10th Practice

today was d 10th practice.. n well.. i was runnin *x exactly.. walkin at a faster pace* frm stevens to ima wif my freakin heavy bag due 2 d fact tat all my groceries r in d bag.. i stuffed all of them in n it def slowed me down esp when walkin up d hills n all... yeah, i got some groceries wif my fellow mates n aunt ida...well.. i did buy quite a lot of stuff.. tatz y its reli heavy.. n it came into use right after i got bck frm kendo.. i havent had my dinner, so after kendo i guess i was a bit hungry.. so well.. due to laziness.. i boiled my wanton noodles in boiled water.. while d sauce i jz mixed soy sauce, hot chilli sauve n sesame.. HEHEHE it tasted pretty fine 2 me.. bt it would taste better if i were 2 cook it instead.. XD

by d time i arrived at d ima.. it ws 650.. i dumpd my stuff in d gym n well.. took off 2 d locker room 2 get my prayers done n change my clothes.. i nvr thought of practicin kendo in jeans.. sumhow i dun tink its comfy... neways.. i do hv my tracks.. when else am i gonna use it if x nw??? :D

lol... wat we did.. kata 1 n 2, kurikaeshi n d last one is a new one.. which i 4got wat izit called.. bt i cn tell u it felt so weird n i tink i din get it right at all.. LOL bt im tryin it out... hmm.. perhaps over d weekends it wouldnt hurt 4 me 2 b jumpin in my room ^^ yes.. i noe.. its gonna annoy my neighbour..

as 2 y d post is as early as 0542 its cz i havent slept yet.. im waitin 4 6 4 subuh n then ill sleep til afternoon.. LOL shift of sleepin time.. tis is d 2nd time.. n i could barely open my eys nw.. LOL .. i guess i shud get ready 2 go 2 bed... 17 mins 2 go! ^^ *at least my bio lab is done... oni my eng 1st draft needs more work on it*

4th Lesson

today is d 4th lesson.. n joanne came if both xixi n i 2 bf day school ^^ so instead of d 2 of us.. n its d 3 of us :D d more d merrier.. yeah.. tatz d concept :D well.. i met up wif xixi after prayers which means i ws slightly later than usual.. n xixi waited patiently 4 me ^^ tnx gal! n then we waited 4 joanne b4 gettin on d bus.. and well, we waited 4 quite some time b4 d bus came.. bt it came... tatz wats important..

oh yeah.. in d morn i hd tis discussion wif my bio group, aunty, luis n james.. bt luis wasnt there cz he 4gotten bout it.. LOL n he was stil at home n x comin over til like 12.. so we did it without him... sumtin like tat... bt well.. it went well... we finished d proposal n most probably will b able 2 hand it in like tis week itself... after sein sara 2mr.. ^^ n after tat i went 2 bartell 2 get my tape.. it took me a while to get 1.. i was thinkin which shud i take.. n almost 4got bout d gauze *bt i rmmbrd b4 i went 2 d cashier.. n also bought my cotton balls :D nw.. i cn use my toner.. HIHIHI after several times of 4gettin... XD

so as usual.. i put all those in my bag.. which was extremely empty at dat mo.. it lookd a lil bit fat when i put those stuff in bt it was reli light.. so i din mind it at all... truthfully, i dun reli like big bags.. bt i hv d tendency 2 stuff evrytin in my bag.. yeah... it doesnt make sense.. i noe.. bt well.. im jz like tat

ok so went 2 bf day school... n met d kids.. :D im wif jarissa again n she dun hv any hw *AGAIN!!* such lucky gal.. i proposed she do my assign 4 me bt she strongly opposed it *LOL x like im reli gonna let tat happen ^^* n when i told joanne tat she is my kid.. another kid heard it n misunderstood.. he said "is tat ur mum?" LOL i was close 2 laughin my heads off.. i was tinkin.. "im oni 19, u noe... n well, x tat ive given my heart 2 ne1.. x tat ive reli found sum1 im gonna gv it 2..x in d mean time" *LOL it sumhw sounds like a great deal of effort 2 get me 2 tink of sum1 bt actly its pretty ez 4 me 2 get attached, its jz tat no1 noes bout it cz im pretty gud at keepin things -esp emo- 2 myself XD* ~~cik fiz: v.v ~~~ XD i tink jarissa went like.. "nooo......" LOL

so we sat 2gthr n one of d tutors jz askd me not 2 sit near them cz i tink jarissa was distractin her tutee.. well, i was walkin around gettin d file n some stuff done while jarissa was tourin d whole cafe.. LOL then once we got 2gether then yeah.. evrytin was undr control ^^ we did some reading, writing n spelling *again* she is don great.. bt well.. a few confusion on d phonetics part.. guess gotta work on tat a lil.. n we played monopoly at d end.. i tink i shud use monopoly as my maths lesson... use it 4 d counting part... bt hmm.. tinkin bout it again.. d money value is 2 large 4 her.. mite tink of sumtin else instead ^^ bt well.. we played 4 like a few min b4 we start 2 pack up.. LOL time flies reli fast..

n thn we walkd bck 2 d bus station.. n took pics on d way bck ^^ joanne was enthusiasitc.. n so is xixi *as usual.. our dear photographer* n well.. i jz tagged along.. hehehe i noe im lazy 2 take pics.. but buttin in is x tat bad XD n well.. we got home.. n i got bck.. stomach empty n all...

