Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Menatap Wajahnya (i)

Si kecil nirmala,
Wajah putih, jiwa kudus,
Berlari-lari sendiri,
Mencari suatu yang hilang,
Suatu bernama kasih,
Suatu bernama sayang,
Di balik kabus peluru liar,
Dan saat itu,
Suara si kecil ceria,
Menjadi sendu yang panjang,
Kidung kasih berkumandang sayu,
Pengakhiran:
Si mukaddas yang mencari,
Dimamah si buta liar,
Iblis bertopeng insan,
Menyembah bumi sebuah jasad.

of winter 2009

tis is actually a continuity of d holz thing... cz as i read thru it again, i realized tat there r a few things which i 4got 2 add on... hehehe

my tagline is *pijak kan* *sepak kang* n well.. almsot evrybody dh kene including d guys.. hehehe tp ade syarat nk sepak.. if sepak guys, kene pakai kasut if gurls bukak kasut... lembut skit.. XD *ye x cik fatin?* irfan slalu je kene sepak... hahaha *cian dia, sabar je la ye en irfan...* but mane ade gurl lain sepak guys depan2 cam 2 kan... hehehe biar la sy jd org pertama n terakhir *fuuyoooo*

next we go into d class times... im noisy in d wrong classes... bio n maths... phil confirm2 ah... once, fizree was doin a presentation on does god exist frm islamic perspective... n sum1 *tay kot* off d lights... all! n then secara naturalnye i said "OOOOOOOOOOOO like watching movie!" *bodo gyle* n then mrs singh was shocked tat she pat me on d bck.. hahaha *merepek btl myself in phil, slalu ketawa x bertempat* n then we go 2 d LAN class. malaysian as usual la.. wat do u expect... bt islamic is always very interesting 2 watch evry1...

on d last class.. all of us gv each other our last advice *hmm..* n it was kinda touching.. n then when zarina cried.. lg la terharu... ill definitely miss all of u.. i wouldnt trade even a single 1 of u wif ne1 else.. cz if tat happens, our class wouldnt b d same nemore.. rite? rahmah n qil hobi dorang tya soalan... i rmmbr one of rahmah's ade kene mengena dgn dinosaur.. hahaha *syg la x ingat in details* n then satu lg psl d communism.. hahaha.. rahmah menyokong communism n dia terkene ngan ustaz.. HAHAHA *nasib ade mahfuz yg bck her statment up psl communism is not d best method bt it is better than d others except for Islamic government* kwn dia yg dok blakang dia ckit kejam.. ketawa x hbs2... bkn nk tlg pun XD n qil ngan rahmah slalu je kena.. "let me finish first" *kan korang??* hahaha suke tgk u guysnye reaction bile dia ckp cam 2... obvi, ill b laughing at u guys.. *kejam* d guys on my right row slalu je tertido.. *ter ke????* mcm2 style bley tgk... *qil n rahmah ade d pics kan???* bile time tgk vid psl islam on terrorism lg la.... siap ade yg kene kejut... :) n then ade je soalan2 pelik yg akn ditanya *though x bley dinafikan mahfuz's questions r interesting 2 ponder upon* bt ade la certain q spt:

"ustaz, if dh ade 4 isteri.. sume menopaus, bley x kahwin sorang lg?"
"tangkap basah ngan khalwat 2 lain kan?... dah 2, ape yg basah?" (-.-")
"kalau saya kasi kawan sy rokok sy, 2 kira jihad x? sbb sy syg dgn rokok 2" -sumtin like tat-

