Wednesday, April 30, 2008

And time flies...and the good time dies...

Have you ever realized that whenever you are having a good time, it feels like time flies pass us very fast.. Unlike if you are bored or anything like that...

That is precisely how I feel at the moment. I think time is going pass me too fast that if it is possible I want it to stop.. I want to enjoy and feel the same feeling over and over again.. The joy, happiness and yes, annoyance...

Missing people...I just don't enjoy it but I am addicted to it.. Missing the good time... is an addicition... And yet these feelings are able to arouse both joy and pain at the same time. How painful it is to me... Cry and smile at the same time.. And yet...It is an addiction to me to feel this feeling

Each second is very precious.. If you let it go, you will end up losing track on what is happening and worse still become numb towards how you are feeling...

As time flies, the good time dies... Leaving us to make up our mind to either live on or stay behind... It is all in out hands.. As it dies, we should go on living though.. Cause the memories will always keep our soul alive...

Friday, April 25, 2008

Me.. A Teacher? : Week Four

The fourth week of my teaching have just ended. It is now official that I am a teacher for one whole month.. Right? For weeks is one month... And I can officially say that being a teacher for one whole month now is not easy at all... It is full of stress... Dear students, if you think being a teacher is a laughing matter and that all of us are qualified being a teacher (even if you are a straight a students), you are wrong... Being a teacher requires you to be patient and cool with the students... Friendly and yet strict... It isn't easy being a friend and a teacher at the same time... You just got to learn to identify the border and not cross the line.

Practically on Monday, in my 2E nothing much happened. Of the whole class only 3 paid attention and by now I just couldn't care about them at all... Maybe I have lost my patience in teaching that class... They really did convince me that I am not suited to be a teacher... They really did... After that, I had two classes..Science classes and I did experiment with them... This time only a beaker broke.. Guess it is an imrpovement! =)

The other days nothing much happened. Wednesday I enterd 2G as usual... My foreman was absent and he haven't passed up his book till Friday! And for certain reason, I am being really patient with him. What is the certain reason, I myself have no idea. Instead of being angry or things like that, I am still looking forward to get his book but now (since he haven't passed up), I am the one getting stressed up and dissappointed and at some point feel like crying for not getting the book. Honestly, I have waited for his book for approximately two weeks... My patience is still there but it is killing me bit by bit...

On Thursday, 2H... I got to relief that class during the 2nd last period... Which accummulates me to have four periods with that class! What a whacky class... I saw all kind of attitudes in that class and I guess I could go crazy because of that... But now when I walk to my car, I have two escorts from 2H who helps to carry my bag or books to the car... What annoying yet sweet guys..

Friday, I was late for my science 1C class.. This is due to the fact that I was hunting for my 2G foremen... I was late for approximately 5 mins... After I met Kak Nurzihan and told her everything about not getting my books... Then she said she understood! We started on the same day and well... Both of us are new to this kind of thing! And the stress... It is killng me... The expectation I have for my classes are dying out... But I hope they will change... I somehow still have faith in them and hope they will do well in their examination... Someday they will realize how important it is to pass up their homeworks and well... I pray they will understand how we teachers feel when students don't pass up their homework... Because of it is difficult for me to get his book, I even asked for his phone number and going to sms him and remind him to bring his book...

That is all that happened... Nothing much but oh yeah... I am starting to get the feed back for my sports day documentation! That is good! Waiting for Monday to come (not really waiting for it...) And my last two weeks of teaching countdown will begin soon....

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Me... A Teacher? : Week Three

So, there goes the week three of my working days as a teacher. Well, this week there are some updates on what I have been doing as a teacher... Nothing much, but something different... I tried two different ways to approach the students to get them to pass up my homework..but I guess none of them worked... Maybe it is quite a good thing that I am due to work for only another two weeks or so...

Well, on Monday I got really angry with 2E... I think I talked and scolded almost evrybody in the class... And you can see the faces of them..cursing me, of course... only a few pass up the books.... frustrating but I don't really care..maybe because I just don't have the heart to teach that class...But I did some revision on electronics with them..I still taught them a few things..

On Wednesday I talked with the 2G...especially those who haven't pass up their hw.. I thought it would work but guess it did not..Guess they are good at acting..They showed sorry and apologetic faces but they still didn't pass up their homework...What bunch of kids... And I thought they are better than the others.. Guess I am wrong!

The other days are not that bad... I have given my science classes their test... the review test...Their marks are not cool at all! Many failed the paper... But I hope they are able to catch up and do well in their mid-year examination... I hope they will.... I will feel bad if they don't... I guess it will feel as if it is my fault if they did badly in their examination...

On Saturday, Seafield had their Sports Day in MPSJ. Well, obviously I went because I am involved with documentation. So, I went there at approximately 7 am with my sister and I straight away went to join the teachers while my sis went to her uniform unit. So, at first I took care of the track... En Tasnim borrowed my black pen and he ended up losing it! I think I showed him a you-annoying-useless-brat kind of look to him that he explained me several times that he will buy me another new pen.

I practically walked around the whole time. Sit with Kak Zihan and walked around with Asma... It is fun doing that. We talked about all sorts of things... From school to camping to personal stuff... Interesting! At the end of the day during prize giving session I was with Puan Zunaidah, Puan Shahrizad and Puan Norhayati Mohd... And talked for awhile until I saw my dad. And then I saw him standing near En Zuraimi. So i went to my dad first and asked him to wait for awhile and I went down to find for En Azahar but ended up meeting another teacher whom I address as kakak only as I don't remember her name...She is also involved with documentation and so she told me to relax for the time being... Good right?