gosh i jz realize.. im goin 2 get groceries 2mr after class.. n hv no idea when shud i cook dinner.. LOL mayb i shud go bck during d 1 hour break between bio n hist quiz.. n whip sumtin express up... such as noodle soup.. :D it takes me like 15 mins 2 go bck.. n another 15 mins 2 get bck on campus.. tatz 30 mins.. so i hv another 30 mins 2 cook... hmm... mayb i shud leave home at approx 10.. so tat i dun need 2 rush.. LOL crap.. i dun tink i hv enuf time 2 cook then.. or mayb i shud eat aftr kendo?? *id b half dead durin kendo if tatz d case* or perhaps i shud go bck, cook dinner n then meet up wif them after im done n all... tat sounds better i tink.. bt i stil need 2 rush... lets c, cookin tat takes up around 5-10 mins... or 15.. its x tat long.. bt i guess after class it mite b best if i go bck 4 a bit.. at least in between class i cn relax n study.. yeah.. perhaps dats 4 d best ^^

problem solved... 그래서, 한국말을 공부해요! ^^

9th Practice

ok.. its nw d last week of oct.. n nov is comin up.. my 1st midterm has ended n d 2nd is comin up pretty soon.. n well.. i practically took d day off frm studyin 2day.. watchd bleach aftr kendo.. n well.. goin 2 bed pretty soon ^^

ive been listenin 2 sad songs pretty much these days.. lol.. it kinda suits me 4 d time bein.. x tat im sad or depressed bt im thinking.. though my emo is stil undr control n chckd ^^ bt well.. it jz feel appropriate 4 me at d time.. n tnx 2 cik fiz.. more sad songs comin in :D beautiful pieces, i would say... ^^ mayb d weather has been gettin into me.. its pretty gloomy, dark n rainy these days.. so mayb tatz it.. bt it doesnt make me feel down or netin like it.. it jz gv me some peace n calmness in me.. d slow rhythm n beat... melancholic bt beautiful... n well.. i mite turn 2 instrumental soon... flute is a beauty.. u cn depict various emotions frm flute.. piano as well... *though u hv nvr achieved tat.. LOL esp since i havent been practicing.. x idea when ill b able 2 play d piano again... :(*

ok.. so wt we did 2day.... we did some kata in d beginni cz 216 is occupied 4 sum i dunno wat is happenin in d room activity.. aerobic mayb.. bt i hv x idea wat izit... i nvr bothered 2 peek into d room.. its pretty much understood tat evry wed go 2 316 n fri we cn go straight 2 216... well..yeah.. all of us started off in 316 n did some kata 4 well.. i hv x idea hw long... we, d beg, learned d 1st n 2nd kata.. d 1st, i tink i hv a grasp of it.. been tinkin bout it 4 a bit.. d 2nd, im stil tryin 2 figure it out.. i rmmbr it, bt pretty vaguely... bt i guess wif a lil bit more thinkin i could rmmbr thm.. i hope ^^

n then we did some warm up n kurikaeshi.. n well.. in d beginnin we were talkin bout blisters.. n noemy jz said tat i hv a humongous one which hasnt yet peeled off *yeah.. mine is d biggest.. LOL* n then right in d middle of prac, i felt my foot bein pretty weird..n yeah! it had peeled of *partially, reli.. so i din leave a piece of me in 216 XD* n well.. it was pretty disturbing cz it disrupts ur footwork pretty much.. x tat im anywhere close 2 being gud at it bt well.. it made things worse.. n then... i askd noemy where 2 get d tape n well.. d ans is bartell!! i guess ill b goin there in d morn 2mr.. b4 meetin up wif my bio group 4 our proposal :)

so yeah.. marsten-sensei reminded about short nails.. n marsten-sensei.. bought cookies ^^ n all of us had a piece of it.. *i tink all of us had 1* n well.. as usual.. i chckd up wif takumi hw is he goin bck.. n xixi joined us as well.. n we hd tim too! initially, we thought of takin d bus.. bt by d time we got out d bus was gone.. LOL ... so on foot we went bck home ^^ it is x tat bad.. it was rainin.. 2 of d gals were wif umbrella while d guys walkd calmly under d rain.. LOL id luv 2 do tat.. bt well.. i dun tink id like 2 go down wif 2nd round of flu.. :(

n then b4 tat.. askd damon bout his 1st job.. n well.. as expected.. he is nvr 2 b trusted.. haihz.. bt well.. guess wat.. at d end he did make sense 2 me.. 2 things which i should keep in mind: 1) nvr trust damon *he admitted tat himself* 2) gettin a job on campus cn pretty much depend on ur luck.. so yeah... its x tat he nvr made sense 2 me b4 tis.. bt well... at least after sayin he cleaned up d toilet *i was pretty skeptical bout tat.. n true enuf he was jk bout it* so yeah.. lolz d thing wif him is he is always calm n serious while sayin those stuff.. hence, ill b doubtin my own judgement... LOL

bck 2 takumi n tim.. after sendin xixi bck... i heard them talkin bout some jap phrases.. n ALAS.. got 2 noe they were mockin bleach.. LOL i njoy bleach wif d action n all.. n well.. it does gv me a gud lay bck time after studyin... i noe.. its always nandatto, nani, bakayarou, kissama.. wat else.. LOL n d talkin part cn b pretty dull at times.. bt well.. i jz continue watchin... HIHIHI its one of d anime which i stil follow loyally XD n i guess tim n takumi din expect me 2 b watchin d latest bleach anime.. *dun i look like sum1 who watches anime regularly??? even when xm is pretty near???* well.. i noe many go crazy when i do tat.. bt it serves as a gud way 2 relax.. n laugh ur heads off... HIHIHI d next ep im waitin is 4 dc.. hehehe n mayb over d winter holz.. i mite drown myself in fushigi yuugi or atashinchi no danshi... i mite watch atashinchi 1st since ive never watchd it b4.. well, i noe hw d story goes n all... bt its gonna b d 1st time watchin it, nevertheles..