these r d q yg slalu aje i rmmbr jz 2 make me laugh.. cm lawak gyle... *sape ek tya soalan2 nih??* XD n thn bile tido dlm kelas 2.. fuyoo.. rahmah tido tegak... *ingat lg Qil citer rahmah tido sbl main ps3, balut hadiah* ganas ah rahmah tido! kot kat umah plak... rahmah if dh tertido awal.. mmg suke pesan kejutkan dia.. *cik com ah mangsa* n then bile cik sya kejut... slalu mintak tangguh... *kan rahmah?* cam masa cedera mintak masa xtra 10 min.. ade skali 2 cik com ngan kak li renjis air kan??? XD *tat time sy baik x kcu rahmah.. ko x i join jugakz!* but bkn rahmah je ssh nk kejut.. cik tiup pun same jee... *tat is d oni time pgl dia hasanah* XD cz kot pgl cik tiup x terjaga.. hehehe kot tido sblm mandi 2.. farah g la maghrib dl... dh bgn dh ni.. pas2 cover kepala ngan towel *ye sgt ah 2 dh bgn* bile study plak... "Cik tiup, jgn study baring.. letak bantal jauh2.. nnt tertido" x caye lak ape yg sy ckp.. wat gak.. x lame pas 2.. sah2 tido! XD mmg ahhhh... nk kejut lg satu hal... hahaha last2 muke ni gak ah kene tlg dia kemas buku ngan laptop dia b4 i go 2 bed... n suro dia tido atas katil *hahaha ari 2 ajak cik tiup study kat lantai ~br best study dok ats lantai... br feel ckit!*

n then ari 2 bile sy terbangun lewat. sume ingatkan jam masing2 slah! hahaha nasib cik sya kejut..*630 kot wak2 2* trus bgn *sempat 2 naik bus 650!* jpa kat kolej... cik com: "tadi bangun tgk farah tido lg.. tgk jam dh kul 6.. ingatkan jam salah.. msh kul 4 lebih" cik rai pun kot ingatkan jam salah.. hahaha gyle ah! agaknye 630 dh cerah 2 yg yakin jam dorang betul kot.. yg muke ni terlajak tido XD ari 2 mandi mmg super xpress ah.. siap pun x yah ckp ah... tp ckp psl mandi kn... i noe ade 2 org dlm umah 2 yg mandi agak lama.. sorang cik tiup*45 min! ape ntah dia wat* n satu lg rahmah *y? cz ingat lg sue ade skali 2 ketuk bilik mandi ntah brape kali ntah suro rahmah cepat skit XD* kan kan rahmah???

kot tgk tv plak... x many stories la.. bt tgk kak li tgk keliwon best! XD dh la wat announcement keliwon dh nk start.. ajak sume tgk ngan dia... bile sume hilang nk amik mende.. "weyh, jgn ah tinggalkan aku sorang2" hahaha dan kami pun muncullah kembali.. n then.. bile ade skali 2 satu part yg ade darah cz hantu 2 cam gigit org 2... kak li org pertama yg tutup mata cm nk guling2 pun ade XD *mane cik nu ek tat time.. tgk cik nu pun best!* cik nu lg sorang la best tgk bile ade citer hantu.. hahaha comel gyle... n then ill b laughing my heads off *jahat*

kak li juga adlh pelawat tetap A0702... dia suke guna pingan mangkuk org n then ade ke x nk basuh... pas 2 lepas kene bebel kak li pun insaf dn cuci pinggan mangkuk yg digunakan.. HAHAHAHA *sape la yg bebel kak li 2... isy2.. kejam* n then barang2 hiasan kat umah mmg rahmah adlh plg rajin utk bw mende *despite sy yg tgl plg dekat* hehehe byk gyle brg cik rahmah d c2.. tgk2 brg 2 terbayang wajah rahmah * chheeewwwaaaahhh! bangga x rahmah??*

hmmm ade lg pttnye bt x teringat... nk makan dulu! ill hv tis whole holz 2 tink bout wat we did during dis sem.. :)

Sunday, April 26, 2009

wwwwwwwwwwooooooooooooahhhhhhhhh holz!

hahaha at last its holz season 4 taylors adp-ians.. we hv struggled this whole sem wif new subjects, new classmates, but d same old super spirited mates.. :) *cool, eh* so lemme summarize a few things which happened tis sem...

