulder 2 lean on... mine is always here *hehehe*
mayb i cn oni complete d quest after givin a piece of me 2 evry1..
who noes u mite c a clearer me...
n then i could complete d pic of me.. :)
Sunday, May 3, 2009
me n.....
i tink approx 1 week b4 finals begin.. tibe2 sy angau... angau sgt2... semacam mengidam.. hmmm.... not a gud thing kan b4 d finals... but x pe... cik tiup menjadi mangsa utk mendengar sy membebel.... :) *tq cik tiup*
ngidam n angau bknnye ape... bknnye org yg sy mskdkn d cni.. tibe2 je trase ingin sgt nk g pasar beli ikan... :P n ade specific pasar plak 2... if its pasar yg sumwhere around here x pe gakz... mslhnye nk kene g pahang 2 nk beli ikan.. hahahaha *brape are dh pujuk my mum g pahang beli ikan.. i noe its ridiculous* its d pasar sumwhere near kuantan... x ingat wats d name of d place.. though its small, pasar ni mmg cool la utk beli ikan... d fishies r fresh n d price is cheap *btl... compared 2 cni.. isy3* mmg njoy tgk ikan kat c2.. cz dia kilat.. hehehe n looks nice.. n bile msk mmg sedap.. n dia keras2 lg *bkn keras freezer 2* n perut dia x lembik.. so best pilih.. :)
ok la.. pape pun... pasar kat subang nih mmg x prnh g sempena beli ikan.. d pasar behind 3K... cz d price cm mahal gak ah... n then x de la fresh mana.. kdg2 ikan kat mydin lg elok.. bt nw i cn assure u tat d fishies in both giant n mydin ssh btl nk dpt yg fresh.. slalu picit skit dh terkelur isi perut dia... insang x yah ckp ah.. warna brown... pas 2 cm lembik je d fishies.. nk beli pun x selera.. bt nk wat camne.. tatz wat we usually get here.. sob3
n then ari ni pas g wedding dekat2 masjid tanah in melaka n then my uncle ajak g pasar kat pengkalan ape ntah dkt melaka *i 4got..... suddenly! td in d car ingat jee..* n then dgn penuh semangatnye turun la g tgk pasar 2.. dgn harapan tinggi gunung cz dia pun tpt nelayan naikkan ikan.. *same like in pahang* n then.. tgk... not bad la d fishies.. kilat gak ah... bt sumhow cm x tertarik sgt dgn d fishies... huhu n then d price.. fuyooo.. gyle ah cekik darah.. at supermarket dpt kepala ikan around 7.90 kat sane 25.. gyle ah! mmg la if its cz its fresh it cn b higher bt x de la spi nk dkt dua kali ganda kot... huhu n another thing is tat even d fishmongers r not tat friendly.. ade ke suro pilih ikan cpt2 nnt nk potong.. kot ckp ngan senyuman x pe gak.. ni cm nk marah n mkn org je pndg... pas2 i tink i gv her a questioning n muka x puas ati ah care dia ckp.. trus dia senyum2 ckp lembut2 blik... adoisy ai.. bley pun ckp lemah lembut.. akn ttp... nasi sdh menjadi bubur :P
so tadi kat pasar 2 end up beli lala je... n thn g hospital putrajaya... :) c my new baby nephew!!! name = undecided yet... he is sooo cute n adoorable... so small.. my palm is as big as his face.. MUAHAHAHAHAHA bt he is soo tiny n since he is born 6 weeks earlier, so i can oni c him frm behind d glass.. bt comel n adorable sgt.. :) so despite frustrated ngan d pasar thingy, i tink d baby have lifted d frustration over n well... heee cant wait 2 hold d baby! kene tgu dia release frm d hospital... my cuzin look extremely happy n his wife pun... npk manja btl la cuzinku ngan wifenye... :) they look reli gud 2gether... well.. i wish them all d happiness in d world.. n then jpa uncle rahman yg suke pet my head *heee rase cm budak2 blik :)* n aunty ha yg mmg suke manjakan sume :) heee luv seeing them again! n nw, fill my time wif kdrama! :D *n study korean... huhuu ade test soon!!!!!*
ngidam n angau bknnye ape... bknnye org yg sy mskdkn d cni.. tibe2 je trase ingin sgt nk g pasar beli ikan... :P n ade specific pasar plak 2... if its pasar yg sumwhere around here x pe gakz... mslhnye nk kene g pahang 2 nk beli ikan.. hahahaha *brape are dh pujuk my mum g pahang beli ikan.. i noe its ridiculous* its d pasar sumwhere near kuantan... x ingat wats d name of d place.. though its small, pasar ni mmg cool la utk beli ikan... d fishies r fresh n d price is cheap *btl... compared 2 cni.. isy3* mmg njoy tgk ikan kat c2.. cz dia kilat.. hehehe n looks nice.. n bile msk mmg sedap.. n dia keras2 lg *bkn keras freezer 2* n perut dia x lembik.. so best pilih.. :)
ok la.. pape pun... pasar kat subang nih mmg x prnh g sempena beli ikan.. d pasar behind 3K... cz d price cm mahal gak ah... n then x de la fresh mana.. kdg2 ikan kat mydin lg elok.. bt nw i cn assure u tat d fishies in both giant n mydin ssh btl nk dpt yg fresh.. slalu picit skit dh terkelur isi perut dia... insang x yah ckp ah.. warna brown... pas 2 cm lembik je d fishies.. nk beli pun x selera.. bt nk wat camne.. tatz wat we usually get here.. sob3
n then ari ni pas g wedding dekat2 masjid tanah in melaka n then my uncle ajak g pasar kat pengkalan ape ntah dkt melaka *i 4got..... suddenly! td in d car ingat jee..* n then dgn penuh semangatnye turun la g tgk pasar 2.. dgn harapan tinggi gunung cz dia pun tpt nelayan naikkan ikan.. *same like in pahang* n then.. tgk... not bad la d fishies.. kilat gak ah... bt sumhow cm x tertarik sgt dgn d fishies... huhu n then d price.. fuyooo.. gyle ah cekik darah.. at supermarket dpt kepala ikan around 7.90 kat sane 25.. gyle ah! mmg la if its cz its fresh it cn b higher bt x de la spi nk dkt dua kali ganda kot... huhu n another thing is tat even d fishmongers r not tat friendly.. ade ke suro pilih ikan cpt2 nnt nk potong.. kot ckp ngan senyuman x pe gak.. ni cm nk marah n mkn org je pndg... pas2 i tink i gv her a questioning n muka x puas ati ah care dia ckp.. trus dia senyum2 ckp lembut2 blik... adoisy ai.. bley pun ckp lemah lembut.. akn ttp... nasi sdh menjadi bubur :P
so tadi kat pasar 2 end up beli lala je... n thn g hospital putrajaya... :) c my new baby nephew!!! name = undecided yet... he is sooo cute n adoorable... so small.. my palm is as big as his face.. MUAHAHAHAHAHA bt he is soo tiny n since he is born 6 weeks earlier, so i can oni c him frm behind d glass.. bt comel n adorable sgt.. :) so despite frustrated ngan d pasar thingy, i tink d baby have lifted d frustration over n well... heee cant wait 2 hold d baby! kene tgu dia release frm d hospital... my cuzin look extremely happy n his wife pun... npk manja btl la cuzinku ngan wifenye... :) they look reli gud 2gether... well.. i wish them all d happiness in d world.. n then jpa uncle rahman yg suke pet my head *heee rase cm budak2 blik :)* n aunty ha yg mmg suke manjakan sume :) heee luv seeing them again! n nw, fill my time wif kdrama! :D *n study korean... huhuu ade test soon!!!!!*
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Menatap Wajahnya (i)
Si kecil nirmala,
Wajah putih, jiwa kudus,
Berlari-lari sendiri,
Mencari suatu yang hilang,
Suatu bernama kasih,
Suatu bernama sayang,
Di balik kabus peluru liar,
Dan saat itu,
Suara si kecil ceria,
Menjadi sendu yang panjang,
Kidung kasih berkumandang sayu,
Pengakhiran:
Si mukaddas yang mencari,
Dimamah si buta liar,
Iblis bertopeng insan,
Menyembah bumi sebuah jasad.
Wajah putih, jiwa kudus,
Berlari-lari sendiri,
Mencari suatu yang hilang,
Suatu bernama kasih,
Suatu bernama sayang,
Di balik kabus peluru liar,
Dan saat itu,
Suara si kecil ceria,
Menjadi sendu yang panjang,
Kidung kasih berkumandang sayu,
Pengakhiran:
Si mukaddas yang mencari,
Dimamah si buta liar,
Iblis bertopeng insan,
Menyembah bumi sebuah jasad.
of winter 2009
tis is actually a continuity of d holz thing... cz as i read thru it again, i realized tat there r a few things which i 4got 2 add on... hehehe
my tagline is *pijak kan* *sepak kang* n well.. almsot evrybody dh kene including d guys.. hehehe tp ade syarat nk sepak.. if sepak guys, kene pakai kasut if gurls bukak kasut... lembut skit.. XD *ye x cik fatin?* irfan slalu je kene sepak... hahaha *cian dia, sabar je la ye en irfan...* but mane ade gurl lain sepak guys depan2 cam 2 kan... hehehe biar la sy jd org pertama n terakhir *fuuyoooo*
next we go into d class times... im noisy in d wrong classes... bio n maths... phil confirm2 ah... once, fizree was doin a presentation on does god exist frm islamic perspective... n sum1 *tay kot* off d lights... all! n then secara naturalnye i said "OOOOOOOOOOOO like watching movie!" *bodo gyle* n then mrs singh was shocked tat she pat me on d bck.. hahaha *merepek btl myself in phil, slalu ketawa x bertempat* n then we go 2 d LAN class. malaysian as usual la.. wat do u expect... bt islamic is always very interesting 2 watch evry1...
on d last class.. all of us gv each other our last advice *hmm..* n it was kinda touching.. n then when zarina cried.. lg la terharu... ill definitely miss all of u.. i wouldnt trade even a single 1 of u wif ne1 else.. cz if tat happens, our class wouldnt b d same nemore.. rite? rahmah n qil hobi dorang tya soalan... i rmmbr one of rahmah's ade kene mengena dgn dinosaur.. hahaha *syg la x ingat in details* n then satu lg psl d communism.. hahaha.. rahmah menyokong communism n dia terkene ngan ustaz.. HAHAHA *nasib ade mahfuz yg bck her statment up psl communism is not d best method bt it is better than d others except for Islamic government* kwn dia yg dok blakang dia ckit kejam.. ketawa x hbs2... bkn nk tlg pun XD n qil ngan rahmah slalu je kena.. "let me finish first" *kan korang??* hahaha suke tgk u guysnye reaction bile dia ckp cam 2... obvi, ill b laughing at u guys.. *kejam* d guys on my right row slalu je tertido.. *ter ke????* mcm2 style bley tgk... *qil n rahmah ade d pics kan???* bile time tgk vid psl islam on terrorism lg la.... siap ade yg kene kejut... :) n then ade je soalan2 pelik yg akn ditanya *though x bley dinafikan mahfuz's questions r interesting 2 ponder upon* bt ade la certain q spt:
"ustaz, if dh ade 4 isteri.. sume menopaus, bley x kahwin sorang lg?"
"tangkap basah ngan khalwat 2 lain kan?... dah 2, ape yg basah?" (-.-")
"kalau saya kasi kawan sy rokok sy, 2 kira jihad x? sbb sy syg dgn rokok 2" -sumtin like tat-
these r d q yg slalu aje i rmmbr jz 2 make me laugh.. cm lawak gyle... *sape ek tya soalan2 nih??* XD n thn bile tido dlm kelas 2.. fuyoo.. rahmah tido tegak... *ingat lg Qil citer rahmah tido sbl main ps3, balut hadiah* ganas ah rahmah tido! kot kat umah plak... rahmah if dh tertido awal.. mmg suke pesan kejutkan dia.. *cik com ah mangsa* n then bile cik sya kejut... slalu mintak tangguh... *kan rahmah?* cam masa cedera mintak masa xtra 10 min.. ade skali 2 cik com ngan kak li renjis air kan??? XD *tat time sy baik x kcu rahmah.. ko x i join jugakz!* but bkn rahmah je ssh nk kejut.. cik tiup pun same jee... *tat is d oni time pgl dia hasanah* XD cz kot pgl cik tiup x terjaga.. hehehe kot tido sblm mandi 2.. farah g la maghrib dl... dh bgn dh ni.. pas2 cover kepala ngan towel *ye sgt ah 2 dh bgn* bile study plak... "Cik tiup, jgn study baring.. letak bantal jauh2.. nnt tertido" x caye lak ape yg sy ckp.. wat gak.. x lame pas 2.. sah2 tido! XD mmg ahhhh... nk kejut lg satu hal... hahaha last2 muke ni gak ah kene tlg dia kemas buku ngan laptop dia b4 i go 2 bed... n suro dia tido atas katil *hahaha ari 2 ajak cik tiup study kat lantai ~br best study dok ats lantai... br feel ckit!*
n then ari 2 bile sy terbangun lewat. sume ingatkan jam masing2 slah! hahaha nasib cik sya kejut..*630 kot wak2 2* trus bgn *sempat 2 naik bus 650!* jpa kat kolej... cik com: "tadi bangun tgk farah tido lg.. tgk jam dh kul 6.. ingatkan jam salah.. msh kul 4 lebih" cik rai pun kot ingatkan jam salah.. hahaha gyle ah! agaknye 630 dh cerah 2 yg yakin jam dorang betul kot.. yg muke ni terlajak tido XD ari 2 mandi mmg super xpress ah.. siap pun x yah ckp ah... tp ckp psl mandi kn... i noe ade 2 org dlm umah 2 yg mandi agak lama.. sorang cik tiup*45 min! ape ntah dia wat* n satu lg rahmah *y? cz ingat lg sue ade skali 2 ketuk bilik mandi ntah brape kali ntah suro rahmah cepat skit XD* kan kan rahmah???
kot tgk tv plak... x many stories la.. bt tgk kak li tgk keliwon best! XD dh la wat announcement keliwon dh nk start.. ajak sume tgk ngan dia... bile sume hilang nk amik mende.. "weyh, jgn ah tinggalkan aku sorang2" hahaha dan kami pun muncullah kembali.. n then.. bile ade skali 2 satu part yg ade darah cz hantu 2 cam gigit org 2... kak li org pertama yg tutup mata cm nk guling2 pun ade XD *mane cik nu ek tat time.. tgk cik nu pun best!* cik nu lg sorang la best tgk bile ade citer hantu.. hahaha comel gyle... n then ill b laughing my heads off *jahat*
kak li juga adlh pelawat tetap A0702... dia suke guna pingan mangkuk org n then ade ke x nk basuh... pas 2 lepas kene bebel kak li pun insaf dn cuci pinggan mangkuk yg digunakan.. HAHAHAHA *sape la yg bebel kak li 2... isy2.. kejam* n then barang2 hiasan kat umah mmg rahmah adlh plg rajin utk bw mende *despite sy yg tgl plg dekat* hehehe byk gyle brg cik rahmah d c2.. tgk2 brg 2 terbayang wajah rahmah * chheeewwwaaaahhh! bangga x rahmah??*
hmmm ade lg pttnye bt x teringat... nk makan dulu! ill hv tis whole holz 2 tink bout wat we did during dis sem.. :)
my tagline is *pijak kan* *sepak kang* n well.. almsot evrybody dh kene including d guys.. hehehe tp ade syarat nk sepak.. if sepak guys, kene pakai kasut if gurls bukak kasut... lembut skit.. XD *ye x cik fatin?* irfan slalu je kene sepak... hahaha *cian dia, sabar je la ye en irfan...* but mane ade gurl lain sepak guys depan2 cam 2 kan... hehehe biar la sy jd org pertama n terakhir *fuuyoooo*
next we go into d class times... im noisy in d wrong classes... bio n maths... phil confirm2 ah... once, fizree was doin a presentation on does god exist frm islamic perspective... n sum1 *tay kot* off d lights... all! n then secara naturalnye i said "OOOOOOOOOOOO like watching movie!" *bodo gyle* n then mrs singh was shocked tat she pat me on d bck.. hahaha *merepek btl myself in phil, slalu ketawa x bertempat* n then we go 2 d LAN class. malaysian as usual la.. wat do u expect... bt islamic is always very interesting 2 watch evry1...
on d last class.. all of us gv each other our last advice *hmm..* n it was kinda touching.. n then when zarina cried.. lg la terharu... ill definitely miss all of u.. i wouldnt trade even a single 1 of u wif ne1 else.. cz if tat happens, our class wouldnt b d same nemore.. rite? rahmah n qil hobi dorang tya soalan... i rmmbr one of rahmah's ade kene mengena dgn dinosaur.. hahaha *syg la x ingat in details* n then satu lg psl d communism.. hahaha.. rahmah menyokong communism n dia terkene ngan ustaz.. HAHAHA *nasib ade mahfuz yg bck her statment up psl communism is not d best method bt it is better than d others except for Islamic government* kwn dia yg dok blakang dia ckit kejam.. ketawa x hbs2... bkn nk tlg pun XD n qil ngan rahmah slalu je kena.. "let me finish first" *kan korang??* hahaha suke tgk u guysnye reaction bile dia ckp cam 2... obvi, ill b laughing at u guys.. *kejam* d guys on my right row slalu je tertido.. *ter ke????* mcm2 style bley tgk... *qil n rahmah ade d pics kan???* bile time tgk vid psl islam on terrorism lg la.... siap ade yg kene kejut... :) n then ade je soalan2 pelik yg akn ditanya *though x bley dinafikan mahfuz's questions r interesting 2 ponder upon* bt ade la certain q spt:
"ustaz, if dh ade 4 isteri.. sume menopaus, bley x kahwin sorang lg?"