so yeah.. im gettin sleepy... i hv 2 read around 4 pages of western civil 2mr.. i mite b goin 2 d lib around 9.. or 10 LOL dependin on wat time i wake up... n wat time i go 2 bartell 2 get my tape... i shud buy a few i tink.. n yeah... facial cotton as well... LOL i guess ill b needin tat 4 my toner... 4got 2 buy it d other day.. bt since my othr prdct is finishin.. so i guess i will b needin d facial cotton 4 my new toner.. HIHIHI ok.. chop2 plan 2 wake up at 7 2mr.. bt d alarm starts at 630.. LOL *c hw lazy n hard it is 4 me 2 wake up in d morn????* XD

3rd Lesson

today is d 3rd lesson.. n 2day marks d end of my 1st midterm for both hist 111 and eng 198.. yeay!! bt d next midterm is within 2-3 weeks... so its x exactly a big yay yet.. lol.. till finals r end ^^ and then d holz... n d craziness shall begin :D plans 4 d holz.. under construction... im stil tryin 2 finalize wat 2 do exactly.. then d pricing survey and gettin my schedule done would b set up.. hopefully by d end of 2nd week of dec... ^^

ok bck 2 3rd lesson wif jarissa.. we did maths.. cz initially oliver was alone 4 his tutor was x here yet.. gosh, sorry i 4got ur name! :( n then we did his homework 2gether.. d 3 of us.. maths, tatz it... addition n subtraction! *tnx ma 4 d crash course on hw 2 teach kids maths b4 i went 2 teach iqa like a few months bck* it helpd a lot.. at least i hv a rough idea hw 2 get d kids thinkin on maths... i would hv been lost... ^^ n eng as well.. though my teachin readin skills is stil crappy bt i guess at least i hv a rough idea on hw i shud do it... HIHIHI *tq ngimmi :D*

we did maths.. counted d frogs... n then we did a card.. bt b4 tat... reading.. jarisaa is a real truly bright kid... she gets things done reli fast n well.. she does most things reli well.. its normal 2 not b able 2 read a few words n get confused durin calc.. i was in her shoes those days.. so i get it.. though it seemd like a piece of cake 2day bt well.. try 2 rmmbr hw it ws like bck those days.. i noe i luv colorin *til nw actly* bt my art hs always been hrble... LOL x talented, tatz it.. bt i stil luv doin it.. hence, d stickman card production... it is oni produced 4 my fam members *tat is d 5 of us* n well.. 4 d others.. im pretty lazy 2 do it.. cz it takes quite a lot of time n effort in tinkin.. unless if u manage 2 reli steal my heart away.. LOL *sounds 2 dramatic i guess* bt well.. cards which r bought r waaayyy nicer n more artistic than mine.. LOL i could compete wif 5-6 years old i guess.. n tatz where i stand.. HEHEHE

d card was 4 xixi.. jarissa wanted 2 do it 4 her.. lol.. i hv a feelin jarissa cant rmmbr my name ^^ bt tatz ok.. its x like my name is tat common ere *it is SUPER common bck in msia though. u cn gt like a few farah in d same class.. its tat common* well.. it does hv a nice meanin... happiness,,, n i guess i am a pretty happy child *HIHIHI* too.. while my full name would mean happiness, light, eyes.. gosh... look at d combo.. HEHEHE nevertheless.. i luv my name :D wouldnt change it at all.. though nicknames r x tat bad... *i got my 1st frm cik t* XD

we studies 2gether... did some coloring... n well.. sdnly it is time 2 go bck.. n sdnly i felt reli hungry.. thank goodness i hv cookd b4hand.. so i jz need 2 go bck n eat.. though it is cold by tat time.. bt i dun care.. i was hungry n eatin wateva is available sounds gud 2 me.. yeah.. laziness. :D neways.. my idea of restin frm studyin 1 day is x accomplished... i hv my eng assign n its x done even nw.. lol.. readin d oldT isnt tat ez.. it made my head spin n well.. tryin 2 decipher it 2 prepare 4 an essay outline is even worse.. i need time n well.. i hope ill do jz fine! ^^

8th Practice

today is d 8th practice..n yay! my emotions n mental stability has been undr control.. evrytin was doin great... anti-crisis workd... d kick-bck system frm d depressed me has workd... i luv myself 4 bein able 2 come up wif a kick bck system.. though it also means alludin my own emotions b4 i sort it all out.. bt nvrtheless, i need 2 restore myself 2 my own self *hmm.. weird XD* since mid term is comin tis mon n tues.. LOL.. my attention shud b at its peak tis weekends in ordr 4 me 2 b able 2 cover all my syllabus...

im gettin dizzy at d mo.. like i usually get after drinkin coffee.. my bed is calling.. caffeine makes me sleepy... i noe its weird bt tat is hw it works wif me... i could barely keep my eyes open bt i jz wanna write tis up cz its gonna b like a daily thing 4 me 2 do tis ^^ forces me 2 b disciplined *LOL tat is a crappy reasonin*

so bck 2 d topic... 2day was d 8th practice *i noe.. i cant believe its d 8th...* n well, i hd lots of fun.. n my blister is startin 2 increase in size again.. LOL n my feet work was pretty messed up bt at least i managed 2 control it a bit.. my feet is rarely straight.. it always goes a lil bit 2 d left.. i tink... id better try 2 get things rite.. i guess a break in between studies these weekends by practicing n jumping in my studio would b a gud thing.. LOL pity whoeva is stayin right beneath me.. LOL sori neighbor.. bt i cant help it XD we did some kata in d beginning n then moved to some swinging... tat was pretty fun though i messed up here n there esp d countin part... i always lose count.. hence, mistakes happens... i shud improve on my attention then.. i guess.. i realize i do lack of attntn n take things too ezly at times... hmm.. sounds like a typical me...

