btn 11-15 mei telah berakhir...

ok so today is 15th which marks d last day of btn and currently all of us hv gone bck n preparing ourselves for d xtra sleep due to d lack of sleep n rest frm btn... *hw long did we sleep? around 5 hours? lackin 3 hours of sleep.. XD* sakit2 badan btl la.. bknnye psl btn rasenye.. mmg sblm btn pun dh sakit2.. hehehe pas2.. wak2 kat btn rupenye sy sudah mendapat rashes yg menyebabkan kegatalan kulit.. aiyo.. kot esk msh byk lg mende ni kene amik injection la plak b4 it spreads... tp cm ala2 dh spread je.. XD

hmm.. wak2 kat btn.. mmg x bw hp ke mane2. ade terperuk dlm blik dlm beg sandang yg dipasang padlock.. hahaha 2 yg mls nk bw.. cz kene unlock n all.. cm leceh.. so, bw hp kuar btl2 wak2 nk tido je cz pasang alarm *2 pun x gune gakz cz ari khamis ngan jumaat mmg x tepat wak2 bangun.. ade kot bgn 30min lmbt dr time yg diset.. hahaha* kesimpulannya x byk gambar n mgkn nk dptkan gambar2 dr sape2 yg ade gambar.. hehehe pencuri gambar yg sah.. XD

1st impression bile berkumpul kat dewan wak2 first2 spi.. x de la garang sgt fasci2 nih.. n mmg terbukti pun.. doran tegas tp baik ati.. :) x de pun bebel2 sgt kat kitorang spnjg dok 5 hari.. ceramah mmg la ngantok spt biase... tp tahan jeee.. nnt kat uni ntah camne la plak nk tahan berjam2 dlm kuliah.. hahaha perjuangan di medan kuliah... agak2 ramai gak ah yg syahid kot.. x tgk lg wak2 tazkirah. esp tazkirah subuh.. :) ramai yg kecundang.. hehehe

wak2 kat btn mmg evryday la mencuci.. 2 kali sehari.. 2 yg penuh je ampaian kat depan D2... sebahagiannye tlh dipenuhi olh kain2 budak yg mencuci dua kali sehari.. dh ah byk yg dicuci.. cik nu pun x mencuci sebanyakku.. HAHAHAHa *bangga* terserlah hobi mencuci kain spt kat kyuem dl.. XD kemas katil x sampai 1 min.. cz x gne blanky so betulkan posisi bantal cz tido sonsang.. hehehe btw, msk dlm group 3.. yg mempunyai 13 members: me, icha, paan, shainol, hilman, yote, azirah, zul, tai, foo, adzrin, am, yung. fasci2 adlh en izzuddin n en asyraf.. heeee best ah group 3.. dpt performance task kene nyanyi lg malaysia baru.. kot prnh dgr x pe gakz.. nsb zul tau pe lg 2.. kot x, habis ah kitorang sume huhuhu :) *tnx zul!*

LDK mmg best.. esp since icha is always active.. my rate of activeness depends on wat is happening.. bile rase cm nk senyap.. senyap je la.. bile rase stimulated utk ckp.. ckp laa.. hahaha btl2 depends on d environment n mood.. hahaha *burok tol perangai* n thn activity phy.. evryday de kawad in d morn n eve.. bt its kinda basic.. *bt byk gyle dh lupe dr ppim dl.. x layak nk train budak dh.. hahaha* pas 2 lutut skt gyle.. nk kawat btl2 pun x mampu cz kaki nk angkat around 45* mmg sakit gak ah.. bley je nk angkat tinggi2 bt kene tahan sakit ckit la...

n then ade kembara.. fusy.. cun gyle kembara.. msk hutan n asyik kene calar ngan paku pakis yg mencucuk je... luka gak ah jari bt ok je.. :) ckit je luke dia so x heran pun.. pas 2 nk pnjt2 akar pokok bakau... kot senang nk panjat x pe gakz... dh la licin.. tinggi lak 2.. nsb x terjelepok... XD pas 2 dh la initially jln laju sgt so terpisah dr d others... nsb ade zul, julianan ngan shainol... half way through.. jpa kaber ngan shamel plak.. *tnx gak kat dorang cz suro we all watchout about lubang kat depan tpt paya kecik 2* ko x confirm ah.. ade je yg tersangkut kat lubang.. n then jalan la blik ke kem... talkin bout kem.. d kem is clean n looks new... npk bersih n kemas.. tatz wat matters most.. so mmg puas ati la :)