met a lot of new peepz n practically realized a lot of things which i din realize last sem.. same people but our relationship is different... we grew closer n more attached *kan cik fiz!!* i got 2 noe fizree! my phil classmate.. hehehe n i got 2 kembangkan nick name hasanah @ cik tiup *bersyukur dia x de fb.. ko x abis ahhh* n disebabkan cik tiup x puas ati i dun hv a nick she gave me 1 *cik fafa* trime je la... ape lg ye we did tis sem.. i realized n got 2 noe more peez tis sem... n my hands r always cold b4 islamic studies... huhuhu asl ntah... n then pinjam tangan nadia!! cz her hands r warm.. n i took her warmness away.. n then share lagu korea ngan cik tiup, cik fiz n mai! hehehe n then jap songs pun skali.. n dgr cik tiup bebel pasal suju.. huhuhu *peminat setia* n then lepak2 ngan kee hee.. n then kcu kee hee ngan cik tiup.. n then bersatu ngan kee hee. cik fiz. utk kcu cik tiup.. n then sy kene buli ngan cik fiz, kee hee ngan cik tiup *kejam ah* n then blik umah kene kcu ngan ain plak.. hahaha n then ade la satu ayat dr cik nu yg sy takkan lupe.. tgh jalan2 dlm bilik ngan kain telekung *habit.. pas maghrib x tanggal telekung.. tgu isyak trus* tibe2 dia berkate... "bagus ah 2.. sorang kain pelikat sorang kain telekung" nasib x tercekik dgr ayat cik nu... sabar je ahhh.. XD nk wat camne.. dh habit..

cik sya tis sem rajin tido d luar bilik.. *masalah rumah tangga XD* hahahaha apartmentku snts ade pelawat *cik rai, kak li, cik com* n kak li slalu kene bebel sbb mkn tom yam kerap sgt *weyh, jgn kot kite kuar pas ni mkn ari2.. if dpt report.. abis kak li kita pijak2* n then ade man ee yg suke menyakat org *bt slalu disakat juge* n then salah satu tugas sy adlah memicit cik com bile die ngantok tgh2 kelas econs! hahaha cik fiz jd vendor roti sementara XD n then tibe2 winter 09 comes 2 an end... hw time flies... though there r sum things which i havent achieved.. cz there r certain things which still make me think hw i could hv change it n certain things which i hope others would change 4 me.. hehehe *merepek* bt then... its over n i hope we will meet again soon! tnx sooo much all.. i will miss u guys soo much this 3 weeks :)

next... i cant help thinkin bout goin bck n lawat kyuem.. hehehe nk wat camne... tatz d place where i met u guys *skyn, bihah, umu, zatie, kak maji, muffin, zetot, etc* :) *if tulis d whole list, penuh mende nih* bile2 korang free do tell me... kite jpa kat mid la... :D wanna hear all d updates n d juicy gossips kat sane XD

2day is d 1st monday.. n skrang tgh start sesi housewife in traning *cheeewahhh* not reli though.. cz nk keep my allowance frm my parents n x feel guilty takin it.. so i assigned myself wif housechores.. so its no more allowance but my monthly salary XD things i need 2 do includes cooking, mop (alternate day), sapu, vacuum, ampai kain, cuci gune machine *bt kene practice gune dl.. tkt rosak kang. cz its a new washing machine* teach my sis and a couple of other kids.im responsible 4 almost all of these *though x semestinye kene siap all in 1 day* during weekdays.. weekends cuti! *but kene tlg gak ah* ~hahaha~ at least im training myself 2 not oni study bt 2 keep things in an organized manner which is definitely important in d future esp when i live on my own.. huhuhu x de ah sepah nnt my hse :)