next, we hd bubble tea nite *again! yeah!* initially i was tinkin of x goin bt after practice i was pretty much feelin well.. *LOL psych* n so i went after puttin my things.. well.. takumi is like d guy who sends me bck home these days... *tnx a lot takumi!! i owe u a lot!!* :) n then well.. i guess he went 2 change while i go n keep my stuff in my studio... kept it there n went 2 meet takumi again.. n we walkd 2gether n we thought we would b d last=d VIP of d day.. bt we were wrong... LAN ARRIVED L8R!!! *u took our privilige XD* n we played a game of uno.. n i was cursed.. lol.. initially it was damon who took like whole lot of card n then sumhow.. mayb he shifted d curse on me.. cz d next thing i noe was I HAD A WHOLE LOT OF CARDS IN MY DECK!!!!! i was like..wth...im gettin crappier at this.. LOL

since i had flu, so yeah.. i hd coffee.. i noe, coffee is x my thing... bt wel.. lavender coffee neways.. bt i dun taste ne lavender.. it tasted like plain coffee or was it jz my tongue.. those who noes me shud noe hw blunt i am at tasting XD everytin is always fine 2 me.. everythin is always like tat XD wat shud i cook 2mr.. HIHIHI since i have 2 empty containers nw.. mayb i could do some baking.. cool rite!! i miss bakin sooo much!!

next we talkd bout hair.. LOL patty's used 2 b like seriously long n so was lan's.. n mine is like always look short cz of d curls... LOL bt its x tat curly.. so yeah.. its more 2 wavy i guess.. but well.. i luv my hair.. esp when i tie it in ponytails *d double ponies* reminds me of hw it used 2 b like in d kindie ^^ d gud old days when i dun need 2 worry bout a thing.. evrytin is bein settled by others n i jz mess around n fool around *x tat much.. since i stil gotta study* im so grateful i hv my hair bands wif me nw... n ill learn hw 2 braid my hair soon!!!! i am gonna learn hw 2 do it frm noemy.. *is tat hw i spell her name?* oh gosh, im bad at spellin... look at wat i wrote, a bunch of sf LOL *bck in school sf=sig fig n nw ive abused it as short form* many hates it when i do tis.. bt well.. sori guys, get used 2 it, k! ill try 2 reduce it as mch as i cn.. bt.. ill try my best! XD

ok.. i cant take it nemore.. my head is spinnin... n haru no katami is makin my mind drift away........................................................ into dreamland... ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2nd Lesson

yesterday i slept 11 hours... i noe its damn long.. bt well.. i guess cz ive been exerting myself 2 much.. tatz y... as soon as i got bck frm ima i went 2 bed.. LOL tat was hw bad i felt.. bt well.. at least 2day i felt better.. n i hope it will b better 2mr... bt im still pretty disturbed... bt its gettin under control.. a bit i guess ^^

2day is d 2nd lesson wif jarissa! *yeay! i rmmbr her name* n since there iznt any hw.. so we did a few spellings, writings n numbers.. HIHIHI next tues gonna b maths.. sorry gal, maths is important! :) bein wif her does make me feel better..reminds me of hw i used 2 b when i was a kid.. LOL n well... makes me a lil bit more matured after tat cz my mood swings make me hasty and unpredictable.. which also causes me 2 act immaturely.. like yesterday.. :)

gosh.. gotta go n do my assign.. ive been dreamin all d time tat my assign which is due 2mr is x done yet!!!!!! lol... my bad i guess :)

7th Practice

this is gonna b super short... by d time practice was over.. i was half dead... i wasnt payin attention 2day. inoe2 shud hv given it a better shot... i was half listening 2 wat sensei was sayin n i tink i was doin pretty much sloppy n half dead work 2day... including my half kiai.. doin stupid mistakes n things like tat. LOL... lets jz say things werent goin d day i want it 2 b 2day... my attention was off... my mind was shuttin down... n well... my body was rejecting wat im doin... pretty much cz it is wrong... haihzzz... i am too exhausted perhaps.. of thinking... LOL esp wif d gym b4 kendo... i was half asleep while eatin dinner.. LOL mayb i shud reschedule my activities or even better, restructure my whole mindset... *wish me luck in doin tat*

its d beginnin of a crisis n i gotta whip up a fast n effective anti-crisis method n get my self straight.. get my priorities right n get me into d mood again.. tis mood swing is killing me.. i hate mood swings.. i hate pms.. LOL bt well.. its comes n goes.. n i hope by d time i got up frm bed 2mr, id feel waayy better than wat 2day... lets jz hope tatz hw its gonna b like.. with a swingy mood, my mind bcomes blunt n i get irritated ezly.. x bcoz of wat others do but bcoz of all d wrong things i end up doin... being frustrated wif ur ownself isnt sumtin u wanna experience tat often... n i guess.. i gotta move myself out of this disturbance soon... reli soon.. ^^

Death Note

yes, i know.. the title is too creepy for the content.. but that was the first thing which came to mind... *i hate picking titles.. LOL*

If tomorrow be my last
I would soar into the sky
To reach for one; the never mine
The only one: You.

If tomorrow be my last
I would dive into the deep sea
To search for one; the hidden treasure
The only one: Your smile.

If tomorrow be my last
I would be silence
To seek for one; the calming hymn
The only one: Your voice.