n thn ade abseiling.. this is d most feared i guess initially.. hehehe mcm2 style ade yg bley ditonton wak2 org abseiling.. they started wif d guys so tgk gaye guys dl la.... n then bile gurls turn guys pttnye g main football tp ade je yg hang out kat c2 lg.. hihihihi so wat i thought was.. bile lg nk wt.. so wat je la.. since rahmah n i naik agak d same time so dpt la tgk drama rahmah nk wat abseiling... hahaha sungguh comel :)when it was my turn.. d fear was within me... n then cm turun secara separa sedar.. i dunno hw i control d rope or anytin like it.. wat i noe was i told myself things will b fine n tat i admitted fear 2 myself *hehehe* n then turun je la.. dlm otak mmg dh ingat pun ape mende kene wat utk turun ngan laju n slamat.. tp x sangka la bley wat btl2 XD mmg bersyukur sgt2 dpt wat btl2... kan rahmah! :)

n thn suddenly its time 2 go bck *despite b4 tat mmg la trase gak nk tido* mkn together 4 d last time.. jd tukang pegang pintu 4 d last time... hmmm its hard 2 part frm those ive known in btn but its harder to accept d fact tat i mite not meet d other adpians after tis *i will b goin 2 taylors though* bt its d fact tat v r no longer housemates, roommates *cik sya*, mangsa buli *cik tiup ah ni ngan cik nu*, etc pape pun.. tnx guys 4 evrytin..

despite d first impression of btn which is not totally positive, bt i tink ive gained a gud inside of wat btn is all about... i guess after i go 2 bed, rest n reorganize my thoughts.. id be able 2 put them in words better :)

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i juz finished watching sumtin...
hmm..........
it made me think.........
think of things which hv long been at d bck of my mind...........
n im serious bout it.. *despite me being awfully cheerful, esp at d wrong time* XD

wat would life b without an aim n love?
wat would life b wihout family, companions n friendships?
would hatred n anger sustain till d end of our life?
izit tat hard 2 forgive? or izit harder 2 rmmbr d bad things in life?
even wif an aim.. r we gonna b able 2 fulfill it?

d life we r leading nw.. it could end in juz a blink of an eye...
n yet.. we neglect it.. n yet... we r not thankful 4 each second we go thru...
we ignore d small details in life.. bt iznt d small ones which make up d big things?

even sayin so, i noe im stil ignorant..
i 4get things around me.. hw precious it is.... til it gets out of sight..
like wat my dear kee hee once askd me..
y do we appreciate wat we hv only when it is gone..
n i guess i hv no perfect xplanation 4 tis..
even as i ponder bout tis matter... day by day...
i jz cant find an ans 2 d q..

whre do i stand at d mo?
i guess im stil searchin 4 d rite path...
wat im feeling nw...
d same as b4... mayb im empty inside...
mayb i.. am jz tinkin 2 much at d mo..
i cn b analytical when i wan 2
mayb im jz numb towards wat i truly feel..
i guess... after goin thru certain things...
u mite jz not b able 2 recognize ur true emotions nemore...
wat r my true wants n needs?
*thinking* -hehehe- i do noe some though..
n i shall keep it inside of me :) *ne1 wanna guess???*

u wont noe who i truly am
cz u noe oni who i wan u 2 noe... oni d part which i wan u 2 c...
any objections?

not 2 say i hv been dishonest all this time...
bt well... sumtimes i would question myself on wat i truly feel n tink..
am i leading d right path or am i jz convincing myself im at d right way...
bt no matter wat... i will go thru all n come bck in one piece.. :)
a better person than yesterday is wat i aim 4...
mayb i shud get 2 noe who i truly am b4 i cn ans this tiny q: who am i.. (mrs singh's fav q..) XD
n mayb when i am able 2 ans it precisely w'out hesitation..
tat is when i am wholly myself..