so today i woke up at 8 *kira awal ah 2* n started my day wif ampai kain n mkn bfast yg ngimmi wat :) *nk blaja wat waffle la plak... lupe d recipe* n then masak... heee ari ni d main is not cookd by me cz ade lauk yg my mum's fwen kasi.. bt i cookd d rice *hehehe im a lousy tukang tanak nasi.. bt ari ni ok kot*, sambal telur hancur, n soo hoon n fu chuk msk kicap *tatau ape name dia actly*.. hehehe ngimmi kuar tis morn so i had d whole kitchen 2 myself... 2 yg bley nyanyi2 smbl masak.. HAHAHA *penambah perisa makanan* xcited sgt start msk blik.. it hs been quite sumtimes i hv cookd a meal on my own 4 d fam.. hehehe saje je msk smbl ari ni cz abah puasa.. hehehe slalunye kene mintak msk 2 br wat cz its not so healthy.. cz eggs r high in cholesterol kan.. hehehe bt though my dad suke ask me 2 put in santan *abah: it taste better* but i change it 2 milk.. hehehe *same je rase 2 me..* lookin 4ward 2 cookin lg 2mr.. hehehe nk msk assam kot esk.... bt msh apprentice lg.. cz dl mesti ade rase sumtin wrong.. haha ade skali 2 jd sambal ikan *sedih je x jd* n then my cookin class will resume wif my mum.. hehehe nnt senang! :) x de ah mkn ikan goreng je ari2 bile dok sorang.. *though i made a deal wif my mum ill b living wif her dgn syarat pas kahwin pindah ah ...but nk lawat ngimmi almost evry week gakz* hehehe

nw is d break... dh siap kemas bhgn bwh.. mop, sapu n all bt d upperpart of d hse is in a major mess.. huhuhu x vacuum, x kemas, x ape lg.. hehehe tp dh sakit pinggang la plak.. huhuhu pas 2 sakit gigi x hbs lg *man... cn d wisdom tooth b out fully fast!!* hehehe terbayang cik tiup tgh lepak2 kat bilik dia smbl rindu kat sy n smbl dgr lagu suju dia :) hehehe

jz wanna wish evry1 happy holz.. c u guys soon... like reli soon... if eva u need me, im rite by ur side.. picit je hp 2... or buzz me cz skrng ni confirm on9 almost all d time.. :D wishin evry1 a reli2 reli2 happy holz... :)

*30th april kuar result!! ~nervous~
**Tohoshinki's (DBSK) love in d ice n doshite (d jap vers) r such nice songs... suke! ~promo~

Sunday, April 19, 2009

as i was watchin d vid of us in nz..

tgh2 tgk vid we all kat nz dl... cam a lot of things which went through my mind... it was 5 years bck n d best thing i rmmbrd was doin d snowman.. i noe mine n my bro look like a normal one (though its not as pretty) but my dad n my sis.. hmm.. cam scarecrow XD cz it look soo stiff.... in d vid mmg ade pun gambar 2.. bt well.. i lost d pic which i took wif my bro.. as in d pic in d hp.. d reasons r:

1. dh 2kar hp... a few hp has passed b4 d current one (n im tinkin of changin again cz d hp dh wat hal)
2. d comp dh reformat.. d pic is spose 2 b there
3. i din hv a lappy.. so its oni in d desktop


i wish i still do hv it... my sis was so short (way shorter than i am which makes me proud. unlike 2day..) n well.... i hope i cn go there again.. n d doplhins r sooo cute! bt we din reli njoy snow there despite goin in winter (we oni got it in uk 2 years bck) my sis laughter was soo weird (way weirder than mine) n well... guess i did hv a gud time there... :)

*nw bck 2 study!*

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I

apabila satu menjadi dua
apabila dua menjadi satu
dan yang selebihnya sekadar melihat
sebuah transformasi
dari yang dulu kepada yang baru
dan yang baru kepada yang lama
dan insan sekadar bertaakul
menanti dan terus bertaakul
mencari sebuah jawapan
terusan soalan yg jernih
apabila satu menjadi dua
dan dua menjadi satu.