If the end is here
And my second is done
I would give you my soul
For I am the peasant
Wanting the one which is never mine
Giving nothing more than I to you
You; every pulse of mine
You; every breath of mine
You; who never is mine.

1st Lesson

TODAY!!! it is d 1st day of volunteering.. LOL i was pretty hungry b4 i arrived at BF Day in Fremont and i was ravenous by d time i got bck home *it was a blessing i cookd prior 2 leaving....... i would hv dropped dead out of hunger if there wasnt any food in my room when i got home... that was hw hungry i was.. well, 2day in particular, i got hungry pretty ezly.. LOL... *there goes d calories being burnt.. topped up again in matter of hours n days* XD

so yeah... i went wif xixi.. n since she wasnt ready initially *nw she is totally prepared 4 tutoring ^^* so we shared a kid 2gethr *LOL sounds wrong* her name is... omg... i noe it starts wif a j... it was jassica no, tatz x it... its lol.. am i gettin senile at tis age????? nevertheless, i noe d kid im assigned 2 initally is peyton.. bt she was late.. so another unfortunate child was assigned 2 me...

so yeah... xixi is way kinder than i am.. trust me... i started off wif intro n then studies... xixi gives hints.. while i give smiles XD which is, obvi, x helpful 2 d kid... i practically want her 2 start thinking... matchin up phonetics wif alph.. at least, tat was hw my mum showd me hw 2 teach kids readin bck in msia.. LOL n well, i noe my cuzin who is 6, is my guinea pig... she is my victim in me practicing hw 2 read... n well.. it was reli torturous 4 her.. i dun need 2 say a word 2 make her cry.. i would jz look at her n say.. kindly, i thought.. iqa, can u read for kakak? or mayb, adik, read... LOL n then she wil start crying XD *mayb i am pretty scary, lol i am not pretty scary bt i am scary... jz tat not many peepz who noes me 2day noe tat.. ask those frm cfil.. they cn tell u all kinda stuff i did bck in school* ^^ its a wonder y peepz think im kind n nice when i cn tell u im almost d opp... LOL though im tryin hard 2 keep my head cool n relaxd as much as i cn... reshapin d personality isnt ez, bt perhaps its worth d try.... ill b nice as long as ur nice n x go across d border... simple common sense :)

bt wat is d border.. well, its hard 2 tell.. XD so, in a way.. my bad... neways, we were there early. i din expect myself 2 b early at least :) n then 2day we did some hw.. eng hw... n some vocab, spelling n singular-plural stuff... gosh, d kids r soo cuddly.. XD they r so tiny tat i couldnt help but 2 smile... though my cuzins r cute 2 bt well... when i teach them.. im pretty strict.. LOL laughin, jokes, games n all allowed.. bt x jumping around, throwing tantrum.. LOL that, i cant tolerate... HEHEHE

so it din feel like 1.5 hours at all... sdnly it was time.. pretty shockin bt well.. tatz hw it went ^^ fun n all... all 3 of us were havin fun.. we were laughin.. tryin 2 get 2 noe each other.. n we met her grandpa.. greg... yeah.. i rmmbrd d grandpa's name but x my tutee... LOL i mite b gettin a new one btw next week.. i tink xixi might b handling her alone next week... gud luck, xixi!! :) thursday is gonna b d 2nd lesson... n i guess.. i stil dunno wat 2 expect! things went reli well 2day n i hope its gonna b d same 4 this thurs too! ^^

*xixi n i were talkin on d way bck.. n then sdnly i was tinkin on tues n thurs, we will b speakin usin soft voices 2 d kids, but on wed n fri we will b doin our kiai n puttin an immense amount of determination 2 get things right 4 kendo... HIHIHI pretty opp frm each other -voice usage wise- bt i guess tat is where we cn find a balance... bt d same basis could b obtained frm these two commitments: responsibility and d shapin of one's personality 2 b better frm yesterday ^^*

6th Practice

2day is d 6th practice.. cant believe it... it feels kinda shockin 4 it 2 b d 6th.. bt d pace is pretty fast... well.. some of us bought shinai for our own usage.. and somehow d women shinai was out of stock rite after i paid eric-senpai.. LOL so instead i used takumi-senpai's high school shinai... as what takumi-senpai kindly told me as he walkd me bck home, his shinai in high school is d same wif d women shinai used in uni level... so yeah.. n u bet its waaayyy lighter than bokun *well.. mayb i exaggerated a lil bit bt well.. its stil lighter ^^*

it has been rainin d whole day *it still is* it ws rainin durin class, aftr class, on d wat 2 ima, bck frm ima... it was pretty weird 4 it 2 b rainin d whole day... n well... i guess it was pretty hard 4 damon-senpai 2 get a box of shinai frm his car 2 216.. he was *x 2 d exted of soaked* bt pretty wet by d time he got there... i feel pretty sorry 4 him esp since it was *trust me* heavy... n well.. his voice was *close to* gone.. x tat it was as bad as when i lose mine *gosh, i dun wanna lose mine.. it was pretty mch annoyin when u hv a lot 2 say bt u cant say it cz it hurts n d -x d words- bt voice wont come out... it sounds as if i am whispering.. it wasnt 2 tat extend.. bt well.. he was more silent *esp projection of voice wise* than usual..