bt 1 thing i wan evry1 2 noe..
no matter wat were 2 happen... ill always b here 4 u guys... n girls XD
despite i cn b scary at times.. *esp in school.. isy3*
despite my seriousness yesterday cz i wanna b 1...
despite my playfulness 2day cz i wanna b 1...
if u need a shoulder 2 lean on... mine is always here *hehehe*
mayb i cn oni complete d quest after givin a piece of me 2 evry1..
who noes u mite c a clearer me...
n then i could complete d pic of me.. :)

me n.....

i tink approx 1 week b4 finals begin.. tibe2 sy angau... angau sgt2... semacam mengidam.. hmmm.... not a gud thing kan b4 d finals... but x pe... cik tiup menjadi mangsa utk mendengar sy membebel.... :) *tq cik tiup*

ngidam n angau bknnye ape... bknnye org yg sy mskdkn d cni.. tibe2 je trase ingin sgt nk g pasar beli ikan... :P n ade specific pasar plak 2... if its pasar yg sumwhere around here x pe gakz... mslhnye nk kene g pahang 2 nk beli ikan.. hahahaha *brape are dh pujuk my mum g pahang beli ikan.. i noe its ridiculous* its d pasar sumwhere near kuantan... x ingat wats d name of d place.. though its small, pasar ni mmg cool la utk beli ikan... d fishies r fresh n d price is cheap *btl... compared 2 cni.. isy3* mmg njoy tgk ikan kat c2.. cz dia kilat.. hehehe n looks nice.. n bile msk mmg sedap.. n dia keras2 lg *bkn keras freezer 2* n perut dia x lembik.. so best pilih.. :)

ok la.. pape pun... pasar kat subang nih mmg x prnh g sempena beli ikan.. d pasar behind 3K... cz d price cm mahal gak ah... n then x de la fresh mana.. kdg2 ikan kat mydin lg elok.. bt nw i cn assure u tat d fishies in both giant n mydin ssh btl nk dpt yg fresh.. slalu picit skit dh terkelur isi perut dia... insang x yah ckp ah.. warna brown... pas 2 cm lembik je d fishies.. nk beli pun x selera.. bt nk wat camne.. tatz wat we usually get here.. sob3

n then ari ni pas g wedding dekat2 masjid tanah in melaka n then my uncle ajak g pasar kat pengkalan ape ntah dkt melaka *i 4got..... suddenly! td in d car ingat jee..* n then dgn penuh semangatnye turun la g tgk pasar 2.. dgn harapan tinggi gunung cz dia pun tpt nelayan naikkan ikan.. *same like in pahang* n then.. tgk... not bad la d fishies.. kilat gak ah... bt sumhow cm x tertarik sgt dgn d fishies... huhu n then d price.. fuyooo.. gyle ah cekik darah.. at supermarket dpt kepala ikan around 7.90 kat sane 25.. gyle ah! mmg la if its cz its fresh it cn b higher bt x de la spi nk dkt dua kali ganda kot... huhu n another thing is tat even d fishmongers r not tat friendly.. ade ke suro pilih ikan cpt2 nnt nk potong.. kot ckp ngan senyuman x pe gak.. ni cm nk marah n mkn org je pndg... pas2 i tink i gv her a questioning n muka x puas ati ah care dia ckp.. trus dia senyum2 ckp lembut2 blik... adoisy ai.. bley pun ckp lemah lembut.. akn ttp... nasi sdh menjadi bubur :P

so tadi kat pasar 2 end up beli lala je... n thn g hospital putrajaya... :) c my new baby nephew!!! name = undecided yet... he is sooo cute n adoorable... so small.. my palm is as big as his face.. MUAHAHAHAHAHA bt he is soo tiny n since he is born 6 weeks earlier, so i can oni c him frm behind d glass.. bt comel n adorable sgt.. :) so despite frustrated ngan d pasar thingy, i tink d baby have lifted d frustration over n well... heee cant wait 2 hold d baby! kene tgu dia release frm d hospital... my cuzin look extremely happy n his wife pun... npk manja btl la cuzinku ngan wifenye... :) they look reli gud 2gether... well.. i wish them all d happiness in d world.. n then jpa uncle rahman yg suke pet my head *heee rase cm budak2 blik :)* n aunty ha yg mmg suke manjakan sume :) heee luv seeing them again! n nw, fill my time wif kdrama! :D *n study korean... huhuu ade test soon!!!!!*