"tangkap basah ngan khalwat 2 lain kan?... dah 2, ape yg basah?" (-.-")
"kalau saya kasi kawan sy rokok sy, 2 kira jihad x? sbb sy syg dgn rokok 2" -sumtin like tat-
these r d q yg slalu aje i rmmbr jz 2 make me laugh.. cm lawak gyle... *sape ek tya soalan2 nih??* XD n thn bile tido dlm kelas 2.. fuyoo.. rahmah tido tegak... *ingat lg Qil citer rahmah tido sbl main ps3, balut hadiah* ganas ah rahmah tido! kot kat umah plak... rahmah if dh tertido awal.. mmg suke pesan kejutkan dia.. *cik com ah mangsa* n then bile cik sya kejut... slalu mintak tangguh... *kan rahmah?* cam masa cedera mintak masa xtra 10 min.. ade skali 2 cik com ngan kak li renjis air kan??? XD *tat time sy baik x kcu rahmah.. ko x i join jugakz!* but bkn rahmah je ssh nk kejut.. cik tiup pun same jee... *tat is d oni time pgl dia hasanah* XD cz kot pgl cik tiup x terjaga.. hehehe kot tido sblm mandi 2.. farah g la maghrib dl... dh bgn dh ni.. pas2 cover kepala ngan towel *ye sgt ah 2 dh bgn* bile study plak... "Cik tiup, jgn study baring.. letak bantal jauh2.. nnt tertido" x caye lak ape yg sy ckp.. wat gak.. x lame pas 2.. sah2 tido! XD mmg ahhhh... nk kejut lg satu hal... hahaha last2 muke ni gak ah kene tlg dia kemas buku ngan laptop dia b4 i go 2 bed... n suro dia tido atas katil *hahaha ari 2 ajak cik tiup study kat lantai ~br best study dok ats lantai... br feel ckit!*
n then ari 2 bile sy terbangun lewat. sume ingatkan jam masing2 slah! hahaha nasib cik sya kejut..*630 kot wak2 2* trus bgn *sempat 2 naik bus 650!* jpa kat kolej... cik com: "tadi bangun tgk farah tido lg.. tgk jam dh kul 6.. ingatkan jam salah.. msh kul 4 lebih" cik rai pun kot ingatkan jam salah.. hahaha gyle ah! agaknye 630 dh cerah 2 yg yakin jam dorang betul kot.. yg muke ni terlajak tido XD ari 2 mandi mmg super xpress ah.. siap pun x yah ckp ah... tp ckp psl mandi kn... i noe ade 2 org dlm umah 2 yg mandi agak lama.. sorang cik tiup*45 min! ape ntah dia wat* n satu lg rahmah *y? cz ingat lg sue ade skali 2 ketuk bilik mandi ntah brape kali ntah suro rahmah cepat skit XD* kan kan rahmah???
kot tgk tv plak... x many stories la.. bt tgk kak li tgk keliwon best! XD dh la wat announcement keliwon dh nk start.. ajak sume tgk ngan dia... bile sume hilang nk amik mende.. "weyh, jgn ah tinggalkan aku sorang2" hahaha dan kami pun muncullah kembali.. n then.. bile ade skali 2 satu part yg ade darah cz hantu 2 cam gigit org 2... kak li org pertama yg tutup mata cm nk guling2 pun ade XD *mane cik nu ek tat time.. tgk cik nu pun best!* cik nu lg sorang la best tgk bile ade citer hantu.. hahaha comel gyle... n then ill b laughing my heads off *jahat*
kak li juga adlh pelawat tetap A0702... dia suke guna pingan mangkuk org n then ade ke x nk basuh... pas 2 lepas kene bebel kak li pun insaf dn cuci pinggan mangkuk yg digunakan.. HAHAHAHA *sape la yg bebel kak li 2... isy2.. kejam* n then barang2 hiasan kat umah mmg rahmah adlh plg rajin utk bw mende *despite sy yg tgl plg dekat* hehehe byk gyle brg cik rahmah d c2.. tgk2 brg 2 terbayang wajah rahmah * chheeewwwaaaahhh! bangga x rahmah??*
hmmm ade lg pttnye bt x teringat... nk makan dulu! ill hv tis whole holz 2 tink bout wat we did during dis sem.. :)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
wwwwwwwwwwooooooooooooahhhhhhhhh holz!
hahaha at last its holz season 4 taylors adp-ians.. we hv struggled this whole sem wif new subjects, new classmates, but d same old super spirited mates.. :) *cool, eh* so lemme summarize a few things which happened tis sem...
met a lot of new peepz n practically realized a lot of things which i din realize last sem.. same people but our relationship is different... we grew closer n more attached *kan cik fiz!!* i got 2 noe fizree! my phil classmate.. hehehe n i got 2 kembangkan nick name hasanah @ cik tiup *bersyukur dia x de fb.. ko x abis ahhh* n disebabkan cik tiup x puas ati i dun hv a nick she gave me 1 *cik fafa* trime je la... ape lg ye we did tis sem.. i realized n got 2 noe more peez tis sem... n my hands r always cold b4 islamic studies... huhuhu asl ntah... n then pinjam tangan nadia!! cz her hands r warm.. n i took her warmness away.. n then share lagu korea ngan cik tiup, cik fiz n mai! hehehe n then jap songs pun skali.. n dgr cik tiup bebel pasal suju.. huhuhu *peminat setia* n then lepak2 ngan kee hee.. n then kcu kee hee ngan cik tiup.. n then bersatu ngan kee hee. cik fiz. utk kcu cik tiup.. n then sy kene buli ngan cik fiz, kee hee ngan cik tiup *kejam ah* n then blik umah kene kcu ngan ain plak.. hahaha n then ade la satu ayat dr cik nu yg sy takkan lupe.. tgh jalan2 dlm bilik ngan kain telekung *habit.. pas maghrib x tanggal telekung.. tgu isyak trus* tibe2 dia berkate... "bagus ah 2.. sorang kain pelikat sorang kain telekung" nasib x tercekik dgr ayat cik nu... sabar je ahhh.. XD nk wat camne.. dh habit..
cik sya tis sem rajin tido d luar bilik.. *masalah rumah tangga XD* hahahaha apartmentku snts ade pelawat *cik rai, kak li, cik com* n kak li slalu kene bebel sbb mkn tom yam kerap sgt *weyh, jgn kot kite kuar pas ni mkn ari2.. if dpt report.. abis kak li kita pijak2* n then ade man ee yg suke menyakat org *bt slalu disakat juge* n then salah satu tugas sy adlah memicit cik com bile die ngantok tgh2 kelas econs! hahaha cik fiz jd vendor roti sementara XD n then tibe2 winter 09 comes 2 an end... hw time flies... though there r sum things which i havent achieved.. cz there r certain things which still make me think hw i could hv change it n certain things which i hope others would change 4 me.. hehehe *merepek* bt then... its over n i hope we will meet again soon! tnx sooo much all.. i will miss u guys soo much this 3 weeks :)
next... i cant help thinkin bout goin bck n lawat kyuem.. hehehe nk wat camne... tatz d place where i met u guys *skyn, bihah, umu, zatie, kak maji, muffin, zetot, etc* :) *if tulis d whole list, penuh mende nih* bile2 korang free do tell me... kite jpa kat mid la... :D wanna hear all d updates n d juicy gossips kat sane XD
2day is d 1st monday.. n skrang tgh start sesi housewife in traning *cheeewahhh* not reli though.. cz nk keep my allowance frm my parents n x feel guilty takin it.. so i assigned myself wif housechores.. so its no more allowance but my monthly salary XD things i need 2 do includes cooking, mop (alternate day), sapu, vacuum, ampai kain, cuci gune machine *bt kene practice gune dl.. tkt rosak kang. cz its a new washing machine* teach my sis and a couple of other kids.im responsible 4 almost all of these *though x semestinye kene siap all in 1 day* during weekdays.. weekends cuti! *but kene tlg gak ah* ~hahaha~ at least im training myself 2 not oni study bt 2 keep things in an organized manner which is definitely important in d future esp when i live on my own.. huhuhu x de ah sepah nnt my hse :)
so today i woke up at 8 *kira awal ah 2* n started my day wif ampai kain n mkn bfast yg ngimmi wat :) *nk blaja wat waffle la plak... lupe d recipe* n then masak... heee ari ni d main is not cookd by me cz ade lauk yg my mum's fwen kasi.. bt i cookd d rice *hehehe im a lousy tukang tanak nasi.. bt ari ni ok kot*, sambal telur hancur, n soo hoon n fu chuk msk kicap *tatau ape name dia actly*.. hehehe ngimmi kuar tis morn so i had d whole kitchen 2 myself... 2 yg bley nyanyi2 smbl masak.. HAHAHA *penambah perisa makanan* xcited sgt start msk blik.. it hs been quite sumtimes i hv cookd a meal on my own 4 d fam.. hehehe saje je msk smbl ari ni cz abah puasa.. hehehe slalunye kene mintak msk 2 br wat cz its not so healthy.. cz eggs r high in cholesterol kan.. hehehe bt though my dad suke ask me 2 put in santan *abah: it taste better* but i change it 2 milk.. hehehe *same je rase 2 me..* lookin 4ward 2 cookin lg 2mr.. hehehe nk msk assam kot esk.... bt msh apprentice lg.. cz dl mesti ade rase sumtin wrong.. haha ade skali 2 jd sambal ikan *sedih je x jd* n then my cookin class will resume wif my mum.. hehehe nnt senang! :) x de ah mkn ikan goreng je ari2 bile dok sorang.. *though i made a deal wif my mum ill b living wif her dgn syarat pas kahwin pindah ah ...but nk lawat ngimmi almost evry week gakz* hehehe
nw is d break... dh siap kemas bhgn bwh.. mop, sapu n all bt d upperpart of d hse is in a major mess.. huhuhu x vacuum, x kemas, x ape lg.. hehehe tp dh sakit pinggang la plak.. huhuhu pas 2 sakit gigi x hbs lg *man... cn d wisdom tooth b out fully fast!!* hehehe terbayang cik tiup tgh lepak2 kat bilik dia smbl rindu kat sy n smbl dgr lagu suju dia :) hehehe
jz wanna wish evry1 happy holz.. c u guys soon... like reli soon... if eva u need me, im rite by ur side.. picit je hp 2... or buzz me cz skrng ni confirm on9 almost all d time.. :D wishin evry1 a reli2 reli2 happy holz... :)
*30th april kuar result!! ~nervous~
**Tohoshinki's (DBSK) love in d ice n doshite (d jap vers) r such nice songs... suke! ~promo~
met a lot of new peepz n practically realized a lot of things which i din realize last sem.. same people but our relationship is different... we grew closer n more attached *kan cik fiz!!* i got 2 noe fizree! my phil classmate.. hehehe n i got 2 kembangkan nick name hasanah @ cik tiup *bersyukur dia x de fb.. ko x abis ahhh* n disebabkan cik tiup x puas ati i dun hv a nick she gave me 1 *cik fafa* trime je la... ape lg ye we did tis sem.. i realized n got 2 noe more peez tis sem... n my hands r always cold b4 islamic studies... huhuhu asl ntah... n then pinjam tangan nadia!! cz her hands r warm.. n i took her warmness away.. n then share lagu korea ngan cik tiup, cik fiz n mai! hehehe n then jap songs pun skali.. n dgr cik tiup bebel pasal suju.. huhuhu *peminat setia* n then lepak2 ngan kee hee.. n then kcu kee hee ngan cik tiup.. n then bersatu ngan kee hee. cik fiz. utk kcu cik tiup.. n then sy kene buli ngan cik fiz, kee hee ngan cik tiup *kejam ah* n then blik umah kene kcu ngan ain plak.. hahaha n then ade la satu ayat dr cik nu yg sy takkan lupe.. tgh jalan2 dlm bilik ngan kain telekung *habit.. pas maghrib x tanggal telekung.. tgu isyak trus* tibe2 dia berkate... "bagus ah 2.. sorang kain pelikat sorang kain telekung" nasib x tercekik dgr ayat cik nu... sabar je ahhh.. XD nk wat camne.. dh habit..
cik sya tis sem rajin tido d luar bilik.. *masalah rumah tangga XD* hahahaha apartmentku snts ade pelawat *cik rai, kak li, cik com* n kak li slalu kene bebel sbb mkn tom yam kerap sgt *weyh, jgn kot kite kuar pas ni mkn ari2.. if dpt report.. abis kak li kita pijak2* n then ade man ee yg suke menyakat org *bt slalu disakat juge* n then salah satu tugas sy adlah memicit cik com bile die ngantok tgh2 kelas econs! hahaha cik fiz jd vendor roti sementara XD n then tibe2 winter 09 comes 2 an end... hw time flies... though there r sum things which i havent achieved.. cz there r certain things which still make me think hw i could hv change it n certain things which i hope others would change 4 me.. hehehe *merepek* bt then... its over n i hope we will meet again soon! tnx sooo much all.. i will miss u guys soo much this 3 weeks :)
next... i cant help thinkin bout goin bck n lawat kyuem.. hehehe nk wat camne... tatz d place where i met u guys *skyn, bihah, umu, zatie, kak maji, muffin, zetot, etc* :) *if tulis d whole list, penuh mende nih* bile2 korang free do tell me... kite jpa kat mid la... :D wanna hear all d updates n d juicy gossips kat sane XD
2day is d 1st monday.. n skrang tgh start sesi housewife in traning *cheeewahhh* not reli though.. cz nk keep my allowance frm my parents n x feel guilty takin it.. so i assigned myself wif housechores.. so its no more allowance but my monthly salary XD things i need 2 do includes cooking, mop (alternate day), sapu, vacuum, ampai kain, cuci gune machine *bt kene practice gune dl.. tkt rosak kang. cz its a new washing machine* teach my sis and a couple of other kids.im responsible 4 almost all of these *though x semestinye kene siap all in 1 day* during weekdays.. weekends cuti! *but kene tlg gak ah* ~hahaha~ at least im training myself 2 not oni study bt 2 keep things in an organized manner which is definitely important in d future esp when i live on my own.. huhuhu x de ah sepah nnt my hse :)
so today i woke up at 8 *kira awal ah 2* n started my day wif ampai kain n mkn bfast yg ngimmi wat :) *nk blaja wat waffle la plak... lupe d recipe* n then masak... heee ari ni d main is not cookd by me cz ade lauk yg my mum's fwen kasi.. bt i cookd d rice *hehehe im a lousy tukang tanak nasi.. bt ari ni ok kot*, sambal telur hancur, n soo hoon n fu chuk msk kicap *tatau ape name dia actly*.. hehehe ngimmi kuar tis morn so i had d whole kitchen 2 myself... 2 yg bley nyanyi2 smbl masak.. HAHAHA *penambah perisa makanan* xcited sgt start msk blik.. it hs been quite sumtimes i hv cookd a meal on my own 4 d fam.. hehehe saje je msk smbl ari ni cz abah puasa.. hehehe slalunye kene mintak msk 2 br wat cz its not so healthy.. cz eggs r high in cholesterol kan.. hehehe bt though my dad suke ask me 2 put in santan *abah: it taste better* but i change it 2 milk.. hehehe *same je rase 2 me..* lookin 4ward 2 cookin lg 2mr.. hehehe nk msk assam kot esk.... bt msh apprentice lg.. cz dl mesti ade rase sumtin wrong.. haha ade skali 2 jd sambal ikan *sedih je x jd* n then my cookin class will resume wif my mum.. hehehe nnt senang! :) x de ah mkn ikan goreng je ari2 bile dok sorang.. *though i made a deal wif my mum ill b living wif her dgn syarat pas kahwin pindah ah ...but nk lawat ngimmi almost evry week gakz* hehehe
nw is d break... dh siap kemas bhgn bwh.. mop, sapu n all bt d upperpart of d hse is in a major mess.. huhuhu x vacuum, x kemas, x ape lg.. hehehe tp dh sakit pinggang la plak.. huhuhu pas 2 sakit gigi x hbs lg *man... cn d wisdom tooth b out fully fast!!* hehehe terbayang cik tiup tgh lepak2 kat bilik dia smbl rindu kat sy n smbl dgr lagu suju dia :) hehehe
jz wanna wish evry1 happy holz.. c u guys soon... like reli soon... if eva u need me, im rite by ur side.. picit je hp 2... or buzz me cz skrng ni confirm on9 almost all d time.. :D wishin evry1 a reli2 reli2 happy holz... :)
*30th april kuar result!! ~nervous~
**Tohoshinki's (DBSK) love in d ice n doshite (d jap vers) r such nice songs... suke! ~promo~
Sunday, April 19, 2009
as i was watchin d vid of us in nz..