n yeah.. today was double activity as well... swimmin n kendo.. n nw i feel so sleepy n hv a feelin i mite get down wif a cold if im x careful... gotta drink warm water.. hot soup ^^ -more dumpling soup comin up!!!- n well.. healthy, less salt, less oil, etc.. haihzz.. sounds a lil bit like hospital food.. bt well.. if its 4 my own good.. i guess its gonna b worth it ^^

so yeah.. 2day i practiced with shinai in d beginning n hit another shinai.. i tink i was practicing with sung-senpai.. if im x mistaken... d prob is i tink 2 much.. n when i concentrate on my foot *cz acc 2 sung-senpai, my left food din move tat much* my swing gets pretty slow and shows hesitation... n if i start 2 stop thinkin tat much.. my left feet does x move tat much.. bt after being reminded.. then it started moving LOL

aftr practice, then we went with sensei to 316 and we used our bokun again.. practice on footwork, men, kote and do... and yeah.. a lot of explanation happened a long d way.. oh yeah.. n then we practiced with a partner with our bokun.. x swinging bt well.. jz feet movement.. while holding komai, we were spose 2 'push' our partner/opponent to d mirror/window.. bt x 2 d point of hitting them *honestly, i was soo worried of hittin d window tat i did a lot of hesitation.. it feels weird movin backwords w/out knowin where im headin.. LOL while most p r of my height, my last p was a guy who is like 1 head (or izit 2?) taller than me.. his bokun was higher than my head that it was pretty hard 4 me 2 c.. LOL *oh yeah... 2day..it was cnfrmd my height is 154cm... LOL .. its been that height since i was 15 i tink.. LOL*

ok.. so d old blister is getting larger *again* i shud consider gettin tape soon.. LOL i keep on 4gettin... n i tink cz i was forcing my left foot 2 move durin warm up.. i got another one at my toe.. i guess that shows that my footin was pretty off... gotta practice more on tat i tink.. i hope i hv time 2 prac at least on my own over d wend bt well.. i havent even done my eng/hist assign (its alredi there.. bt x refined), 2 lab assign, 1 lecture assign, hist reading... LOL it sounds pretty much bt here i am... wastin *pretty much* my time.. i need 2 get at least d eng assign n lab 3 done b4 sun nite.. b4 zombieland ^^ or ill feel guilty about watchin a movie while my assign lay abandoned.. *lol..*

i guess my studio window shud nvr b left open as wide as i am leavin it nw.. mayb d chill is gettin at me.. n well.. i met end up gettin a flu if i brilliantly keep on doin tis... oh yeah... neways.. my body always hurt b4 n after kendo.. bt during.. it doesnt hurt tat much.. yeah, i get tired bt well ^^ guess we gotta b pretty determined when we hv set our own goals ^^ even if its a small one... frm experience, d small things in life is d basis of d bigger achievements which comes in d future.. so dun gv up any of ur goals/dreams *though at times it is unavoidable* bt jz keep on movin, x matter wat d obstacle is.. sure, ull do great in d end... those kinda stuff is wat make one mature and wiser in life.. so, go 4 it.. even if it sounds silly 2 others.. bt it mite b really beneficial 4 urself ^^

5th Practice

today is pretty much a physical activity marathon... not reli a straight marathon thingy bt i did double activities today.. no 1, def kendo n well.. a few hours right b4 kendo was swimming.. tnx 2 ching n manny... well.. i went.. n practically felt like an idiot cz its been ages since i last swam... slow is one thing... improper breathin technique is another.. LOL guess a lot of practices need 2 b done... and well.. almost got leg cramp before going out of d pool.. bt thnk goodness it was under control... manage 2 stop it b4 it happened! ^^ made a few rounds n well... got ching 2 learn hw 2 float *bt failed misreably* n i felt more miserable after tat.. d depression start as soon as my bag was full of things... *gosh, i need 2 wash my swim suit again...* it is stil in a lump in my bag... LOL i just got bck... n im hungry n sleepy.. n im eatin cereal.. cz i cant sleep wif an empty stomach.. XD

ok so after swimmin for like 1 hour... then manny n ching was like in a hurry 2 meet up yi en cz they r signin up 4 d family plan thingy.. so now.. IM D ONI ONE WOUT A NO! YAY! :) it will come.. one day.. when i get my own XD bt well... i havent reli see a need for that.. so well.. it can wait... though im lookin 4ward 2 get it.. there is a reason y im holdin bck.. n i guess tat reason shall lie within me unless some1 is brilliant enuf 2 list down d reasons 4 me :) n i shall tell ya whether its wrong or right.. :)

ok bck 2 wat i did.. i was in d locker room like for 1.5 hours.. LOL... i ended up fallin asleep in d changin room.. LOL i was waitin for my prayer time n fell asleep by accident... LOL... n then i woke up n continue readng history.. LOL gotta catch up :) ok n then i was lingerin around n around 630 i went up... ok gym 216 was stil occupied... i bumpd into damon-senpai n i cant rmmbr who is d other one... *gosh, short term memory* n well.. even 316 has peepz inside.. so we do need 2 wait outside.. obvi, n start chatterin around.. lets jz say d reason im x as chattery as usual was bcoz i am pretty xhausted n stil sleepy... i guess my voice wasnt as cheery as its spose 2 b n my thoughts were driftin away... like im in a dream land LOL bt yeah.. i was pretty xhausted n couldnt really smile like i wan 2... its gonna b d same tis fri... bt i tink ill b more capable of controllin myself tis fri cz its x d 1st time :) self control is very important.. my mind n soul wasnt particularly wif me tonite.. a part of myself was pretty off... i hv been thinkin of somethin which i myself am x sure wat izit.. i noe sounds crazy.. bt tat is hw it is... i feel crappy by admittin tat...