Friday, April 3, 2009

apabila lif casa wat hal...

so spt biasa.. sy akn kembali ke umah pd stp ari jumaat (sbb umah n casa amat la hampir.. XD) n mgkn telah ditakdirkan utk sy pulang pd mlm ari hr ni... krn sy telah mendapat satu experience yg baru,, pengalaman yg tidak dpt dilupakan (nih yg bley wat karangan nih kot msh kat sek ren! bley dpt A+ nih XD)

jadi kisahnye bermula sebegini rupa...

sy menaiki lif lbh kurang jam 830 sbb buku korean language ku tertinggal di casa sedangkan ade kelas pd jam 230 esk hari.. maka, sy pun pulang la mlm ini utk memastikan tidak ketinggalan dlm kelas esk hari... so naik la lif bersama 7 org lg penduduk casa.... tibe2 dekat atr p1 n p2 dia ter'jatuh' skit.. (suatu fenomena yg normal) jd kami abaikan saje.. bile lif terbuka d p1 sbb mmg dh jd mende yg biase.. dia akn sangkut, jatuh n ok blik..

meskipun begitu, nasib tidak menyebelahi kami mlm ini.. tibe2 dh sangkut dia nk naik blik.. n thn bising cm nk rosak.. n true enuf.. dia jatuh ckit blik... n then d door trus x nk open.. maka mula la slh sorang lelaki dlm lif mula menyumpah.. sy abaikan aje.. n trus berbual ngan sorang nurse pantai yg tinggal d tingkat 15... ade kot 5 malaysian d other 3 foreigners... so one of d foreigners la yg ckp ngan guard btau kitorang stuck.. huhu n thn mula la penantian kami...

disebabkan ayahanda ku menanti di bwh.. maka sy terpaksa pinjam hp org utk inform (cz bley ari ni dgn takdirnye sy sehelai sepinggang aje blik.. x bw hp.. ) n thn dlm lif 2 mcm2 la yg terjadi.. ade yg duduk melunjur, mengangkang, berdiri, ketawa (saya la 2), senyum (kwn baru saya la 2), sedih (sorang gurl cz bus dia kul 10), menyumpah, hpr tido... huhu

mula2 dia kate 2 min... berubah ke 5.. n seterusnye... n then tetibe lampu terpadam.. agak terkejut n berderau darah.. tp msh lagi kononnye cool.. ade kot seminit 2... huhuhu kemudian tibe2 guard kate cuba bukak pintu (mane bley.. nk kopak pun x larat -lelaki ah-) n thn dia kate nk call jkr.. pelik gak.. pe kene mengena jkr ngan mende nih.. n then tetibe nk pgl technician.. n menunggu 2 lame gak laa..huhuhu

bile dh bukak.. maka sy ingatkan its at p1.. tgk2 dia atr p1 n p2.. so kene terjun.. dh ah pki kasut heels cz kasut flat kat casa..huhu tp bantai je terjun.. dh terjun 2... tgk satu lg lif plak spt mslh.. kemudian sy ngan kawan baru amik keputusan naik tangga (gyle ah jauh..dr p1 ke tingkat 7) n thn naik trus ngadu ngan cik sya n cik nu (cik tiup x prasan kite blik.. isy3) n thn minum air n bertolak ke bwh...

bile bertolak ke bwh.. jpa plak danial.. upe2nye ibundaku menelefon n mintak tlg tgk2kan.. pk2 bknnye bley wat pape kot.. msh kene tgu technician gakz... (kot x kuar lg la) pape pun, tnx :) so akhirnya kini, sy tlah pulang.. meski ibunda meng offer utk dihtr n jemput ke kolej stp ari (yakni dok umah) sy rase ade hikmah kot dok casa... hmm, menguatkan semangat kot bile mende2 cm ni jd.. mmg la nervous bt then.. it thought me 2 remain calm at all c2ation.. hehehe spt kate cik fiz.. bajet cool...

konklusi yg dpt dibina berdasarkan ape yg tlg terjadi:
1) jgn naik lif sorang2... bahaya.. naik ramai2... tp jgn la spi cm sempit spt sardin dlm tin.. nazak sgt 2...
2) snts remain cool dlm c2asi yg mengejutkan..jgn cpt panic.. sbb bile panic, jantung denyut lebih laju, lack of O2 n then bley pengsan.. hmm bahaya..

jd.. berhati2 d jalan raya -ehh??!!!-