tgh2 tgk vid we all kat nz dl... cam a lot of things which went through my mind... it was 5 years bck n d best thing i rmmbrd was doin d snowman.. i noe mine n my bro look like a normal one (though its not as pretty) but my dad n my sis.. hmm.. cam scarecrow XD cz it look soo stiff.... in d vid mmg ade pun gambar 2.. bt well.. i lost d pic which i took wif my bro.. as in d pic in d hp.. d reasons r:
1. dh 2kar hp... a few hp has passed b4 d current one (n im tinkin of changin again cz d hp dh wat hal)
2. d comp dh reformat.. d pic is spose 2 b there
3. i din hv a lappy.. so its oni in d desktop
i wish i still do hv it... my sis was so short (way shorter than i am which makes me proud. unlike 2day..) n well.... i hope i cn go there again.. n d doplhins r sooo cute! bt we din reli njoy snow there despite goin in winter (we oni got it in uk 2 years bck) my sis laughter was soo weird (way weirder than mine) n well... guess i did hv a gud time there... :)
*nw bck 2 study!*
1. dh 2kar hp... a few hp has passed b4 d current one (n im tinkin of changin again cz d hp dh wat hal)
2. d comp dh reformat.. d pic is spose 2 b there
3. i din hv a lappy.. so its oni in d desktop
i wish i still do hv it... my sis was so short (way shorter than i am which makes me proud. unlike 2day..) n well.... i hope i cn go there again.. n d doplhins r sooo cute! bt we din reli njoy snow there despite goin in winter (we oni got it in uk 2 years bck) my sis laughter was soo weird (way weirder than mine) n well... guess i did hv a gud time there... :)
*nw bck 2 study!*
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I
apabila satu menjadi dua
apabila dua menjadi satu
dan yang selebihnya sekadar melihat
sebuah transformasi
dari yang dulu kepada yang baru
dan yang baru kepada yang lama
dan insan sekadar bertaakul
menanti dan terus bertaakul
mencari sebuah jawapan
terusan soalan yg jernih
apabila satu menjadi dua
dan dua menjadi satu.
apabila dua menjadi satu
dan yang selebihnya sekadar melihat
sebuah transformasi
dari yang dulu kepada yang baru
dan yang baru kepada yang lama
dan insan sekadar bertaakul
menanti dan terus bertaakul
mencari sebuah jawapan
terusan soalan yg jernih
apabila satu menjadi dua
dan dua menjadi satu.
Friday, April 3, 2009
apabila lif casa wat hal...
so spt biasa.. sy akn kembali ke umah pd stp ari jumaat (sbb umah n casa amat la hampir.. XD) n mgkn telah ditakdirkan utk sy pulang pd mlm ari hr ni... krn sy telah mendapat satu experience yg baru,, pengalaman yg tidak dpt dilupakan (nih yg bley wat karangan nih kot msh kat sek ren! bley dpt A+ nih XD)
jadi kisahnye bermula sebegini rupa...
sy menaiki lif lbh kurang jam 830 sbb buku korean language ku tertinggal di casa sedangkan ade kelas pd jam 230 esk hari.. maka, sy pun pulang la mlm ini utk memastikan tidak ketinggalan dlm kelas esk hari... so naik la lif bersama 7 org lg penduduk casa.... tibe2 dekat atr p1 n p2 dia ter'jatuh' skit.. (suatu fenomena yg normal) jd kami abaikan saje.. bile lif terbuka d p1 sbb mmg dh jd mende yg biase.. dia akn sangkut, jatuh n ok blik..
meskipun begitu, nasib tidak menyebelahi kami mlm ini.. tibe2 dh sangkut dia nk naik blik.. n thn bising cm nk rosak.. n true enuf.. dia jatuh ckit blik... n then d door trus x nk open.. maka mula la slh sorang lelaki dlm lif mula menyumpah.. sy abaikan aje.. n trus berbual ngan sorang nurse pantai yg tinggal d tingkat 15... ade kot 5 malaysian d other 3 foreigners... so one of d foreigners la yg ckp ngan guard btau kitorang stuck.. huhu n thn mula la penantian kami...
disebabkan ayahanda ku menanti di bwh.. maka sy terpaksa pinjam hp org utk inform (cz bley ari ni dgn takdirnye sy sehelai sepinggang aje blik.. x bw hp.. ) n thn dlm lif 2 mcm2 la yg terjadi.. ade yg duduk melunjur, mengangkang, berdiri, ketawa (saya la 2), senyum (kwn baru saya la 2), sedih (sorang gurl cz bus dia kul 10), menyumpah, hpr tido... huhu
mula2 dia kate 2 min... berubah ke 5.. n seterusnye... n then tetibe lampu terpadam.. agak terkejut n berderau darah.. tp msh lagi kononnye cool.. ade kot seminit 2... huhuhu kemudian tibe2 guard kate cuba bukak pintu (mane bley.. nk kopak pun x larat -lelaki ah-) n thn dia kate nk call jkr.. pelik gak.. pe kene mengena jkr ngan mende nih.. n then tetibe nk pgl technician.. n menunggu 2 lame gak laa..huhuhu
bile dh bukak.. maka sy ingatkan its at p1.. tgk2 dia atr p1 n p2.. so kene terjun.. dh ah pki kasut heels cz kasut flat kat casa..huhu tp bantai je terjun.. dh terjun 2... tgk satu lg lif plak spt mslh.. kemudian sy ngan kawan baru amik keputusan naik tangga (gyle ah jauh..dr p1 ke tingkat 7) n thn naik trus ngadu ngan cik sya n cik nu (cik tiup x prasan kite blik.. isy3) n thn minum air n bertolak ke bwh...
bile bertolak ke bwh.. jpa plak danial.. upe2nye ibundaku menelefon n mintak tlg tgk2kan.. pk2 bknnye bley wat pape kot.. msh kene tgu technician gakz... (kot x kuar lg la) pape pun, tnx :) so akhirnya kini, sy tlah pulang.. meski ibunda meng offer utk dihtr n jemput ke kolej stp ari (yakni dok umah) sy rase ade hikmah kot dok casa... hmm, menguatkan semangat kot bile mende2 cm ni jd.. mmg la nervous bt then.. it thought me 2 remain calm at all c2ation.. hehehe spt kate cik fiz.. bajet cool...
konklusi yg dpt dibina berdasarkan ape yg tlg terjadi:
1) jgn naik lif sorang2... bahaya.. naik ramai2... tp jgn la spi cm sempit spt sardin dlm tin.. nazak sgt 2...
2) snts remain cool dlm c2asi yg mengejutkan..jgn cpt panic.. sbb bile panic, jantung denyut lebih laju, lack of O2 n then bley pengsan.. hmm bahaya..
jd.. berhati2 d jalan raya -ehh??!!!-
jadi kisahnye bermula sebegini rupa...
sy menaiki lif lbh kurang jam 830 sbb buku korean language ku tertinggal di casa sedangkan ade kelas pd jam 230 esk hari.. maka, sy pun pulang la mlm ini utk memastikan tidak ketinggalan dlm kelas esk hari... so naik la lif bersama 7 org lg penduduk casa.... tibe2 dekat atr p1 n p2 dia ter'jatuh' skit.. (suatu fenomena yg normal) jd kami abaikan saje.. bile lif terbuka d p1 sbb mmg dh jd mende yg biase.. dia akn sangkut, jatuh n ok blik..
meskipun begitu, nasib tidak menyebelahi kami mlm ini.. tibe2 dh sangkut dia nk naik blik.. n thn bising cm nk rosak.. n true enuf.. dia jatuh ckit blik... n then d door trus x nk open.. maka mula la slh sorang lelaki dlm lif mula menyumpah.. sy abaikan aje.. n trus berbual ngan sorang nurse pantai yg tinggal d tingkat 15... ade kot 5 malaysian d other 3 foreigners... so one of d foreigners la yg ckp ngan guard btau kitorang stuck.. huhu n thn mula la penantian kami...
disebabkan ayahanda ku menanti di bwh.. maka sy terpaksa pinjam hp org utk inform (cz bley ari ni dgn takdirnye sy sehelai sepinggang aje blik.. x bw hp.. ) n thn dlm lif 2 mcm2 la yg terjadi.. ade yg duduk melunjur, mengangkang, berdiri, ketawa (saya la 2), senyum (kwn baru saya la 2), sedih (sorang gurl cz bus dia kul 10), menyumpah, hpr tido... huhu
mula2 dia kate 2 min... berubah ke 5.. n seterusnye... n then tetibe lampu terpadam.. agak terkejut n berderau darah.. tp msh lagi kononnye cool.. ade kot seminit 2... huhuhu kemudian tibe2 guard kate cuba bukak pintu (mane bley.. nk kopak pun x larat -lelaki ah-) n thn dia kate nk call jkr.. pelik gak.. pe kene mengena jkr ngan mende nih.. n then tetibe nk pgl technician.. n menunggu 2 lame gak laa..huhuhu
bile dh bukak.. maka sy ingatkan its at p1.. tgk2 dia atr p1 n p2.. so kene terjun.. dh ah pki kasut heels cz kasut flat kat casa..huhu tp bantai je terjun.. dh terjun 2... tgk satu lg lif plak spt mslh.. kemudian sy ngan kawan baru amik keputusan naik tangga (gyle ah jauh..dr p1 ke tingkat 7) n thn naik trus ngadu ngan cik sya n cik nu (cik tiup x prasan kite blik.. isy3) n thn minum air n bertolak ke bwh...
bile bertolak ke bwh.. jpa plak danial.. upe2nye ibundaku menelefon n mintak tlg tgk2kan.. pk2 bknnye bley wat pape kot.. msh kene tgu technician gakz... (kot x kuar lg la) pape pun, tnx :) so akhirnya kini, sy tlah pulang.. meski ibunda meng offer utk dihtr n jemput ke kolej stp ari (yakni dok umah) sy rase ade hikmah kot dok casa... hmm, menguatkan semangat kot bile mende2 cm ni jd.. mmg la nervous bt then.. it thought me 2 remain calm at all c2ation.. hehehe spt kate cik fiz.. bajet cool...
konklusi yg dpt dibina berdasarkan ape yg tlg terjadi:
1) jgn naik lif sorang2... bahaya.. naik ramai2... tp jgn la spi cm sempit spt sardin dlm tin.. nazak sgt 2...
2) snts remain cool dlm c2asi yg mengejutkan..jgn cpt panic.. sbb bile panic, jantung denyut lebih laju, lack of O2 n then bley pengsan.. hmm bahaya..
jd.. berhati2 d jalan raya -ehh??!!!-
Saturday, March 28, 2009
d 27/3 report
0530 - bangun pagi siap2 ke kolej
0645- bas letak kitorang kat dpn mcd.. menyumpah2
0700- spi kat kolej.. tido kat 12.12 XD
0815-pegi bfast.. jpa kak li, cik tiup, kee hee, keat yee, aitidal, cik sya
0900-calculus 162
1000-lepak ngan cik fiz kat level 12
1100- islamic studies
1200-lepak ngan cik fiz
1245-malaysian studies meeting
1330-lunch ngan mega, cik fiz, fatin
1400-zohor
1430-meeting wif pd n councilor
1530-blik umah ngan cik tiup bersama ngimmi n masak lepas dpt hadiah frm sis.. terharu sgｔ!
1845- siap msk.. n cepat2 asar -truk gyle-
1915-g beli kek kat bakers cottage
1945-bw makanan ke atas n thn maghrib
2030-turun pas isyak.. dpt kad dr sume.. trime kasih all!
2300-naik atas.. siap kemas sume... teman cik tiup tgk citer antu
0100-tido...
（つかえる でも ほんと に うれしい です よ！ みんな。。あｒがとう ございます！）
0645- bas letak kitorang kat dpn mcd.. menyumpah2
0700- spi kat kolej.. tido kat 12.12 XD
0815-pegi bfast.. jpa kak li, cik tiup, kee hee, keat yee, aitidal, cik sya
0900-calculus 162
1000-lepak ngan cik fiz kat level 12
1100- islamic studies
1200-lepak ngan cik fiz
1245-malaysian studies meeting
1330-lunch ngan mega, cik fiz, fatin
1400-zohor
1430-meeting wif pd n councilor
1530-blik umah ngan cik tiup bersama ngimmi n masak lepas dpt hadiah frm sis.. terharu sgｔ!
1845- siap msk.. n cepat2 asar -truk gyle-
1915-g beli kek kat bakers cottage
1945-bw makanan ke atas n thn maghrib
2030-turun pas isyak.. dpt kad dr sume.. trime kasih all!
2300-naik atas.. siap kemas sume... teman cik tiup tgk citer antu
0100-tido...
（つかえる でも ほんと に うれしい です よ！ みんな。。あｒがとう ございます！）
Friday, March 20, 2009
n ari ni skali lagi
skali lagi bertemu seorang sahabat yg lame menghilang!!
pdn ah sms x berjawab.. dh 2kar no upenye..
tp takdir menentukan kami bertemu kembali.. di casa subang...
pusat menjalinkan n merapatkan ukhuwah (apakah???)
heeeee SUS rindu ah!! lame x jumpe.. x pe, nnt bile kite free ckit kite lepak2 kat management office, ek!! =D
pdn ah sms x berjawab.. dh 2kar no upenye..
tp takdir menentukan kami bertemu kembali.. di casa subang...
pusat menjalinkan n merapatkan ukhuwah (apakah???)
heeeee SUS rindu ah!! lame x jumpe.. x pe, nnt bile kite free ckit kite lepak2 kat management office, ek!! =D
Thursday, March 19, 2009
20 things i wanna do..
this is d list of things which i wanna do... lets start.. I WANNA:
1. write short stories and poems again but i never have d time to do so..
2. go bck 2 ky but i dun tink ill b able 2 do so...
3. grad as soon as possible n b bck wif both my masters and degree in hand
4. maintain my identity as who i am now but im worried i mite get lost half way there...
5. noe who i truly am but i get confused at times
6. let peepz now tat i truly care though i barely show it
7. learn 2 refrain myself frm losing my temper and keepin things cool
8. smile as much as i can n keep on smilin though im goin through pain
9. keep my head cool when d time comes 4 me to fly
10. wish those takin TOEFL in penang this sun all d best
11. make d gathering wif man ee a success =)
12. skip summer class n master my korean.. huhu n jap as well
13. finish my 162 assignment though it is takin me ages 2 get it done
14. finish my phil assign n prepare all d slides
15. find info on klinefelter symptom for my bio lab
16. get over d fear which i felt frm bio class on syndromes in children due to problems in meiosis n crossin over.. hence, d fear 2 conceive? XD (jk,jk) -man, i felt sorry 4 them.. so young..n goin through a lot... =(-
17. spend more time reflecting on wat ive did rather than fall asleep quarter way thru revising
18. study 4 my tests n finals n do my best 4 d dramas for bio n socs 111
19. 2 find d true meaning of happiness n peacefulness
20. 2 find d person (besides my fam n close fwenz la) who could wipe away all d sadness in me jz wif a glimpse of tat person's smile n words.. -long term goal XD-
1. write short stories and poems again but i never have d time to do so..
2. go bck 2 ky but i dun tink ill b able 2 do so...
3. grad as soon as possible n b bck wif both my masters and degree in hand
4. maintain my identity as who i am now but im worried i mite get lost half way there...