nevertheless.. my beautiful blister is gettin bigger... LOL it pretty much hurts bt wat i realize is tat if i were 2 4get bout it n put my mind on d movement of both feet n swing... it kinda felt painless.. *c, d power of psych* LOL bt it did work.. so yeah.. bt d point 2 get me concentrate isnt tat ez.. bt x matter wat... im gonna try my best in gettin it done.. so yeah.. we did do, men, kote, sayu men, n i 4got wats d name of d other one... n well.. im tryin my best 2 rmmbr as many vocab as i cn... as much as i cn.. 2 make things ezier 4 me.. n perhaps, tis fri i cn get my shinai frm damon-senpai.. LOL lets jz hope i dun 4get bout d money ^^

we did a new game 2day wif marsten-sensei... lolz.. pushin 4ward (moving) n then sdnly 2 do d attack step... i got my swings all mixed up cz of that... n was pretty disoriented... LOLZ bt well.. guess that will happen.. xpected it.. bt im gonna try my best 2 get over it :) i jz ate 2 bowls of cereal.. cz im pretty ravenous... LOL.. OMG i havent clean up my dinner tupperware.. need 2 get my shower, prayer n then sleep... 2mr wake up early... puasa again.. last day 4 puasa 6 ^^ YAY!

4th Practice

I noe its late at night now... bt im changing my sleep time just 4 2day... instead of sleeping nw.. ill b sleepin after subuh... i guess my sleepiness has seemed 2 past n im gonna b extremely tired after subuh.. so ill take tat time 2 sleep well.. n nw i shall concentrate on my 1st draft *a lil* n do some primary sources reading... its x crazy, reli, 2 study at wee hours... esp since 2mr is a sat ^^

so yeah.. d 4th practice.. a new sensei came over and he was alone in training both the seniors and d juniors... he practically made us take turns 2 practice our foot work.. n YAY!! A BIG FAT BLISTER HAS APPEARED!! ^^ in a way i am kinda glad its there.. it does make my feet move faster.. LOL oni my right foot is stil kinda nice.. n clean... xcept 4 d fact that d ankle is x reli in favor at d mo...

so what we did was to practice our feet work *i 4got wat it is called but i should be able 2 recognize it once I hear it again.. I noe it starts wif an s* we had fun 2day n lots of laughs.. though i was suppressing them into a smile.. n yeah... my warm up was pretty weird 2day..LOL... facing d wrong directions.. LOL bt yeah... we did a lot of movements n well.. i mite b able 2 practice in my room *owh whoeva is stayin below my apartment, thousand apologies 4 d feet stomping -if u hear them-* im very glad i had a studio apartment... cn practice at my own leisure time without worryin bout knockin humans *bt well.. knockin wall is inevitable*

so well.. after d practice, all *umm.. mostly perhaps* went 2 d bubble tea shop.. gosh... i 4got d name.. yujin mayb.. lol... short term memory... XD xixi is d kendo club known photographer... she was practically snapping away all night long! ^^ and i was listening n talking 2 a lot of peepz as well.. *i guess tatz one of d few things i could do* talkd 2 many bt dun rmmbr many names.. my bad.. sori guys... bt ill work hard 2 memorise as many as possible as soon as possible... so yeah.. yuni *hmm. i tink tis is d right name* was filled wif uw kenshins.. LOL damon senpai was, i tink, reli happy 2 c d increase in no of kenshins tis quarter... well.. i tink evry president would b happy 2 c d increasin size of his/her society... but that doesnt mean we could slack off.. it means we must tink of a way 2 establish ourself in uw... it wouldnt b ez.. bt well.. when we unite, i guess everytin is close to being possible though it mite take time :)bt if we r able 2 hv faith in each n evry one in d society, i believe we could do it ^^

we were talkin all nite long til d shop almost closed... LOL we only started movin out after Damon senpai told us 2 get a move.. bt well.. we din reli head bck tat soon... we were all then gathered in front of d door and started talkin again... n yeah, Damon senpai sent me bck home cz it was past midnite n all... i am SERIOUSLY bad wif roads *n driving* so yeah.. i dun reli noe which are d one way roads.. bt i roughly noe which r they.. bt i cant guarantee tat my info is right... thank goodness he knows d road.. LOLZ *tis is one of d major things which i cant do* n well.. here i am nw... so called on d path 2 gettin my assignments done.. half of it at least.. :) get 2 work ^^

3rd Practice

Ok.. d 3rd renshu juz passed today... :) it was more tiring than b4 n sumhow 'miraculously' my right ankle was aching on d way 2 d ima.. howeva, i braced myself *lol* n stil continued d lesson... my right ankle is feelin a lil bit worse nw bt well.. i hope its gonna b fine wif some ointments n things like tat.. tis always happen i tink.. it happened several times ^^

so what happened 2day.. more feet movement.. another thing.. LOL my alertness level is pretty bad i guess.... or mayb its cz i focus on other things n kinda 4get bout certain other things.. like my feet positions, my komai n things like that... d bokun position as well.. gotta buck up on tat side.... n i will try my best 2 pay more attention 2 evry single details in kendo as much as i cn.. n i will try my best 2 improve during evry single lesson *ill gv it my best shot ^^* thought improvement mite not come within split second, i hope at least it would do me some gud at least at d end of tis quarter ^^

more peepz r comin into kendo 2day... n most probably 2day is gonna b d last day of new intakes... tatz wat Marsten-sensei said.. mayb :) well... had a looonnnggg practice day 2day.. it felt longer 2day 4 certain reasons.. hmm... n b4 goin bck.. talkd a bit 2 Damon-senpai.. din go 4 iaido.. followed a new group of fwenz bck home ^^ it is RELI nice of them to walk me bck home.. reli reli nice ^^

n tis fri after practice, there will b a bubble tea nite... ^^ did i mention my mum was dead worried bout me x gettin bck though it was l8..after xplainin she was fine wif it ^^ tis fri gonna b l8 as well, i guess ^^ thank goodness 2mr class dun start at 830.. so i cn sleep again after sahur n subuh... get a lil bit more rest than usual i guess... n yeah.. relax my right feet which is x workin tat well.. my left is as expected..aching n blistering.. *x shocking* bt well.. d prob is nw my righty.. we'll c hw things goes... praying it will b fine :)