After that, still during prize giving session I talked to En Zuraimi. He asked what am I involved with today and I said that I am involved with documentation. So, he just smiled and we talked for a bit. We talked bout a few things from work as teachers, him not finished with his question papers for the mid-year examination, his police cadet camp (two of his students got hysteric during the camp), the various students in school, his busy schedule, and that he is late from meeting his friend...all due to the fact that this year the sports day finished at 2.15pm unlike last year which ended at 12.00! Shocking right how time flies...

I guess that is all that happened on the 3rd week... This Monday there is photography session with my class...1Elok! hahaha cool right? This is going to be my last year that my picture will be in d Minda Magazine... More work to be done! Counting my days left for my teacihng days....

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Me... A Teacher? : Week Two

Here comes week two...Actually to be honest it is now the middle of week three...But I guess I will just explain what happened in the second week...Although it is getting blur by today...

I have started teaching 2 E and it is true that the class is quite bad. The students are stubborn, etc... But still teaching must go on. So, practically..I ignored the students sitting at the back...Just teach those who wants to listen..But somehow I have this feeling which keeps on bugging me and telling me that they are not really laerning but enjoying themselves teasing and bugging me while I am teaching.

As for now...I am certain that I favour two classes...Both KH classes...1 Jujur and 2Gigih.. I always look forward to enter those classes...Although they still do tease me around but at least they are more obedient than the others.. Nice and cute guys...Cute as in some of them don't look like as if they belong to the secondary school... Especially their height...Even their thinking is very immature... I can go on laughing in 2G for all kinds of answers they give me during P&P... What classes I have...

So, on Saturday I had this Anugerah Cemerlang or Speech Day thing going on in school and I am invited to the ceremony not as a teacher but as an ex-student...It is kind of weird hanging around the school as both a teacher and ex student. It makes you feel cramped in between... With me calling the teachers 'cikgu' and the students calling me 'cikgu' and my friends calling me 'cik farah' just to tease me...

On friday i went to sleep over at my friends house... It is because my whole family attended a function in Pahang which I refuse to attend... Since I need to teach and all...I don't feel like ditching class... Hahaha... As if it really matters... I think in a way the students will be happy if I am not around.. Then they can continue messing and wasting their time around... It is very typical for students to spend their time in that manner..

I spent 3 nights at my friends house... During Speech Day, I actually spend my time before the function with a new teacher who started teaching the same day as I did...Cik Nurzihan... and the rest of the day with my fellow mates... For my SPM, I got a certificate frm the school, a trophy and RM50...I thought RM50 is not bad but unfortunately many complained and asked me why is the money given just that amount... How different we think..

I guess I shall stop here for my 2nd week update... Need to mark papers.... Many papers!! hahaha.. what a life... hectic life; being a teacher...

Monday, April 7, 2008

Me..A Teacher? : Week One

It was a coincidence I was offered a job as a teacher in my previous school. Who would have expected me to be one? I, the person who have been telling others that it is impossible for me to commit myself to be a teacher am now a substitute teacher for one of the teachers who is on labour leave at the moment. I was just about to leave when I met the 'Penyelia Petang' who then told me of the situation.. They are lack of a Science and KH teacher.. So, after discussing with my parents, I took it and started my day as a teacher on the next day itself which was 1 April 2008.

First day wasn't that bad. Started off the day with 1 Jujur... Kemahiran Hidup and I was teaching them Kemahiran Teknikal...Which I can honestly say I am not good at it. KT have always been seen as a guys business and I have taken no heed on this subject before until I am assigned to teach the subject to others. So, I was practically struggling with that subject... I ended up studying the subject before every class and it looks like I am studying more than the students themselves...This subject, I am teaching both Form 1 and Form 2...And obviously, Form 2 syllybus are much more challenging than Form 1..Technical Drawing is the chapter which is really testing me. My plans and elevations for my Modern Maths, I have never scored and here I am teaching Technical Drawing to the Form 2 students...Ironic isn't it?

As for Science, I am teaching only two classes which are 1E and 1C...Oh yeah...have I mentioned that I am the class teacher for 1E? Things are definitely not going easy especially when you are not used to the system and suddenly you get lots of responsibilities at the same time... But thank goodness it is still under control... Things are not going that bad. And I think it is due to the fact that I still do have a hang of my science. Years of studying science have overcome the few months of not studying any science at all after the SPM... Guess it is worth it struggling with my science subject since year 4...till form 5...

Today, Monday, is the day I conduct an experiment with both of my Science classes... Everything went well except when they are cleaning up the apparatus... Suddenly in 1E a student dropped the glass slide...Not mentioning somebody who broke the cover slid....As for 1C....a gurl broke the white tile...What a day! A day of breaking apparatus and materials used for experiments.... Bad isn't it? But I guess that is one way or another for the kids themselves to learn to be more cautios and responsible in handling apparatus in d future.

At the moment I am taking a break from planning out my teaching lessons for the whole week...I need to pass up my teaching record book every Friday afternoon inclusive of reports for my lesson for next monday..So I need to be able to plan my lessons properly.. Planning really well... So that I don't panic during each classes...

So, there goes the first week of my teaching... Conclusion, I had three meetings during that week (KH, Science, and all teachers meeting), got a headache for needing to mark too many books at the same time, met students with various attitudes (really..too many attitudes that sometimes I think I might go crazy..) and thought my old uniform unit how to march. It was a pack week but I guess at the end of the day I was enjoying myself quite well... Teaching can be fun, if you know how to handle it... :)