5. noe who i truly am but i get confused at times
6. let peepz now tat i truly care though i barely show it
7. learn 2 refrain myself frm losing my temper and keepin things cool
8. smile as much as i can n keep on smilin though im goin through pain
9. keep my head cool when d time comes 4 me to fly
10. wish those takin TOEFL in penang this sun all d best
11. make d gathering wif man ee a success =)
12. skip summer class n master my korean.. huhu n jap as well
13. finish my 162 assignment though it is takin me ages 2 get it done
14. finish my phil assign n prepare all d slides
15. find info on klinefelter symptom for my bio lab
16. get over d fear which i felt frm bio class on syndromes in children due to problems in meiosis n crossin over.. hence, d fear 2 conceive? XD (jk,jk) -man, i felt sorry 4 them.. so young..n goin through a lot... =(-
17. spend more time reflecting on wat ive did rather than fall asleep quarter way thru revising
18. study 4 my tests n finals n do my best 4 d dramas for bio n socs 111
19. 2 find d true meaning of happiness n peacefulness
20. 2 find d person (besides my fam n close fwenz la) who could wipe away all d sadness in me jz wif a glimpse of tat person's smile n words.. -long term goal XD-
Thursday, March 5, 2009
and once again...
and once again..
TOPAZ soar up into d sky!!! =D
amat berbangga 2 b a topazian not oni 4 d achievements bt 4 d spirit in all of u.. heee so proud of u guys though i oni hv d surface insight on hw u guys r doin...
bt no matter wat! keep up d gud work!
GOOO TOPAZZ!!
-c budak yg jauh d mata tp msh kepo nk tau pe jd kat sane-
TOPAZ soar up into d sky!!! =D
amat berbangga 2 b a topazian not oni 4 d achievements bt 4 d spirit in all of u.. heee so proud of u guys though i oni hv d surface insight on hw u guys r doin...
bt no matter wat! keep up d gud work!
GOOO TOPAZZ!!
-c budak yg jauh d mata tp msh kepo nk tau pe jd kat sane-
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Korean Class- its d 1st time!!
kurassu wa hajimemasu!!!
din noe i could end up being d blurest kid on earth in a language class (summore since im d eldest... d others r my sis n her fwen..) felt kinda idiotic bt well.. tis language is perfectly new 2 me.. due 2 d fact ive been focusing on jap so yeah.. im totally left behind in class jz nw.. bt doesnt matter.. bit by bit i hope 2 b able 2 catch up
nw d big prob... my schedule is packd enuf wout another lang 2 study n nw i hv n xtra sub.. i wonder hw am i gonna revise tat sub.. gotta learn 2 find time.. squeeze around 30 mins perday 2 revise.. esp d pronunciation part.. OMG!! i thought im about 2 choke... guess coz its my first time..
d teacher is nice enuf.. i 4got wats teacher in korean alredi.. sansonni or sonsanmi or sumtin like tat -im such a 4getful person, tatz y my jap studies is SOOO slow-
hw more 2 go... haihzzz... ne1 wanna help me 2 finish them up????
din noe i could end up being d blurest kid on earth in a language class (summore since im d eldest... d others r my sis n her fwen..) felt kinda idiotic bt well.. tis language is perfectly new 2 me.. due 2 d fact ive been focusing on jap so yeah.. im totally left behind in class jz nw.. bt doesnt matter.. bit by bit i hope 2 b able 2 catch up
nw d big prob... my schedule is packd enuf wout another lang 2 study n nw i hv n xtra sub.. i wonder hw am i gonna revise tat sub.. gotta learn 2 find time.. squeeze around 30 mins perday 2 revise.. esp d pronunciation part.. OMG!! i thought im about 2 choke... guess coz its my first time..
d teacher is nice enuf.. i 4got wats teacher in korean alredi.. sansonni or sonsanmi or sumtin like tat -im such a 4getful person, tatz y my jap studies is SOOO slow-
hw more 2 go... haihzzz... ne1 wanna help me 2 finish them up????
Friday, February 20, 2009
n i had nutin better 2 do..
today i have loadz of assignments.. its frm d whole week (not reli d whole actly) n nw i havent touched them yet.. dun feel like doin though its like stacks of assignments n hw... i havent been in a mood 4 d last few days... no matter hw much i try i realized ive been spacing out quite a lot lately.. even in classes hmm well... malaysian i guess.. coz i kinda njoy bein in islamic... hehehe =D
each work im doin i cant gv my full conc.. ask nurul hw ws i doin my hw tis morn.. talkin rather than doin... my mind is jz not straight yet.. n my heart has been turnin upside down these past few days.. its a kinda feelin which hurts bt at d same time i treasure it.. hmm.. i wonder hw am i spose 2 put it in words.. its diff i guess... a feeling which rarely comes bt comin bck these few days.. haihzz.. n mayb tatz y ive been noisier than usually (ive always been noisy.. bt i tink tis week slight xtra than usual..)
i hv realized my sleepin trend.. among d whole week there definitely gonna b 1 day where ill wake up at 6 sumtin tis week its thurs, last week its wed.. its always between wed n thurs... huhu n nw i askd sue 2 wake me up.. hehehe bad enuf eh, not able 2 wake up as early as i hope.. n if i were 2 force myself 2 stay up then d next day ill oversleep.. huhu
oh yeah.. im a lil bit worried 4 my results dis sem.. i gotta get 3.5 n above or say gudbye 2 flyin tis year.. do pray 4 me! whoeva goin 2 us... do tell me.. who noes i mite cook up lunch 4 ya! =)
I LUV MY FAM, MATES N EDUCATORS.... if i were 2 luv sumtin, i could rmmbr evry single detail of it n if i were 2 hate sumtin i would hate it 4eva.. i sound like an evil freak.. XP im tired.. i wanna rest... i jz wanna b able 2 close my eyes n empty my mind n find d peace n calmness within me... would sum1 guide me?
each work im doin i cant gv my full conc.. ask nurul hw ws i doin my hw tis morn.. talkin rather than doin... my mind is jz not straight yet.. n my heart has been turnin upside down these past few days.. its a kinda feelin which hurts bt at d same time i treasure it.. hmm.. i wonder hw am i spose 2 put it in words.. its diff i guess... a feeling which rarely comes bt comin bck these few days.. haihzz.. n mayb tatz y ive been noisier than usually (ive always been noisy.. bt i tink tis week slight xtra than usual..)
i hv realized my sleepin trend.. among d whole week there definitely gonna b 1 day where ill wake up at 6 sumtin tis week its thurs, last week its wed.. its always between wed n thurs... huhu n nw i askd sue 2 wake me up.. hehehe bad enuf eh, not able 2 wake up as early as i hope.. n if i were 2 force myself 2 stay up then d next day ill oversleep.. huhu
oh yeah.. im a lil bit worried 4 my results dis sem.. i gotta get 3.5 n above or say gudbye 2 flyin tis year.. do pray 4 me! whoeva goin 2 us... do tell me.. who noes i mite cook up lunch 4 ya! =)
I LUV MY FAM, MATES N EDUCATORS.... if i were 2 luv sumtin, i could rmmbr evry single detail of it n if i were 2 hate sumtin i would hate it 4eva.. i sound like an evil freak.. XP im tired.. i wanna rest... i jz wanna b able 2 close my eyes n empty my mind n find d peace n calmness within me... would sum1 guide me?
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
10 Nafas
Nafas pertama,
'Ain terbuka-pandangan pertama;
Nafas kedua,
Gegelung kasih mencengkam jiwa;
Nafas ketiga,
Jasad menggerak menggapai lelangit;
Nafas keempat,
Mencari cita sesirnar bintang;
Nafas kelima,
Mencari cinta tak kunjung tiba;
Nafas keenam,
Mengenal Illahi yang satu;
Nafas ketujuh,
Dambaan jiwa-ketenangan;
Nafas kelapan,
Cinta dan cita dalam genggaman;
Nafas kesembilan,
Mutlak diriku untukMu;
Nafas kesepuluh,
Yang terbuka sudah terkatup,
Yang bermula telah berakhir.
'Ain terbuka-pandangan pertama;
Nafas kedua,
Gegelung kasih mencengkam jiwa;
Nafas ketiga,
Jasad menggerak menggapai lelangit;
Nafas keempat,
Mencari cita sesirnar bintang;
Nafas kelima,
Mencari cinta tak kunjung tiba;
Nafas keenam,
Mengenal Illahi yang satu;
Nafas ketujuh,
Dambaan jiwa-ketenangan;
Nafas kelapan,
Cinta dan cita dalam genggaman;
Nafas kesembilan,
Mutlak diriku untukMu;
Nafas kesepuluh,
Yang terbuka sudah terkatup,
Yang bermula telah berakhir.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
d gud things whch happened
several gud things hv happened i spose.. lemme list them down.. im sooo glad tat i cant help smiling n close 2 tears.. tears of joy btw...
1. topaz won bangsawan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4 awards babe! =D
2. ive finished my interview wif penn.. so glad its over
3. ive got an offer from wash
4. i managed 2 do my maths 162 hw though not all r correct... bt i tried! =D
5. i miss my mates.. (is tat a gud thing?)
guess tatz all 4 d time being... time is runnin out 4 me 2 b in mas... 4 d time being i noe ill b leavin in sept bt then.. if i got other offers i mite leave earlier.. mayb... mayb...
bt 4 d time being.. i wanna b free n njoy d gud things!!!!!!!! XD
1. topaz won bangsawan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4 awards babe! =D
2. ive finished my interview wif penn.. so glad its over
3. ive got an offer from wash
4. i managed 2 do my maths 162 hw though not all r correct... bt i tried! =D
5. i miss my mates.. (is tat a gud thing?)
guess tatz all 4 d time being... time is runnin out 4 me 2 b in mas... 4 d time being i noe ill b leavin in sept bt then.. if i got other offers i mite leave earlier.. mayb... mayb...
bt 4 d time being.. i wanna b free n njoy d gud things!!!!!!!! XD
Saturday, January 31, 2009
I'm a BigBang member!!!
juz wanna tell evry1 im in BigBang! -proud eh 2 hv me as a fwen-
juz during my Calculus 162 class... it was chosen by my mates...
i noe sum r cursing me... wth is wrong wif this idiotic gurl...
guess its true in sum ways!! :D
juz during my Calculus 162 class... it was chosen by my mates...
i noe sum r cursing me... wth is wrong wif this idiotic gurl...
guess its true in sum ways!! :D
Friday, January 16, 2009
-title-
i was doin maths when sdnly i remembered.. d week i was told 2 leave ky i jz told my mum i am not goin bck home over d weekends since d holz is jz 1 week away.. n it was a day b4 i got d call i tink... i thought it was of no significance bt then nw i tink its jz a way 2 show tat things dun always go d way i want it 2 be... instead of not goin bck 4 d weekends, i ended up goin bck 4eva.. ironic, eh? =)
hw i get 2 remember tis.. i tink d stress wif calculus 4 bus 2 did it.. on thurs i tink i was talkin n laughin all d time despite notin was particularly hilarious.. my mates were shocked n mayb kinda scared of me at tat time bt nw im kinda stable though it brought back certain stuf which nvr crossed my mind b4... hehehe
n ystrdy i managed 2 shock a couple of guys 4 playin dota.. seriously, im not gud at it.. jz 2 release d tense frm 162 n tatz bout it.. bt they were shocked i cn tell ya tat 4 sure :D
seriously.. im doin my maths at d mo... graphs again.. i hv been stuck wif tis 4 d whole week.. lab report is not done yet... gonna get it done latest 2nite!!
back 2 work! ;)
hw i get 2 remember tis.. i tink d stress wif calculus 4 bus 2 did it.. on thurs i tink i was talkin n laughin all d time despite notin was particularly hilarious.. my mates were shocked n mayb kinda scared of me at tat time bt nw im kinda stable though it brought back certain stuf which nvr crossed my mind b4... hehehe
n ystrdy i managed 2 shock a couple of guys 4 playin dota.. seriously, im not gud at it.. jz 2 release d tense frm 162 n tatz bout it.. bt they were shocked i cn tell ya tat 4 sure :D
seriously.. im doin my maths at d mo... graphs again.. i hv been stuck wif tis 4 d whole week.. lab report is not done yet... gonna get it done latest 2nite!!
back 2 work! ;)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
now...
somehow these past few days i feel a lil bit disturbed. instead of looking forward 2 classes in taylors, ive been tinkin a lot bout kyuem.. hehehe though things r under control, i hv a feelin tat im bein slightly sensitive these past few days...ive been tinkin n tinkin.. tat at times if im not careful im certain i would b drowned in thoughts, again.. tinkin of 'if' again.. =) not a gud thing 2 do, i assure u
wonder hw things gonna turn out tis sem.. i realized at times wat i say n tink r 2 diff things... there is definitely a mask im wearing; concealin d part of me.. im inside a glass box.. protecting my heart from those i dislike.. bt i guess d glass is about 2 break.. 2 many things hv happened.. 2 many events which caused it 2 crack n alas its either i soar or ill sink... things happen 4 a reason n i havent forgiven myself and d other party.. n i spose tatz wat put me in tis tight position... an unforgiving loneliness at times.. barely 4get d meaning of it since last aug bt i spose life is unperfect... d imperfectness makes me tink... n tink.. n at times get tired of tinking...
nevertheless, i shall find a reason 2 move on.. though my heart is still behind bt i guess i gotta go.. n leave a part of me behind.. i still am tinkin wat if.. even rite nw... still tinkin n it wont stop till sumtin larger happen n mite take me by surprise... as much as d july n aug surprise... as long as i havent forgiven myself 4 d decision... i guess ill b stuck like tis 4eva...
so, lets start d 2nd part of my journey.. like wat sum1 said b4, i hv d most interestin edu journey in my fam n slowly it mite kill me frm knowin my self.. it mite make me a good actress though.. mayb i shud take up theater class soon... =P
l.e.t.s.w.o.r.k.h.a.r.d.t.o.a.c.h.i.e.v.e.o.u.r.d.r.e.a.m.z.t.h.o.u.g.h.i.t.w.o.u.l.d.m.e.a.n.i.n .f.l.i.c.t.i.n.g.p.a.i.n.o.n.s.e.l.f.
wonder hw things gonna turn out tis sem.. i realized at times wat i say n tink r 2 diff things... there is definitely a mask im wearing; concealin d part of me.. im inside a glass box.. protecting my heart from those i dislike.. bt i guess d glass is about 2 break.. 2 many things hv happened.. 2 many events which caused it 2 crack n alas its either i soar or ill sink... things happen 4 a reason n i havent forgiven myself and d other party.. n i spose tatz wat put me in tis tight position... an unforgiving loneliness at times.. barely 4get d meaning of it since last aug bt i spose life is unperfect... d imperfectness makes me tink... n tink.. n at times get tired of tinking...
nevertheless, i shall find a reason 2 move on.. though my heart is still behind bt i guess i gotta go.. n leave a part of me behind.. i still am tinkin wat if.. even rite nw... still tinkin n it wont stop till sumtin larger happen n mite take me by surprise... as much as d july n aug surprise... as long as i havent forgiven myself 4 d decision... i guess ill b stuck like tis 4eva...
so, lets start d 2nd part of my journey.. like wat sum1 said b4, i hv d most interestin edu journey in my fam n slowly it mite kill me frm knowin my self.. it mite make me a good actress though.. mayb i shud take up theater class soon... =P
l.e.t.s.w.o.r.k.h.a.r.d.t.o.a.c.h.i.e.v.e.o.u.r.d.r.e.a.m.z.t.h.o.u.g.h.i.t.w.o.u.l.d.m.e.a.n.i.n .f.l.i.c.t.i.n.g.p.a.i.n.o.n.s.e.l.f.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Six
Walking down the path,
Where birds fly free, breeze singing,
Sakura floating.
Moon, remain hidden,
And darkness embraces me,
Immutable curse.
Where birds fly free, breeze singing,
Sakura floating.
Moon, remain hidden,
And darkness embraces me,
Immutable curse.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
wat im up 2...
wat am i up 2 these few days.. nutin much.. bt soon aftr im bck frm kenyir i was tinkin of writin a myth bout koi fish.. dun ask me y.. sdnly koi seem 2 b appealing 2 my eyes.. they remind me of those olden chinese stories where they hv this long beard n moustache as well.. hehehe juz crossed my mind.. bt well.. workin on it at d mo.. though d settin will b in japan (as if ive been there..) research is definitely needed bt i hv no idea whether i will b able 2 end tis work of mine or not.. lately all ive been writing ends up hanging half way through.. i wasnt able 2 conc on them properly.. sumtin is buggin me i spose...
nw im not well (again) flu n all.. not forgettin body ache... evrytin seems 2 b wrong at times... miraculously i woke up at 6am 2day though i told myself 2 go 2 bed again coz i wasnt feelin gud... college is startin again n im dreading 2 start classes... d holz hv spoilt me that i dun feel like studyin yet.. huhu help me!!! im sooooooooooo lazy.... esp since i havent got my timetable when others hv obtained theirs...
k, better get bck 2 work..sat is comin up!! -wish me luck!- =)
nw im not well (again) flu n all.. not forgettin body ache... evrytin seems 2 b wrong at times... miraculously i woke up at 6am 2day though i told myself 2 go 2 bed again coz i wasnt feelin gud... college is startin again n im dreading 2 start classes... d holz hv spoilt me that i dun feel like studyin yet.. huhu help me!!! im sooooooooooo lazy.... esp since i havent got my timetable when others hv obtained theirs...
k, better get bck 2 work..sat is comin up!! -wish me luck!- =)
Monday, December 15, 2008
innocent thought I
The blue sky
Looking with blinded eyes
Silently thinking
“Would I see it change colour?”