D Shoreline Trip

LOL. yeah..i went 2 shoreline 2day... 2 d central market, 2 b more specific.. *lolz.. thinkin back.. i shud hv gone 2 uwajimaya first cz its nearer...* bt well.. that is where i went 2day.. n it was a LOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG but meaningful trip.. 4 various reason...

i woke up super late 2day cz sumhow after subuh i felt pretty exhausted stil... *bt my legs r no more hurting YAY!* n i took d 216 bus on 31 to aurora ave *i tink* n sumhow i missed my transit bus which is bus 5... not long b4 i arrive at d bus station, d bus passed by me *LOLZ* so, i gotta wait 4 d next bus.... sumhow.. d next 5 was not headin 2 shoreline.. bt its goin 2 northgate transit.. so there i was tinkin.. mayb i shud jz go bck cz its alredi 3 plus... wel... bt i thought tat would b a waste of time n since i rmmbrd at metro website that i cn go 2 shoreline frm northgate transit, so yeah.. i made up my mind 2 continue my journey despite not knowing which bus 2 go on.. *4 real*

arrived at d transit n well.. searched 4 a map n chckd which one heads 2 shoreline... there i met a Halmoni.. who helped me throughout d journey.. d bus driver almost got me goin d wrong direction when d halmoni told her 2 call me again 2 head d other side 2 go on 358... during d whole journey on 345 d halmoni told me of her story.. her 5 siblings din want her nemore.. all of them r in south korea... n its due 2 d fact that none of them have been in touch wif each other.. hence, lost contact... well, one of her son is here in seattle... while d other has passed away 7 years ago at the young age of 20.. yeah, i hv problems understanding what she is saying at times.. but well, d message did come across.. as she was talkin bout her deceased son, i tink there were tears in her eyes... n she admitted she stil misses him... that is what we call as mother's love.. never ending :) n neways, she is 66.. she now stays in an old folks home sumwhere at aurora...

after gettin on 358 im stil at a lost on where d market is.. so i askd d kind driver 2 tell me when 2 stop.. all smiles he said he would inform me when i shud get down... n its as if it was fated that i met another lady who helped me 2 get 2 d market... as d driver waved at me 2 get off d bus d lady offered me to go wif her 2 d market... she is joan, btw.. :) a nice lady.. reli nice.. like d halmoni :) if i were alone.. i am pretty sure ill b walkin around aimlessly searchin 4 d market.. LOLZ cz its not exactly opposite d bus stop.. bt well.. since we went 2gether.. i managed 2 get 2 it... n she told me bout another asian market by d name of H&T i tink.. bt i did write it down in my book.. n i took joan's email.. *gud 4 me* n she told me that it was brave of me 2 b travellin far on my own *LOL.. its kinda fun i tink* bt she did tell me that if i wanna noe hw 2 go newhere, i can just buzz her.. *she is soo kind!* n then, we set of our own ways in d market...

d market is RELI big!!! d biggest i have enterd yet ere :) n i bought some fishes, prawn, squid, seafood n vege dumplings, wonton mee n yakisoba :) gosh, i dunno wat im gonna do wif all those bt well.. it would serve me well for d whole month i guess... i hope it would last tat long... n i noe it would if i stop myself frm eating loadz of food over d weekends n yeah! i bought my 1st snack!! baby fishies biscuit!! i ate them b4 in msia.. n i found them again!! i was SOO xcited when i saw tat on d shelves.. LOL... i was smiling all d way... n i tink i bough spinach pizza as well.. i hope it tastes as good as hw it was back in swiss :)

on d way back.. took 358, 345 *ouch, nw im x sure whether it was 345 or 354* n then 66 bck home... n as soon as i got bck.. whipped up some dinner n well.. here i am! on9!! :) more work 2 do 2nite... better get movin! :)

2nd Practice

Today (Fri) is the 2nd practice or shall I say, lesson, with Elizabeth Sensei and Damon Senpai... it is realy tiring cz well... d ache frm wed havent healed yet n here i am puttin more pressure on my muscles.. bt since we were allowed 2 do it at our own pace... it doenst hurt tat much ^^ reli nice of them 2 allow us 2 do so ^^

D other day we learnt Komai *i tink thatz hw its spelled* and d basic feet movement of d feet for kendo... and also a lil bit of sword swinging and incorporate it with basic feet movement.. as 4 today.. it was d attack feet movement and at d end of d day *b4 we go down n c senpai-tachi having their renshu Damon-senpai thought us 2 incorporate the swinging wif d attack feet movement. pretty tough while thinkin bout ur feet moving faster and gettin d swing stable n all.. well, i guess i did it pretty slowly.. LOL i reli reli reli hope things will get better as d weeks pass by :)

What Damon-senpai said 2day was pretty cool... kendo is x bout using ur energy but about controlling ur sword... i guess its kinda true cz if u put 2 much force in it..u mite end up hurting urself rather than ur opponent n there is a high chance that he/she mite take advantage of tat situation... well, bottom line is, always b in control of everytin u do :) n well, another fact which Damon-senpai told me was.. usually around 75% drops Kendo... LOL i hope i would be one of d 25% though in msia 2 practice kendo would b kinda hard cz its not popular as others like taekwondo or karate.. hence, kendo dojo is almost never in sight.. *sighs* but nvm.. ill try 2 search one i guess n get myself work out there even after graduating ^^