And my heart slowly ached.
I saw the flower
Budding in May
And yet
I thought
“Would I ever be able to see it bloom next spring?”
And my soul slowly breaks.
The slow breeze
Singing the song of life
While I, watching
The wilting of self
To a person unknown to others
Unknown to world.
Looking with blinded eyes
Silently thinking
“Would I see it change colour?”
And my heart slowly ached.
I saw the flower
Budding in May
And yet
I thought
“Would I ever be able to see it bloom next spring?”
And my soul slowly breaks.
The slow breeze
Singing the song of life
While I, watching
The wilting of self
To a person unknown to others
Unknown to world.
was juz tinkin
Is it possible for a person to never give up in life? Could a person be touched without any contact? How strong could a heart be and how long can the strength last when it has started to crack; the edge of breaking? As silly as it may sound but perhaps I did learn something from what I have watched. Life being taken for granted, that is what we always do. To never look back and only to remember when we are in pain. Before we start losing what we have, we should cherish it more: the ability to breathe, to watch the plants growing, to laugh with family and friends, to feel the breeze around us. To cherish those who offer us love and those whom we offer our love is not a difficult thing to do. And yet, we tend to forget. We move on but at the same time not developing our heart and soul into a better figure. We left the pain we felt before and kept on running away in hopes of forgetting the dark past. However, we forget that the darkness is the tunnel to light. There is where we force ourselves to bloom and to make the best out of what we have. Once we are in the light, again, we forget and fall into the pitch darkness and again we struggle and again we forget. Is that what all of us are good at: an expert at forgetting important things in life? Even the small smile from our loved ones should be treasured. It is not to the extent of counting each smile but perhaps to remember how it looks like and to be grateful to still be able to see it is perhaps something we should really try to do. Why wait for the pain to come then only the feeling of grateful and then regret? Regret comes only to those who fail to live their life to the fullest. Not to say I have no regrets in life (many actually) but I suppose I am trying to move on without leaving my regrets behind. To move on and still remember every second I lived and left. I know how it feels to think that our ultimate dream has gone to pieces, to have to maneuver my course of life into something I do not enjoy. However, life does not alter to your wants or needs. It is there to test you and to teach you to be grateful each and every day: To be more mature and aware in leading ourselves to reach our goals. Yes, we need to make sacrifices but do choose the right choices. Actually, I would prefer to put it this way: do listen to what your heart have to say instead of relying on your senses all the time. Sometimes it is worth listening to your intuition. I know it is. If you are in pain, remember you are never alone. There are others who suffer more than you do and that you always have your friends and family by your side; to be there at all times and listen to what you have to say. Never give up in life for life is there for us to find a way to live in this world not to find the way to death.
Monday, November 24, 2008
d ractar visit =)
After weeks of planning at last we had time 2 go 2 ractar.. we cancelled our visit twice I tink n now we had d time 2 go.. those involved r me, laili, khairil, syamim, reen!, aitidal, hasanah, raihan, nurul, hazmira. We arrived around 1030 coz d transportation did not come.. hmm..sumhow… so reen fetchd all of them n I went wif reen as well.. frm home =)
At first it was intro session… n thn we had ice breaking.. akma n achik was wif me.. both from primary.. cfil.. my primary school too.. akma is in year 6 which achik is in year 2… all of us were given d opportunity 2 conduct our session wif them as we please.. hw I started.. 4 d first half hour (or more) we talkd bout ourselves.. teachers in cfil… n then crap a lil bit ere n there =) –its normal of me 2 do tat- n then I started my eng activities… started out wif spelling bee. Though we mix eng n malay in our comm. But its fine 2 me.. I got them 2 spell n write d words out.. I joined them 2… hihi as usual.. 2 get d fun as well..
D next activity I did was charade.. I get them 2 act out as a few animals n objects n they were definitely shy.. but then, they did it neways… a few mins after charade, reen decided 2 join our group. Soo sorry, bt I 4gotten d name of d 2 gurls… we continued wif charade but tis time there were 4 of us.. hehehe kinda nice… reen def have a knack on torturing kids I tink.. I gottta learn frm her on how 2 do it.. =) reen is def more motherly than me.. im whackier n crazier I spose… =P then sum of d gurls wanted 2 perform.. dances.. nice ones… 1 frm d song sway n d other is tarian kipas.. nice job gals! Next up was raihan singing.. then d kids.. then raihan again.. then d whole lot of us.. =) –malu la suara terlalu ‘sedap’- =P
At last it was 1230.. time 2 go bck home… time 4 them 2 have lunch.. it was shockin hw fast 2 hours passed… we din realized at all… n thn all of us bid each other goodbye.. hasanah’s bag was popular.. a kid kept on takin her bag everywhere… n cried when she gotta part frm hasanah…. Sad, eh? But we njoyd ourselves a lot.. reli2 a lot… khairil was 2… I tink he was in a way touchd when d kids calld him abang… n he was hepi he was able 2 relay his experience 2 those kids.. connectin wif others in a diff way than usual.. nice, rite? relationships r blessing 4 all of us… =)
At first it was intro session… n thn we had ice breaking.. akma n achik was wif me.. both from primary.. cfil.. my primary school too.. akma is in year 6 which achik is in year 2… all of us were given d opportunity 2 conduct our session wif them as we please.. hw I started.. 4 d first half hour (or more) we talkd bout ourselves.. teachers in cfil… n then crap a lil bit ere n there =) –its normal of me 2 do tat- n then I started my eng activities… started out wif spelling bee. Though we mix eng n malay in our comm. But its fine 2 me.. I got them 2 spell n write d words out.. I joined them 2… hihi as usual.. 2 get d fun as well..
D next activity I did was charade.. I get them 2 act out as a few animals n objects n they were definitely shy.. but then, they did it neways… a few mins after charade, reen decided 2 join our group. Soo sorry, bt I 4gotten d name of d 2 gurls… we continued wif charade but tis time there were 4 of us.. hehehe kinda nice… reen def have a knack on torturing kids I tink.. I gottta learn frm her on how 2 do it.. =) reen is def more motherly than me.. im whackier n crazier I spose… =P then sum of d gurls wanted 2 perform.. dances.. nice ones… 1 frm d song sway n d other is tarian kipas.. nice job gals! Next up was raihan singing.. then d kids.. then raihan again.. then d whole lot of us.. =) –malu la suara terlalu ‘sedap’- =P
At last it was 1230.. time 2 go bck home… time 4 them 2 have lunch.. it was shockin hw fast 2 hours passed… we din realized at all… n thn all of us bid each other goodbye.. hasanah’s bag was popular.. a kid kept on takin her bag everywhere… n cried when she gotta part frm hasanah…. Sad, eh? But we njoyd ourselves a lot.. reli2 a lot… khairil was 2… I tink he was in a way touchd when d kids calld him abang… n he was hepi he was able 2 relay his experience 2 those kids.. connectin wif others in a diff way than usual.. nice, rite? relationships r blessing 4 all of us… =)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
d journey
Im writing tis a few days after d event coz I dunno y.. mayb xhausted or slightly bz.. finals r indeed comin soon.. so yeah… d delayin process… n nw im typin in college as im drop dead free til sumwhere in d afternoon when things will suddenly get hectic =(
Ok neways… it was a thurs.. last thurs when both hasanah and I went to KL in order to ‘teman’ Kee Hee for her informal interview for Cornell U. we were sposed 2 go 2 d guys office but they ended up meeting in maju junction and both of them had lunch in pizza hut. Thank goodness I went with them coz if not hasanah will b alone around ¾ of the time in kl… we had lunch together.. went to giant (as if we dun stay close enuf 2 giant… huhu.. sebelah casa je…) n I kept on buyin cut fruits.. more cut fruits n more fruits..
Hw did we get there.. taxi!! Kee hee paid d whole things n it made us kinda guilty.. (tnx loadz dear!!) n thn we started walkin around… we hv not even d slightest idea where 2 walk around in kl… I mite b a gurl who have stayd in subang 4 almost all of my life but I nvr take heed on wats around.. sleepyhead, I am.. keep on sleepin in d car.. hehehe =P so we kept on walking (summore it was in d afternoon!!) n reachd d monorel station…
Then we all looked at d route.. where shall we go? Berjaya? Boring.. so we headed to kl sentral straight… n well we walkd there n noticed d walkway was pretty dirty… rubbish all over.. I wonder y do peepz throw rubbish everywhere since it is a place where tourist do come often.. kinda makes a bad image 4 malaysians, aite? It got me thinking.. wat hv bcome of our awareness on cleanliness… if we could keep our house clean all d time (unlike me.. but I hate throwin rubbish in public) y cant we do d same 4 our country.. its our country newayz…
So then we walkd around kl central 4 a few hours.. I saw a fruit stall (happy me!!) n checkd out d price of cherries.. bloody expensive! 80+ per kg! I was soo shockd that I gaspd when I saw d price… quickly recovering frm d shock we got ourselves ice cream!! (yay, my fav!!) n thn we sat coz my feet were aching… reli2 aching (I got a blister neways…) n thn set 2 get our ktm ticket at d machine.. d machine is sooo fussy.. it wouldn’t accept my RM10 coz its slightly crumpled but it swallowed my RM5.. d new RM5 easily.. annoyin machine… there goes my cute, lil RM5… n when we wanted 2 find d platform we got a lil bit lost.. we were finding 4 platform 5 but ended up at d stairs of platform 1 & 2 I tink.. n we were all.. where is platform 5!! Made us look like some.. well… dunno where peepz… like sesat oni.. but then we realized tat d stairs 2 d platform 5 is juz d one opposite where we were standing.. gosh, it was embarrassing!!
After waitin for quite a long time for d ktm it managed to arrive… hehehe… =P we got on n waited to arrive at subang station. Arrived, kee hee askd us out 2 sunway for dinner.. she got us dinner neways… so we were tinking hw shud we go there… n ended up on a bus mini… I thought d bus might hv dropped or netin like tat coz it was in a majorly bad condition.. but well.. we managed 2 arrive safely at sunway despite d bad jam n all.. it was raining n I tink there was a leakage in d bus.. hmm…. Nvm, wats important is we arrived in one piece… =)
In sunway, we walkd around… round n round… n when I go 4 my prayers, both hasanah n kee hee went walkin sumwhere else n they ended up goin 2 d toilet instead of d surau 2 get me after im done prayin… hihihi (hasanah la ni jd guide.. trus sesat =P) we had dinner in mcd… talkd loadz.. n hear both of d gurls tell me an ‘interesting’ dream of theirz.. (oww it’s a secret!) hihi.. but I doubt tat would b true though.. unless… unless… =)
We left sunway at 8pm… it was raining n d jam was overwhelming! We got on a metro bus n well we kinda panicked coz hv no idea where were we heading (so much 4 me being a usj kid) but I noe we were stil in usj.. heheh at least sumtin, rite? N we arrived bck n casa at 9pm I tink… or was it later? I was sooo exhausted by tat time n my feet were aching badly.. d blister! OMG!!! Wasn’t cool at all.. haven’t heald til 2day coz ive been walkin a lot.. in heels summore (but its I tink around 1 inch oni.. not bad 4 my legs rite? It shouldn’t do me any xtra harm aite??) n I gotta decline a dinner invitation coz I was sooo superbly tired.. nevertheless I stil slept at 1130/1200 sumwhere there.. hehehe
Me haven’t been on a public transportation 4 ages was drop dead xcited through out d whole journey.. I tink I was d brightest of all.. though as nite crept in d xcitement died away as exhaustion was takin over my body… so yeah.. nice full day outin! Hehehe njoyd it 2 d max.. =)
Ok neways… it was a thurs.. last thurs when both hasanah and I went to KL in order to ‘teman’ Kee Hee for her informal interview for Cornell U. we were sposed 2 go 2 d guys office but they ended up meeting in maju junction and both of them had lunch in pizza hut. Thank goodness I went with them coz if not hasanah will b alone around ¾ of the time in kl… we had lunch together.. went to giant (as if we dun stay close enuf 2 giant… huhu.. sebelah casa je…) n I kept on buyin cut fruits.. more cut fruits n more fruits..
Hw did we get there.. taxi!! Kee hee paid d whole things n it made us kinda guilty.. (tnx loadz dear!!) n thn we started walkin around… we hv not even d slightest idea where 2 walk around in kl… I mite b a gurl who have stayd in subang 4 almost all of my life but I nvr take heed on wats around.. sleepyhead, I am.. keep on sleepin in d car.. hehehe =P so we kept on walking (summore it was in d afternoon!!) n reachd d monorel station…
Then we all looked at d route.. where shall we go? Berjaya? Boring.. so we headed to kl sentral straight… n well we walkd there n noticed d walkway was pretty dirty… rubbish all over.. I wonder y do peepz throw rubbish everywhere since it is a place where tourist do come often.. kinda makes a bad image 4 malaysians, aite? It got me thinking.. wat hv bcome of our awareness on cleanliness… if we could keep our house clean all d time (unlike me.. but I hate throwin rubbish in public) y cant we do d same 4 our country.. its our country newayz…
So then we walkd around kl central 4 a few hours.. I saw a fruit stall (happy me!!) n checkd out d price of cherries.. bloody expensive! 80+ per kg! I was soo shockd that I gaspd when I saw d price… quickly recovering frm d shock we got ourselves ice cream!! (yay, my fav!!) n thn we sat coz my feet were aching… reli2 aching (I got a blister neways…) n thn set 2 get our ktm ticket at d machine.. d machine is sooo fussy.. it wouldn’t accept my RM10 coz its slightly crumpled but it swallowed my RM5.. d new RM5 easily.. annoyin machine… there goes my cute, lil RM5… n when we wanted 2 find d platform we got a lil bit lost.. we were finding 4 platform 5 but ended up at d stairs of platform 1 & 2 I tink.. n we were all.. where is platform 5!! Made us look like some.. well… dunno where peepz… like sesat oni.. but then we realized tat d stairs 2 d platform 5 is juz d one opposite where we were standing.. gosh, it was embarrassing!!
After waitin for quite a long time for d ktm it managed to arrive… hehehe… =P we got on n waited to arrive at subang station. Arrived, kee hee askd us out 2 sunway for dinner.. she got us dinner neways… so we were tinking hw shud we go there… n ended up on a bus mini… I thought d bus might hv dropped or netin like tat coz it was in a majorly bad condition.. but well.. we managed 2 arrive safely at sunway despite d bad jam n all.. it was raining n I tink there was a leakage in d bus.. hmm…. Nvm, wats important is we arrived in one piece… =)
In sunway, we walkd around… round n round… n when I go 4 my prayers, both hasanah n kee hee went walkin sumwhere else n they ended up goin 2 d toilet instead of d surau 2 get me after im done prayin… hihihi (hasanah la ni jd guide.. trus sesat =P) we had dinner in mcd… talkd loadz.. n hear both of d gurls tell me an ‘interesting’ dream of theirz.. (oww it’s a secret!) hihi.. but I doubt tat would b true though.. unless… unless… =)
We left sunway at 8pm… it was raining n d jam was overwhelming! We got on a metro bus n well we kinda panicked coz hv no idea where were we heading (so much 4 me being a usj kid) but I noe we were stil in usj.. heheh at least sumtin, rite? N we arrived bck n casa at 9pm I tink… or was it later? I was sooo exhausted by tat time n my feet were aching badly.. d blister! OMG!!! Wasn’t cool at all.. haven’t heald til 2day coz ive been walkin a lot.. in heels summore (but its I tink around 1 inch oni.. not bad 4 my legs rite? It shouldn’t do me any xtra harm aite??) n I gotta decline a dinner invitation coz I was sooo superbly tired.. nevertheless I stil slept at 1130/1200 sumwhere there.. hehehe
Me haven’t been on a public transportation 4 ages was drop dead xcited through out d whole journey.. I tink I was d brightest of all.. though as nite crept in d xcitement died away as exhaustion was takin over my body… so yeah.. nice full day outin! Hehehe njoyd it 2 d max.. =)
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
The Melancholy (of i today)
Today,
I hear but I did not listen
I see but I did not look
And of the laughter
I only felt pain
when the trembling of my soul
could be detained no longer
and hatred have given birth
from self to fate; of i to I.
Of laughter and smiles; a fake
of pleasure in both
have long been lost
in the mist of grief
as dreams have brought wrath
crucifixion of joy
to lament, eternally.
of Ignorance, I am ashamed,
of Sorrow, I am pained,
but you, seeing from afar
thought silently
"she is just as fine."
I hear but I did not listen
I see but I did not look
And of the laughter
I only felt pain
when the trembling of my soul
could be detained no longer
and hatred have given birth
from self to fate; of i to I.
Of laughter and smiles; a fake
of pleasure in both
have long been lost
in the mist of grief
as dreams have brought wrath
crucifixion of joy
to lament, eternally.
of Ignorance, I am ashamed,
of Sorrow, I am pained,
but you, seeing from afar
thought silently
"she is just as fine."
Friday, November 14, 2008
Four
The Oirase Stream,
Pure as the love of you,
Clear and true.
The singing breeze,
and my eyes locked with yours,
I, lost in beauty.
The little fishes,
Swimming in Shimanto River,
Like playing catch.
Pure as the love of you,
Clear and true.
The singing breeze,
and my eyes locked with yours,
I, lost in beauty.
The little fishes,
Swimming in Shimanto River,
Like playing catch.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
yesterday n today
as i was in my room in casa after my prayers, i was browsing through the internet while checkin up whose is on9, who isnt, my profile updates, etc n sumtin crossed my mind.. ive heard bout kyuem since i was in lower secondary i tink.. sumwhere when i was in f3 i tink wait.. younger... f2 or f1... n i was shocked!
d story was like tis.. well.. i noe i got 2 noe nico n pojz a few years b4 tis n used 2 keep in touch wif them n i juz remembered they were frm kyuem.. (i hv a feeling nico is in one of d picz in kyuem prospective student broschure which i still hv till 2day.. hmm) i remembered pojz tellin me he was frm kmys which hv changed into kyuem... n i juz remembered me doin research tryin 2 find out wat is kyuem! wat a coincidence (bak kata aidid...) i remembered bein xcited readin bout kyuem but soon i 4got bout it.. huhu until it juz striked my mind 2day! hw we r all connected.. its kinda weird n makes me wonder..
n nw i tink my brain is kinda slow 2 remember things.. i was smiling away after i finished thinking bout it.. mayb we were meant 2 meet in kyuem.. mayb i was meant 2 set foot in kyuem even 4 a short period.. mayb there is sumtin more 2 d 3 weeks i was in kyuem.. well who noes? hehehe nw im startin 2 ramble again.. but it xcites my emotions 2 noe tat in a way i knew d college although i thought i din... it was partially familiar 2 me though at first it was alien 2 me... it felt almost like i found a new piece in my life puzzle.. which made d whole pic more interestin than i thought it was... n im thankful 4 all ive been thru.. d tears n smiles... d time.. d energy.. n all... -syukur, Alhamdulillah-
d story was like tis.. well.. i noe i got 2 noe nico n pojz a few years b4 tis n used 2 keep in touch wif them n i juz remembered they were frm kyuem.. (i hv a feeling nico is in one of d picz in kyuem prospective student broschure which i still hv till 2day.. hmm) i remembered pojz tellin me he was frm kmys which hv changed into kyuem... n i juz remembered me doin research tryin 2 find out wat is kyuem! wat a coincidence (bak kata aidid...) i remembered bein xcited readin bout kyuem but soon i 4got bout it.. huhu until it juz striked my mind 2day! hw we r all connected.. its kinda weird n makes me wonder..
n nw i tink my brain is kinda slow 2 remember things.. i was smiling away after i finished thinking bout it.. mayb we were meant 2 meet in kyuem.. mayb i was meant 2 set foot in kyuem even 4 a short period.. mayb there is sumtin more 2 d 3 weeks i was in kyuem.. well who noes? hehehe nw im startin 2 ramble again.. but it xcites my emotions 2 noe tat in a way i knew d college although i thought i din... it was partially familiar 2 me though at first it was alien 2 me... it felt almost like i found a new piece in my life puzzle.. which made d whole pic more interestin than i thought it was... n im thankful 4 all ive been thru.. d tears n smiles... d time.. d energy.. n all... -syukur, Alhamdulillah-
Monday, November 10, 2008
found it!!
so 2day i went 2 mydin n guess wat i found!! apricot juice!! cool aite? been cravin 4 tat 4 2 months.. since i left kyuem... i miss tat juice.. n coz teramat la jakun utk rasa d juice.. as soon as i got bck home.. lepas shampoo n mandi n siap.. i sipped d juice.. its kinda diff than kyuem.. kyuem its almost like ur eatin d fruit but tis is very smooth... nice but smooth.. 2 smooth i tink... saje je wanna blog bout tis.. its almost like i found sumtin ive left behind.. mayb i did.. n heck yeah i am grateful 4 it... =)
Sunday, November 9, 2008
wastin of time...
Found it at maalini's blog while readin it after ages x checkin.. feel like doin it after chem.. huhuhu =P *ignore d rulez newayz..*
Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog. (I'm going to assume that most bloggers would know the basics of this game of tag, at least, but I'm just copy-pasting. :P)
Starting time: 2312
Name: Farah Nur Ain Hushin
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: hmm.. between 8 and 9 i guess...
Height: gosh.. 1.54!! -feelin short-
Where do you live: Subang Jaya
Favourite drinks: well.. apricot juice (tnx 2 kyuem) n my all time fav!! lime juice/lemon juice!!
Favourite breakfast: nowadays i keep on eatin bread 4 bfast.. cereal at times 2..
Have you ever
Been on a plane: Yeah... quite a no of times...
Swam in the ocean: Yeah.. wif my cuzins i spose though it was a few years ago...
Fallen asleep at school: Yeah!! OBVI! =P -but guess coz i feel guilty 2 sleep durin class.. i sleep when d teacher is not available... or durin free periods-
Broken some one's heart: guess i did =(
Fell off your chair: ahaha.. almost i guess
Saved e-mails: oh yeahhh... nowadays i keep sum emails 4 filin purposes...
What is your room like: kinda messy.. u wouldnt wanna enter my room b4 i start cleanin it up...
What's right beside you: my bed in d apartment, pillow, hp, calcu, papers, chem notes, eng notes, tudung, begs, college id, apartment pass, pencil boz, my soft toys!, my exam pad.. huhu
What is the last thing you ate: hmm..i tink it was laksa... eh wait.. dried papaya...
Ever had
Chicken pox: yup.. when i was in primary durin ramadhan..
Sore throat: definitely... many times..
Stitches: thank God, no...
Broken nose: havent yet n not intending 2...
Do you
Believe in love at first sight: well..not reli.. coz i spose u gotta luv sum1 3 who they reli r... their qualities than their looks.. though i cant deny i do njoy lookin at sum1 even frm d 1st time i laid my eyes on tat person.. hehehe
Like picnics: kinda fun if u hv d rite company...
Who was/were the last person
You danced with: my sis?
Last made you smile: hahaha evry1 in d apartment..i hv tis habit of smiling out of d blue neways... =)
Today did you
Talk to someone you like: hahaha... wat do u tink? -my fwenz definitely if tatz d context bein askd ere..- :P
Kissed anyone: oh yeah.. my mum.. a peck on d cheek! =)
Get sick: headache as usual...
Talk to an ex: hahaha no ex yet... ne1 wanna b d first?? hehe =P
Miss someone: yupz.. definitely..
Eat: obvi YES!!
Best feeling in the world: knowin tat friendship worth more than anytin else in d world n true ones dun end ezly...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah! i have my mini bear-bear n baby kiwi wif me ere in casa subang.. but i change 2 bolster bck home...
What's under your bed: d one in casa... my bags... d one at home.. rubbish!!
Who do you really hate: certain peepz i tink... (there is 1 i cant even hear tat persons voice wout feelin irritated) n d feelin of havin hurt others n not bein able 2 help n straighten things up.. d feelin of bein disabled n lost..
What time is it now: 2323 (nice huh?)
Random
Is there a person who is on your mind now: hahaha.. honestly, yes...
Do you have any siblings: yeah... as mentioned above..
Do you want children: hehehe yeah.. when d time is right i spose...
Do you smile often: i tink peepz at times get shocked y i smile so suddenly.. so yeah..i guess i do smile kinda often
Do you like your hand-writing: depends.. sumtimes is damn ugly..at times its ok..
Are your toe nails painted: nope...
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: d one in d master bedroom seems kinda cool.. but well.. i cn sleep anywhere..so not a prob 2 me! =)
What color shirt are you wearing now: brown
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: yesterday is saturday... wt was i doin? i tink i was gettin ready 2 pray...
When did you cry last: hmm.. d day i left kyuem i tink... it was bad on 070808 n 080808 but on 100808 i managed 2 control myself... at last.. self control.. it took me hours 2 control myself on 070808
Do you have any pets: used 2 till all committed suicide (reli!!)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: hahaha feelings?? dlm hutan. haha jk2
Did you hold hands with the person who means anything to you now: yeah.. all my gurlfriends n fam esp my sis.. (mangsa kakak yg baik ati!! MUAHAHAHA)
Do you sleep with the TV on: nah..barely watch it
What are you doing right now: juz finished studyin chem... nw answerin this stuff
Have you ever crawled through a window: nope not intendin 2...
Can you handle the truth: guess soo.. it mite hurt at first but as time flies.. ill take it...n accept it
Are you too forgiving: hmm depends wat d c2ation is like
Are you closer to your mother or father: i guess both.. im kinda attached 2 evry1 in d fam.
Who was the last person you cried in front of: my bro n mum i guess.. d day i signed my jpa contract... (kinda embarrassing 2 admit i cried in front of d officer as well..huhu)
How many people can you say you've really loved: uncountable
Do you eat healthy: ahahah.. tryin 2..
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: n/a (hehehe)
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: nope... there r times when i dun gv a crap wat peepz say bout me... its not worth it u c...
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: loud.. i noe im loud n noisy... tatz y peepz miss me! =P
Are you confident: yeah.. i convince myself 2 b one..
5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1.studyin like mad
2.writin poems n short (reli2 short) stories
3.started d hobby of hittin people (hahaha)
4.playin firecrackers
5.wearin green uni...
5 things on my to-do list
1.study 4 my tests n finals
2.find a tutor for my foreign language
3.finish up my application form 4 my unis
4.prepare for my toefl
5.plan wat 2 do durin d holz (lookin 4ward 2 it!!)
5 snacks I enjoy
1. fruits
2. dried stuff
3. sour stuff
4. some biscuits
5. instant soup
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1.menunaikan haji!! -wajib 2-
2.donate 2 those un42nate
3.get a house, car, etc
4.eh i 4got.. zakat!
5.gv some 2 my parents (mayb go holz 2gether sumtin like tat)
5 of my bad habits
1.lazy
2.bad temper
3.postponing stuff
4.thinkin 2 much
5.observing peepz?
5places I have lived in
1.johor bahru
2.usj 1
3.usj 2
4.gloucestershire
5.sumwhere in singapore
5 jobs I've had
1.jobless
2.pvt tutor =)
3.teacher
4.editing peepz stuff
5.criticizing sum stuff
-wow.. nw i cn go 2 bed =)-
Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog. (I'm going to assume that most bloggers would know the basics of this game of tag, at least, but I'm just copy-pasting. :P)
Starting time: 2312
Name: Farah Nur Ain Hushin
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: hmm.. between 8 and 9 i guess...
Height: gosh.. 1.54!! -feelin short-
Where do you live: Subang Jaya
Favourite drinks: well.. apricot juice (tnx 2 kyuem) n my all time fav!! lime juice/lemon juice!!
Favourite breakfast: nowadays i keep on eatin bread 4 bfast.. cereal at times 2..
Have you ever
Been on a plane: Yeah... quite a no of times...
Swam in the ocean: Yeah.. wif my cuzins i spose though it was a few years ago...
Fallen asleep at school: Yeah!! OBVI! =P -but guess coz i feel guilty 2 sleep durin class.. i sleep when d teacher is not available... or durin free periods-
Broken some one's heart: guess i did =(
Fell off your chair: ahaha.. almost i guess
Saved e-mails: oh yeahhh... nowadays i keep sum emails 4 filin purposes...
What is your room like: kinda messy.. u wouldnt wanna enter my room b4 i start cleanin it up...
What's right beside you: my bed in d apartment, pillow, hp, calcu, papers, chem notes, eng notes, tudung, begs, college id, apartment pass, pencil boz, my soft toys!, my exam pad.. huhu
What is the last thing you ate: hmm..i tink it was laksa... eh wait.. dried papaya...
Ever had
Chicken pox: yup.. when i was in primary durin ramadhan..
Sore throat: definitely... many times..
Stitches: thank God, no...
Broken nose: havent yet n not intending 2...
Do you
Believe in love at first sight: well..not reli.. coz i spose u gotta luv sum1 3 who they reli r... their qualities than their looks.. though i cant deny i do njoy lookin at sum1 even frm d 1st time i laid my eyes on tat person.. hehehe
Like picnics: kinda fun if u hv d rite company...
Who was/were the last person
You danced with: my sis?
Last made you smile: hahaha evry1 in d apartment..i hv tis habit of smiling out of d blue neways... =)
Today did you
Talk to someone you like: hahaha... wat do u tink? -my fwenz definitely if tatz d context bein askd ere..- :P
Kissed anyone: oh yeah.. my mum.. a peck on d cheek! =)
Get sick: headache as usual...
Talk to an ex: hahaha no ex yet... ne1 wanna b d first?? hehe =P
Miss someone: yupz.. definitely..
Eat: obvi YES!!
Best feeling in the world: knowin tat friendship worth more than anytin else in d world n true ones dun end ezly...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah! i have my mini bear-bear n baby kiwi wif me ere in casa subang.. but i change 2 bolster bck home...
What's under your bed: d one in casa... my bags... d one at home.. rubbish!!
Who do you really hate: certain peepz i tink... (there is 1 i cant even hear tat persons voice wout feelin irritated) n d feelin of havin hurt others n not bein able 2 help n straighten things up.. d feelin of bein disabled n lost..
What time is it now: 2323 (nice huh?)
Random
Is there a person who is on your mind now: hahaha.. honestly, yes...
Do you have any siblings: yeah... as mentioned above..
Do you want children: hehehe yeah.. when d time is right i spose...
Do you smile often: i tink peepz at times get shocked y i smile so suddenly.. so yeah..i guess i do smile kinda often
Do you like your hand-writing: depends.. sumtimes is damn ugly..at times its ok..
Are your toe nails painted: nope...
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: d one in d master bedroom seems kinda cool.. but well.. i cn sleep anywhere..so not a prob 2 me! =)
What color shirt are you wearing now: brown
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: yesterday is saturday... wt was i doin? i tink i was gettin ready 2 pray...
When did you cry last: hmm.. d day i left kyuem i tink... it was bad on 070808 n 080808 but on 100808 i managed 2 control myself... at last.. self control.. it took me hours 2 control myself on 070808
Do you have any pets: used 2 till all committed suicide (reli!!)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: hahaha feelings?? dlm hutan. haha jk2
Did you hold hands with the person who means anything to you now: yeah.. all my gurlfriends n fam esp my sis.. (mangsa kakak yg baik ati!! MUAHAHAHA)
Do you sleep with the TV on: nah..barely watch it
What are you doing right now: juz finished studyin chem... nw answerin this stuff
Have you ever crawled through a window: nope not intendin 2...
Can you handle the truth: guess soo.. it mite hurt at first but as time flies.. ill take it...n accept it
Are you too forgiving: hmm depends wat d c2ation is like
Are you closer to your mother or father: i guess both.. im kinda attached 2 evry1 in d fam.
Who was the last person you cried in front of: my bro n mum i guess.. d day i signed my jpa contract... (kinda embarrassing 2 admit i cried in front of d officer as well..huhu)
How many people can you say you've really loved: uncountable
Do you eat healthy: ahahah.. tryin 2..
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: n/a (hehehe)
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: nope... there r times when i dun gv a crap wat peepz say bout me... its not worth it u c...
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: loud.. i noe im loud n noisy... tatz y peepz miss me! =P
Are you confident: yeah.. i convince myself 2 b one..
5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1.studyin like mad
2.writin poems n short (reli2 short) stories
3.started d hobby of hittin people (hahaha)
4.playin firecrackers
5.wearin green uni...
5 things on my to-do list
1.study 4 my tests n finals
2.find a tutor for my foreign language
3.finish up my application form 4 my unis
4.prepare for my toefl
5.plan wat 2 do durin d holz (lookin 4ward 2 it!!)
5 snacks I enjoy
1. fruits
2. dried stuff
3. sour stuff
4. some biscuits
5. instant soup
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1.menunaikan haji!! -wajib 2-
2.donate 2 those un42nate
3.get a house, car, etc
4.eh i 4got.. zakat!
5.gv some 2 my parents (mayb go holz 2gether sumtin like tat)
5 of my bad habits
1.lazy
2.bad temper
3.postponing stuff
4.thinkin 2 much
5.observing peepz?
5places I have lived in
1.johor bahru
2.usj 1
3.usj 2
4.gloucestershire
5.sumwhere in singapore
5 jobs I've had
1.jobless
2.pvt tutor =)
3.teacher
4.editing peepz stuff
5.criticizing sum stuff
-wow.. nw i cn go 2 bed =)-
ke midvalley!
hehehe so tis morn at 11 i went 2 midvalley coz dh janji wif sue!! =)since i arrived slightly b4 sue so i bought d tickets (hsm3) n our movie was due at 1215... so b4 tat, we sat n chat n talked n laughed away... jalan2 cakap2 n then jalan lagi n ckp lg.. n things like tat..
d movie wasnt tat bad.. n amat banyak lagunye.. hehe =) but well i njoyd watchin it wif sue.. guess i would if i were 2 watch it wif any of my fwenz.. ape ye we all talkd about.. loadz n loadz of stuff.. n it made me wish im in kyuem again... i heard bout d scandal on sue n syuk.. ehehe. kinda nice n sweet... (there r sweet scandalz u noe.. :P) not all r nasty...
its juz nice 2 b able 2 c her face again after months of not seein each other.. i noe i miss kyuem damn a lot.. d peepz esp.. but i miss d campus as well (hmm..) so yeah.. keepin in touch is wat im tryin 2 do ere...
ckp pasal keepin in touch..tadi nk mkn kat mid.. evrywhere was full! damn! but wat 2 do.. at last we ended up at d drop-dead-expensive-food-court n i had a feelin its more worth it eatin at secret recipe than there... even d thai restaurant shud do better than tat i tink.. (readin tis para again.. i had no idea wats d cnctn between keepin in touch n makan...)
we parted at i tink 4 sumtin.. sue ke komuter n i went bck home.. n yeah.. i hope sue will come over 2 my hse sumwhere tis dec.. sape lg nk dtg??? hehehe cpt2 btau! sementara offer masih buke!! =P
d movie wasnt tat bad.. n amat banyak lagunye.. hehe =) but well i njoyd watchin it wif sue.. guess i would if i were 2 watch it wif any of my fwenz.. ape ye we all talkd about.. loadz n loadz of stuff.. n it made me wish im in kyuem again... i heard bout d scandal on sue n syuk.. ehehe. kinda nice n sweet... (there r sweet scandalz u noe.. :P) not all r nasty...
its juz nice 2 b able 2 c her face again after months of not seein each other.. i noe i miss kyuem damn a lot.. d peepz esp.. but i miss d campus as well (hmm..) so yeah.. keepin in touch is wat im tryin 2 do ere...
ckp pasal keepin in touch..tadi nk mkn kat mid.. evrywhere was full! damn! but wat 2 do.. at last we ended up at d drop-dead-expensive-food-court n i had a feelin its more worth it eatin at secret recipe than there... even d thai restaurant shud do better than tat i tink.. (readin tis para again.. i had no idea wats d cnctn between keepin in touch n makan...)
we parted at i tink 4 sumtin.. sue ke komuter n i went bck home.. n yeah.. i hope sue will come over 2 my hse sumwhere tis dec.. sape lg nk dtg??? hehehe cpt2 btau! sementara offer masih buke!! =P
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
d trip..
originally i was sposed 2 go 2 ssp wif raihan but then things din go as we planned n well it was cancelled. instead of goin in a bus 2 ssp i went on a bus back 2 casa n mydin XP it was kinda xciting (despite d fact tat d bus driver was bloody scary..) since it have been ages since i went on a public bus.. reli2 long.. n cam jakun skit.. hehehe as in i wanted 2 noe hw am i spose 2 pay 4 d tickets n all n d presence of d driver def did not make things better... agak xciting la..
n then we went 2 mydin n i hv brought d carpet n a room air freshner 2 keep d room fresh!! =) im soo glad i hv done all this things n im currently sittin on d carpet.. hepi gyle!! =) but well.. it sumhow reminds me of when skyn brought d carpet 2 L-48.. n then one da ramai2 ketuk d carpet utk bersihkan dia.. cam pakai purdah sume coz nk elak dr kene habuk XP tat time skyn blik umah so it was juz me, zatie n umu.. hihihi good (not reli old) dayz...
wat i bought in mydin.. juice, dried papaya, carpet n air freshner!! +), ape lg ek.. oh yeah.. instant soup (evrytin is instant ere in casa) well.. i guess tatz all i wanna say 2day... kinda tinkin hw 2 settle my chem lab report.. hmm.. =P
n then we went 2 mydin n i hv brought d carpet n a room air freshner 2 keep d room fresh!! =) im soo glad i hv done all this things n im currently sittin on d carpet.. hepi gyle!! =) but well.. it sumhow reminds me of when skyn brought d carpet 2 L-48.. n then one da ramai2 ketuk d carpet utk bersihkan dia.. cam pakai purdah sume coz nk elak dr kene habuk XP tat time skyn blik umah so it was juz me, zatie n umu.. hihihi good (not reli old) dayz...
wat i bought in mydin.. juice, dried papaya, carpet n air freshner!! +), ape lg ek.. oh yeah.. instant soup (evrytin is instant ere in casa) well.. i guess tatz all i wanna say 2day... kinda tinkin hw 2 settle my chem lab report.. hmm.. =P
My Little Wish
If I were,
To close my eyes,
Could I turn back time,
And return,
To where I belong?
If I were,
To pray hard and deep,
Could I hear your voice,
And again,
Take in your smile?
I wish,
I am still there,
With you, together
Fly towards the open sky,
Reaching for the same bright star.
To close my eyes,
Could I turn back time,
And return,
To where I belong?
If I were,
To pray hard and deep,
Could I hear your voice,
And again,
Take in your smile?
I wish,
I am still there,
With you, together
Fly towards the open sky,
Reaching for the same bright star.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
reunion L48!! =)
keh3X.. d title says it all... we had tis (not reli a reu actually) but all of us went 2 skyn's hse... zatie, zetot n def umu crashed at skyn's hse 4 3 days i tink n i well.. came over frm 2 til 9.. hehehe 7 jam.. it was reli TRULY fun 2 b able 2 meet up again.. i hv d full pic of L48 but agak bergegar so im waitin 4 zatie.. nnt nk amik frm zatie i tink... then its clearer.. gosh i miss them soooo SOOO much tat i was pratically tellin my parents 2 pick me up l8... ikutkan ati nk join crash umah skyn but ingatkan i was sehelai sepinggang so x jadi la.. =)
wat we did... catch up on stories.. a lil bit of gossipping.. comments on taylorz... n def refreshing memories in kyuem...miss those times... 2 b honest ere in taylorz for months doesnt feel long but bein in kyuem for oni 3 weeks... i cant believe i was there 4 oni 3 weeks.. i calld it home on d 1st week n it felt like i hv been there 4eva.. like i truly belong there...but well.. life has 2 go on.. we cn nvr get evrytin we want in life..
ok bck 2 d reu.. we ate 2gether.. ketawa kuat2 2gether.. potong nasi impit 2gether.. play wif skyn's anak2 buah.. =) best gyle! i wanna draw more bubbles!! big n small ones.. =) n fishy as well.. i thought i was d oni one who calls fishes fishy but looks like im not alone =P kami solat bersama2 jua... tgk skyn yg teramat2 penat n tido pas sume balik... maklum le.. x tido semalaman...
dearest peepz.. ill find a time 4 u guyz 2 crash @ my place plak.. Insya Allah but coz now im stayin in casa n holz pun agak tidak same.. so yeah.. i'll try 2 make things out.. susun btul2.. n tis time kene ajak bihah skali..huhu pet sisku yg tercinta cheewaaahhh... or mayb wat reu our petfam n chalet skali.. wat bout all of us meet up sumwhere sumtime.. gonna b cool.. ill c wat i cn do.. now xm r comin up..sat 2 tis sat, 12 nov chem test, 19 nov maths test, 1st week dec finals, 24th jan sat 1 retake.. huhu.. bz2!!! -being bz doesnt mean i dun hv time 4 my loved ones.. =) miss u guyz n luv u guyz soo much -
wat we did... catch up on stories.. a lil bit of gossipping.. comments on taylorz... n def refreshing memories in kyuem...miss those times... 2 b honest ere in taylorz for months doesnt feel long but bein in kyuem for oni 3 weeks... i cant believe i was there 4 oni 3 weeks.. i calld it home on d 1st week n it felt like i hv been there 4eva.. like i truly belong there...but well.. life has 2 go on.. we cn nvr get evrytin we want in life..
ok bck 2 d reu.. we ate 2gether.. ketawa kuat2 2gether.. potong nasi impit 2gether.. play wif skyn's anak2 buah.. =) best gyle! i wanna draw more bubbles!! big n small ones.. =) n fishy as well.. i thought i was d oni one who calls fishes fishy but looks like im not alone =P kami solat bersama2 jua... tgk skyn yg teramat2 penat n tido pas sume balik... maklum le.. x tido semalaman...
dearest peepz.. ill find a time 4 u guyz 2 crash @ my place plak.. Insya Allah but coz now im stayin in casa n holz pun agak tidak same.. so yeah.. i'll try 2 make things out.. susun btul2.. n tis time kene ajak bihah skali..huhu pet sisku yg tercinta cheewaaahhh... or mayb wat reu our petfam n chalet skali.. wat bout all of us meet up sumwhere sumtime.. gonna b cool.. ill c wat i cn do.. now xm r comin up..sat 2 tis sat, 12 nov chem test, 19 nov maths test, 1st week dec finals, 24th jan sat 1 retake.. huhu.. bz2!!! -being bz doesnt mean i dun hv time 4 my loved ones.. =) miss u guyz n luv u guyz soo much -
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
d trip 2 htar.. hmm....
so yeah... 2day we went (d whole fam i mean) 2 htar in klang.. ade la kot a couple of hours there.. reason : my cuzin met an accident. Alhamdulillah, he is gettin better n i pray 4 his speedy recovery... physically, emotionally and spiritually..Insya Allah.. =)
by d time it was 745pm i askd 2 go 2 d surau. i did walk around searchin 4 one and askd d security guard at 2nd floor but i cant understand her instructions (un42nate 4 me) so at d end of d day my uncle took me there.. n on d way 2 d surau i realized i would get lost if i were 2 go wif my sis.. well.. my sense of direction is reli 'good' u c... =P n it was kinda dark and quite quiet d road 2 d surau...
so by d time we finished our prayers, masa lawatan is over... n yeah b4 we could enter d lift 2 d wards, both my uncle and dad got stopped from entering... so called need a pas lawatan sumtin like tat.. when they have taken d pass, they got oni 1 pass which if 4 2 peoples.. conclusion, my sis n i din go up.. we were wondering around wat 2 don things like tat u c... kinda pathetic rite?
so d next thing i askd my sis is whether she wanna eat ice cream.. so i askd d security guard if there is anythin i could buy frm any shop.. n these were wat we bought..
ice cream, mangga n red tea! n both of us lepak2 at d 'taman' n tgh2 makan ade la tikus besar lalu depan both of us.. hahaha i was 2 shocked 2 make any remarks.. sihat walafit d rat idup kat htar... =P ini la rupe bdk mkn ice cream in hospital..
n thn we all dh picnic kat taman di htar pas 2 dh i tink close 2 9 kot.. we went bck home.. im glad my cuzin (abg han) looks fine although he hasnt recovered fully at least he could talk... n i tink tatz wats important n tat he is no longer in ICU.. =) well.. it was a cool trip in htar (hmm.. not reli..) but sumtin new i tink!! =) n yeah.. HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!
by d time it was 745pm i askd 2 go 2 d surau. i did walk around searchin 4 one and askd d security guard at 2nd floor but i cant understand her instructions (un42nate 4 me) so at d end of d day my uncle took me there.. n on d way 2 d surau i realized i would get lost if i were 2 go wif my sis.. well.. my sense of direction is reli 'good' u c... =P n it was kinda dark and quite quiet d road 2 d surau...
so by d time we finished our prayers, masa lawatan is over... n yeah b4 we could enter d lift 2 d wards, both my uncle and dad got stopped from entering... so called need a pas lawatan sumtin like tat.. when they have taken d pass, they got oni 1 pass which if 4 2 peoples.. conclusion, my sis n i din go up.. we were wondering around wat 2 don things like tat u c... kinda pathetic rite?
so d next thing i askd my sis is whether she wanna eat ice cream.. so i askd d security guard if there is anythin i could buy frm any shop.. n these were wat we bought..
ice cream, mangga n red tea! n both of us lepak2 at d 'taman' n tgh2 makan ade la tikus besar lalu depan both of us.. hahaha i was 2 shocked 2 make any remarks.. sihat walafit d rat idup kat htar... =P ini la rupe bdk mkn ice cream in hospital..
n thn we all dh picnic kat taman di htar pas 2 dh i tink close 2 9 kot.. we went bck home.. im glad my cuzin (abg han) looks fine although he hasnt recovered fully at least he could talk... n i tink tatz wats important n tat he is no longer in ICU.. =) well.. it was a cool trip in htar (hmm.. not reli..) but sumtin new i tink!! =) n yeah.. HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!
Monday, October 13, 2008
mydin
eceh eceh eceh... 2day we went 2 buka puasa in mydin which is located next door 2 casa subang.. reli near... so yeah.. we ate at d food court (6 of us) syamim, laili, aitidal, hasanah, nurul n myself! =) we ate 2gether but went bck in 2 groups.. d 1st group is hasanah, nurul n i and d other 3 d 2nd group coz they wanted 2 pray in d surau at mydin first.. so yeah all of us managed 2 get home safe n sound but tat doenst mean us 3 1st batch went home quietly. we had a couple of guyz buggin us n taggin along wif us til we almost went out of d mydin gate 2 d casa... kinda scary but well i made this slumber face coz i spose if i showed fear than things might hv gotter worse... neways, im prayin hard 4 my n d otherz safety... doa2 dilindungi slalu n dijauhkan dr segala malapetaka... n diberkati slalu! k.. study again!! =)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
pose!!! =)
so 2day is d 1st day of my puasa sunat... d 2nd week of syawal n baru nk start pose sunat. bangun pagi2 kul 5 teringat wak2 pose ngan umu kat kyuem. tat time we woke up at 5am and ate bread 2gether. kebetulan, i saw d same bread which i ate wif umu (d toast em with apricot thingy) n i remembered exchanging breads with her (xchange prog) iaitu bread with peanut butter. till 2day i remember d taste.. sumhow it tasted diff (4 ur info i dun njoy peanut butter) but on tat day it tasted reli delicious.. hehehe psychology btul! d taste of sharing n caring n friendship kot.. =) n thn bile nk buka pose we sat outside of d DH 2 hear 4 d azan wif an apple (tatz me!!) in the hand. gosh, miss those times! 4 2day.. as 2 wat 2 buka.. mayb bread n sum vege which im gonna buy downstairz... pagi ni sahur oni 2 pieces of bread, milk n water... previously in kyuem 4 pieces or bread, water n tea.. hahaha... suddenly after remembering wat umu n i had in kyuem i kinda feel full.. of memories i spose... hihi =P
ok, gonna get goin n grab a bath. 5 sumtin near 6... gonna go off9 soon enuf 2! n listen 2 d mp3 instead after tis... n get ready 4 d bus!!! off i go! =)
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ok, gonna get goin n grab a bath. 5 sumtin near 6... gonna go off9 soon enuf 2! n listen 2 d mp3 instead after tis... n get ready 4 d bus!!! off i go! =)
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current.. now... present...
SAT 1 is over.. waitin 4 SAT 2 now.. din noe its gonna b kinda tough coz d syllabus isn’t exactly like spm.. it is kinda tough u noe.. sob3… been getting oni slightly more than 5 hours of sleep these days… n oh yeah.. im in one of d be_adp committee member though if one were 2 ask me wat is my role I would hv juz given that person d sweetest smile I cn offer n keep my mouth shut.. tat is hw blur I am on my position… u understand rite? Missin things n peepz reli badly nowadays tat it hurts at times… oh yeah it hurts… juz dloaded a few slow songs, luv songs n yg sewaktu dgnnye… in d mood 4 them… =) n I juz got an invitation by my students 2 join their class party… but I kinda feel its gonna b awkward 4 me 2 b there but at d same time I miss them as well… miss being their teacher… reli I do miss those times.. but I miss my times in kyuem more though I look at it wif a smile n a laugh at times that even when im studyin n get stressed up I remember those times n I feel fine again.. cool aite? Hehehe at least sumtin instant 2 reduce stress… =) Friday (10.10.08) was d first time I wore baju kurung in taylorz.. it brings memories 2 wear baju kurung on Friday.. as I remember bihah askin bout my attire in kyuem as always in slacks… hehehe wat 2 do… I hv few baju kurung.. tatz d reason y.. but d collection is increasing but d fact tat most now needs 2 go 4 dry cleaning does make me a lazy bump 2 put them on xcept 4 4mal stuff (which I dun hv any currently…) okiez.. mari la kite sambung blaja sat chem. N maths.. n ne1 who wanna noe d 4mat of sat 1 do ask me… ill b glad 2 help u guyz out! (since its still fresh in my mind at d mo.. =P) n 2 those spm candidates and pre u whom are graduating next year do START searching 4 scholarship now itself.. so tat u dun rush about next year… mayb those takin a levels.. dec is d best time 2 check out.. coz im quite certain there r certain scholarship offers whose datelines are in dec or jan.. I cant remember.. n spm, ur trialz r damn important.. I kinda did badly in mine so it din gv me a chance 2 apply 4 any scholarship wif my trialz.. (guess a C in bio does put u in a disadvantage 2 apply 4 sch., rite?) mayb in dec (if im free..) id place a list of scholarships which cn b found 4 u guyz… =)
Monday, September 29, 2008
Two
Standing alone,
Under blooming cherry blossom,
And I saw you, smiling.
Walking pass you,
Behind the veil of white rain,
And you didn't see me.
Under blooming cherry blossom,
And I saw you, smiling.
Walking pass you,
Behind the veil of white rain,
And you didn't see me.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
tarawikh!!
Aidid @ abg cput (by d b-11)! Tat was d first name which passed through my mind as soon as I heard the imam’s voice. Today is d first day I had my tarawikh at d masjid near home… b4 tis have been doin it bck at home… I almost smiled when I heard d imam readin d surah al-Fatihah but since I was struggling to put on my telekung, I cut d smile out and hurriedly concentrated for my prayers. But well.. for a split second it brought sweet memories back to mind… =)
Unlike in surau As-Saad in kyuem, ere I realize there r a lot of spaces between each makmum.. as my sis n I r prayin side by side I tapped her on her shoulder as a way 2 signal her 2 move closer 2 me.. not a prob 4 me 2 do tat 2 my own sis… but well.. d spaces r not super big but there r spaces still… never mind bout it… I juz kinda realize hw much I missed solat jemaah in kyuem.. lepak2 in d surau… (alamak! Terbongkar rahsia :P) getting 2 noe each other in d surau, d usrah… tazkirah (though its kinda hard 2 understand wat d guys r talkin bout frm upstairs) but I noe I missed those times though no denyin I dun go 2 d surau everyday in kyuem… I go there on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays and d weekends….. hihihi.. n I thought I had a lot of time 2 reshedule my time in kyuem… hw wrong I was..
As soon as I went bck home n opened my laptop, d first song which played on my sonic stage is keep holding on by avril. Gosh, it brought back memories as this is one of d songs which we could choose frm for batch 11 theme song. I couldn’t help but smile as I hear d song… I miss d gud old days n would never trade it for anything in d whole wide world… but I noe now tat those memories r wat pushing me forward… pegi surau wif zatie, umu, skyn… relax2 kat atas kat dlm surau… check out sape imam n muazzin of d day… baca yaasin same2… al-mathurat… hw we bonded ezly in a few short minutes… n yet hw much I treasure those mins…
As life moves on I realize d true meaning of movin on without regrets in life though u dun get evrytin u wan in life… I had no regrets goin 2 kyuem n perhaps no regrets takin d scholarship either coz I noe its kinda hard 4 us 2 get it… dah rezeki macam 2… kite trime aje =p.. even if I could turn back time I would probably do it d way I did it b4.. but I mite think twice of takin d scholarship… no doubts.. but 4 d time being im contented wif wat I hv now… I noe I haven’t lost any friendships I had bck in kyuem and I noe im getting more friends frm taylorz as well… life is unfair but d unfairness is indeed d teacher to leading a balanced life… so.. luv u all.. zutto…
Unlike in surau As-Saad in kyuem, ere I realize there r a lot of spaces between each makmum.. as my sis n I r prayin side by side I tapped her on her shoulder as a way 2 signal her 2 move closer 2 me.. not a prob 4 me 2 do tat 2 my own sis… but well.. d spaces r not super big but there r spaces still… never mind bout it… I juz kinda realize hw much I missed solat jemaah in kyuem.. lepak2 in d surau… (alamak! Terbongkar rahsia :P) getting 2 noe each other in d surau, d usrah… tazkirah (though its kinda hard 2 understand wat d guys r talkin bout frm upstairs) but I noe I missed those times though no denyin I dun go 2 d surau everyday in kyuem… I go there on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays and d weekends….. hihihi.. n I thought I had a lot of time 2 reshedule my time in kyuem… hw wrong I was..
As soon as I went bck home n opened my laptop, d first song which played on my sonic stage is keep holding on by avril. Gosh, it brought back memories as this is one of d songs which we could choose frm for batch 11 theme song. I couldn’t help but smile as I hear d song… I miss d gud old days n would never trade it for anything in d whole wide world… but I noe now tat those memories r wat pushing me forward… pegi surau wif zatie, umu, skyn… relax2 kat atas kat dlm surau… check out sape imam n muazzin of d day… baca yaasin same2… al-mathurat… hw we bonded ezly in a few short minutes… n yet hw much I treasure those mins…
As life moves on I realize d true meaning of movin on without regrets in life though u dun get evrytin u wan in life… I had no regrets goin 2 kyuem n perhaps no regrets takin d scholarship either coz I noe its kinda hard 4 us 2 get it… dah rezeki macam 2… kite trime aje =p.. even if I could turn back time I would probably do it d way I did it b4.. but I mite think twice of takin d scholarship… no doubts.. but 4 d time being im contented wif wat I hv now… I noe I haven’t lost any friendships I had bck in kyuem and I noe im getting more friends frm taylorz as well… life is unfair but d unfairness is indeed d teacher to leading a balanced life… so.. luv u all.. zutto…
Sunday, September 14, 2008
hmm.. life is unpredictable
well2... i am suddenly unwell.. at first it started wif last sunday.. it almost felt as if my body could not control my body temperature.. it kept on changing.. as in i feel hot at first suddenly cold suddenly a mix of both.. n i was not in a particularly gud condition last week n things juz kept on gettin worse i guess... soon enuf i started 2 get a slight sorethroat.. then i started coughin n then nw im losin my voice.. it is almost missing nw n i keep on coughing nw and then.. x suke bile x sihat, tp dh takdir..terima aje le.. n i cn feel my heartbeat is quite unstable.. mayb a lil bit lack of o2 i spose.. but not a big deal i tink.. well, when u start doin ur work, gettin a lil bit pressured n ur not feelin well.. i tink tatz wat happens.. although there r times i gotta stop n concentrate on my breathing.. but no biggie!! =)
tis week im spose 2 hv a quiz 4 my chem.. n yeah am studyin at d mo.. n next week i hv my maths n chem test.. dun sound cool at all.. n im stil hoping tat fri of raya will b a hol.. at least i can rest 1 day b4 sat 1.. i hope its a holz... i reli hope its a hol..
ape lg ek.. oh yeah, i hope d cards i send ke kyuem dh sampai! i msgd almost evry1 i wrote d kad 2 in order 2 infrom them about it.. kang x pasal2 they din take d card.. so yeah.. hope ill b able 2 make u guyz day up wif those cards!! =P
okies!! study2!!! exam, test n quiz nearby!! JOM HAFAL ANIONS!!!! ^_^
tis week im spose 2 hv a quiz 4 my chem.. n yeah am studyin at d mo.. n next week i hv my maths n chem test.. dun sound cool at all.. n im stil hoping tat fri of raya will b a hol.. at least i can rest 1 day b4 sat 1.. i hope its a holz... i reli hope its a hol..
ape lg ek.. oh yeah, i hope d cards i send ke kyuem dh sampai! i msgd almost evry1 i wrote d kad 2 in order 2 infrom them about it.. kang x pasal2 they din take d card.. so yeah.. hope ill b able 2 make u guyz day up wif those cards!! =P
okies!! study2!!! exam, test n quiz nearby!! JOM HAFAL ANIONS!!!! ^_^
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
My First Experience : Volleyball
‘This is my first essay which I wrote for my Eng 101, one of the courses I am currently taking for my ADP. It took me approximately 30-40 minutes to write this. To put my experience into words, something which I think is not easy but fun to do. Narrative essays, I mean. Yes, I did go through this but there are certain things which I changed. Just a little bit here and there… and well, I did get 18 out of 20 =)’
Volleyball and I were never meant to be for each other; so I thought. I never had any intentions to play volleyball until one of the Topaz seniors came up to all us juniors and made it compulsory for us to participate in the inter-house competition.
“It is important for all of you to participate and make Topaz the champion. Make us feel proud to have you as a Topazian,” she said.
As soon as the participation form got to my hands, the only space left was for volleyball. I looked around and saw the seniors eyes staring at me, waiting for me to sign up. Reluctantly, I placed my name for volleyball. As soon as I walked out of the hall, I felt like I was in a daze. My legs were moving forward but I think I left a part of me behind. I heard exciting chatters on the upcoming inter-house but I did not listen. I was so worried on how would I perform on that day. Anyway, the competition is the next day at 5.15pm at the volleyball court behind the boys chalet. It made things worse.
The next morning, I woke up earlier than usual. It was still dark and chilly but I was very worried that it woke me up from my slumber. Slowly, I crept out of my bed and started thinking of ‘intelligent’ ways to escape from participating. I was concentrating hard on that until I bumped into my roommate, Sakinah, who smiled at me really brightly. She knew my worries but she had this confident look and voice as she patted my shoulder.
“We are going to make Topaz proud of us. Have faith in yourself as much as we have faith in you.”
Those words stumped me. It made me think and feel something I have never felt before. So, I made up my mind to participate but I will definitely inform my seniors on my lack of experience. Who knows, I might be just a reserve and watch them play?
Approximately at 5.00pm, I went down to the volleyball court with the others. The wind was blowing slowly, as if soothing me from my worries. On the way there, I told my senior about my problem and she told me not to worry. We were ten minutes early and had time to practice. To my eyes, everybody seemed to know about volleyball and I felt inferior. When they started to pass the ball around, I struggled every time it gets to me. Being confused and in pain (for it does hurt playing volleyball) is never a good combination. Nevertheless, I could still hear words of support and see smiles on the faces of my teammates.
Soon enough, the match began. I was the reserve and was told to watch and learn. I can feel the excitement and energy as they played. The others and I at the side started screaming and jumping away while giving support to them. They gave all they had when they played and some started to look exhausted. Some even hurt themselves while playing. I thought to myself, “This does not look good. Is it possible that I need to play as well? What am I to do? Am I going to make a fool of myself?”
As these thoughts started to rush in my brain, I heard my name being called and cheers at the background. Is it because… In a daze, I walked onto the court and things started to get blurry. I tried to concentrate really hard on the ball and somehow I felt no pain when I hit it. Was I in a déjà vu? I know I was running to catch the ball, and so were my teammates. By the time things started to make sense, the match was over. I stood quietly and all of a sudden people were cheering and gathered near me.
“We won! We made it!”
Then, I knew what was happening. We were all hurled up together and definitely, smelled of sweat. All of us started screaming away and even the boys joined us. The taste of victory is definitely sweet and it lingered for the whole night. You can see us smiling and laughing the whole day that some might think the victory had caused us our senses.
It was indeed very exhausting but I felt proud not only of myself but also of others. I never imagined I could contribute to my house in that way especially since sports is not my cup of tea. The support I gained from my friends is invaluable for it made me stronger and proved to me that nothing is impossible in life. I now know that we should never turn our backs on anything until we give it a try. To never give up even when things do not seem to go the way you want it to be. However, the most important lesson I learned from my first time with volleyball is that I am never alone; there will always be somebody to hold my hand and guide me towards a better future and will always be there to spice up and add more colors to beautify my life.
Volleyball and I were never meant to be for each other; so I thought. I never had any intentions to play volleyball until one of the Topaz seniors came up to all us juniors and made it compulsory for us to participate in the inter-house competition.
“It is important for all of you to participate and make Topaz the champion. Make us feel proud to have you as a Topazian,” she said.
As soon as the participation form got to my hands, the only space left was for volleyball. I looked around and saw the seniors eyes staring at me, waiting for me to sign up. Reluctantly, I placed my name for volleyball. As soon as I walked out of the hall, I felt like I was in a daze. My legs were moving forward but I think I left a part of me behind. I heard exciting chatters on the upcoming inter-house but I did not listen. I was so worried on how would I perform on that day. Anyway, the competition is the next day at 5.15pm at the volleyball court behind the boys chalet. It made things worse.
The next morning, I woke up earlier than usual. It was still dark and chilly but I was very worried that it woke me up from my slumber. Slowly, I crept out of my bed and started thinking of ‘intelligent’ ways to escape from participating. I was concentrating hard on that until I bumped into my roommate, Sakinah, who smiled at me really brightly. She knew my worries but she had this confident look and voice as she patted my shoulder.
“We are going to make Topaz proud of us. Have faith in yourself as much as we have faith in you.”
Those words stumped me. It made me think and feel something I have never felt before. So, I made up my mind to participate but I will definitely inform my seniors on my lack of experience. Who knows, I might be just a reserve and watch them play?
Approximately at 5.00pm, I went down to the volleyball court with the others. The wind was blowing slowly, as if soothing me from my worries. On the way there, I told my senior about my problem and she told me not to worry. We were ten minutes early and had time to practice. To my eyes, everybody seemed to know about volleyball and I felt inferior. When they started to pass the ball around, I struggled every time it gets to me. Being confused and in pain (for it does hurt playing volleyball) is never a good combination. Nevertheless, I could still hear words of support and see smiles on the faces of my teammates.
Soon enough, the match began. I was the reserve and was told to watch and learn. I can feel the excitement and energy as they played. The others and I at the side started screaming and jumping away while giving support to them. They gave all they had when they played and some started to look exhausted. Some even hurt themselves while playing. I thought to myself, “This does not look good. Is it possible that I need to play as well? What am I to do? Am I going to make a fool of myself?”
As these thoughts started to rush in my brain, I heard my name being called and cheers at the background. Is it because… In a daze, I walked onto the court and things started to get blurry. I tried to concentrate really hard on the ball and somehow I felt no pain when I hit it. Was I in a déjà vu? I know I was running to catch the ball, and so were my teammates. By the time things started to make sense, the match was over. I stood quietly and all of a sudden people were cheering and gathered near me.
“We won! We made it!”
Then, I knew what was happening. We were all hurled up together and definitely, smelled of sweat. All of us started screaming away and even the boys joined us. The taste of victory is definitely sweet and it lingered for the whole night. You can see us smiling and laughing the whole day that some might think the victory had caused us our senses.
It was indeed very exhausting but I felt proud not only of myself but also of others. I never imagined I could contribute to my house in that way especially since sports is not my cup of tea. The support I gained from my friends is invaluable for it made me stronger and proved to me that nothing is impossible in life. I now know that we should never turn our backs on anything until we give it a try. To never give up even when things do not seem to go the way you want it to be. However, the most important lesson I learned from my first time with volleyball is that I am never alone; there will always be somebody to hold my hand and guide me towards a better future and will always be there to spice up and add more colors to beautify my life.
Monday, September 1, 2008
aku, kamu dan kiwi
semalam b4 goin 2 aunty ramlah's house.. i ate a kiwi! well, i kinda luv d gold kiwi n it kinda brought memories though at tat time we had oni green kiwis..
in L48.. sape ek ade.. definitely all L48 peepz n i cant remember sape lg ade at tat time but wats important is zetot ade la.. kebetulan tat week i brought kiwi bck 2 college n well.. alang2 ramai2 datang so we ate them together... n well ingat lagi zetot kate lame x makan kiwi... hihihi
spi skrang if mkn ne type of kiwi.. ill b smilin away n d first person who will cross my mind is zetot! hihi.. kinda nostalgic.. but well yeah.. i spose there r things which i dun 4get ezly... n i spose i still miss those times... missing wif a smile =)
in L48.. sape ek ade.. definitely all L48 peepz n i cant remember sape lg ade at tat time but wats important is zetot ade la.. kebetulan tat week i brought kiwi bck 2 college n well.. alang2 ramai2 datang so we ate them together... n well ingat lagi zetot kate lame x makan kiwi... hihihi
spi skrang if mkn ne type of kiwi.. ill b smilin away n d first person who will cross my mind is zetot! hihi.. kinda nostalgic.. but well yeah.. i spose there r things which i dun 4get ezly... n i spose i still miss those times... missing wif a smile =)
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